jasleeve

congrats! im scheduled on the 20th! my best advice is dive head 1st. whatever comes out after surgery is what you will deal with when you cross that bridge! for now, focus on your pre op diet & your hospital stay. as far as gas post op, walk walk walk & take gas x strips. thats the only thing you will be able to control. dont forget to sip lol

you have absolutely noooo idea how BAD i want to shop there! i think i would even get a part time job there just to be there all day long! i would go there with a clean credit card & just max it out & buy everything! lol. dont get me wrong, im not that big. ima 16/18 in jeans & wear a XL/XXL but i just remembering being a size 6 in jeans & a M/L in shirts. i try to be as fashionable as possible but its hard when you have to hide this & that but accentuate this and that. it has gotten to the point that wearing jeans is "dressing up" and wearing sweats is an everyday thing. and i only wear black because it gives an illusion! lol. im so over this!

im sure its normal to feel this way. we choose surgery & although we have surgery done, i dont think we realize whats in front of us. like yes, we know we are going to lose the weight but SEEING IS BELIEVING! so when you began seeing weight loss, that became your new addiction! now you have to battle another addiction to stop the loss. it is hard to switch your mind up but with time, youll adjust. a psychiatrist may be a big help as well along with any support groups in your area. good luck to you!

well shes a really good friend & supports me tremendously! i just know her so well & i listen to some things that she says about other people who are smaller than me or whatever... i say to myself, if she feels that way about them, she must feel that way about me! idk. when im with her, i play the ugly fat friend. although im not ugly, the way i dress isnt too flattering. i HATE it.

thank you for the kind words. i attend support groups, have a youtube vlog & visit VST often. i guess i cant believe how i let myself go but i guess it will get better after surgery!

thank you so much! its true.. next year, ill be there for sure! i just look in the mirror & im so DISGUSTED! i also feel like she looks at me the same. i mean, i know she accepts me flaws and all but i do feel that she looks at me like "im not on her level." i even dress some what like a tom boy because dressing too girly isnt flattering. im ashamed.

i went with my bestfriend shopping today. she has an amazing body!!! we went to a store that I CANT FRIGGIN WAIT TO SHOP IN!!!! as i helped her try on a million and one sexy dresses for her birthday party tomorrow at a club, i couldnt help but be sooooooooo jealous! i kept looking in the mirror at myself & i swear, i saw flaws that ive never noticed before. i mean damn, the things i was saying about myself in my head were so mean & cruel. id knock someones head off their shoulders if they ever said to me what i was saying to myself! im more worst critic. at this point, tuesday isnt coming fast enough! i just want to be sleeved & begin my journey in going back to a size where i felt sexy! tomorrows my bestfriends birthday party & shes so upset that im not going but the truth is, i cant wear heels because im too big to balance myself on a heel & it kills my feet & back! & i wouldnt dare put on a sexy dress & i only have 1 pair of jeans that fit me! while shes all cute & thin but curvy, im big, round & just not cute. i could never tell her this because she would just roll her eyes to the back of her head & say "soooooo what!" or "no your not!" but i know i am & its not so what! theres nothing that i hate more than when i express my feelings to someone & they dismiss them! smh! what pisses me off also is she always ALWAYS calls herself fat. if youre fat, WDF AM I??? i literally threatened her today & cursed her out and told her to STFU!!! my insecurities were sitting up on mars some where. smh! thanks for reading my story, i needed to get that out!

congrats!!! is the hair loss really that bad?

yay!

mine is tuesday too

wow! did he ever come?

i cant believe ppl would even ask why u r buying a robe! ummmm u dumb female dog, could be for a number of reasons.... lets see: 1. its winter! 2. you like to put one on after a shower! 3. its christmas season! 4. you dont want to walk around in your pjs! smh. people truly make me sick! lol.

do whatever you feel is right for you! screw him! we all stand behind you!

the NERVE of some people!

1. lose weight. 2. become a gym rat. lol. 3. learn to love myself. 4. learn my sleeve. 5. get back into school. 6. pay off some debt. 7. become a social butterfly. 8. become more fashionable.

ok

CONGRATS MY LOVE!!!! im so happy for you!!! <3

lol you could make it private and make it so that only certain ppl see it. look me up on youtube

aw thanks love! when i get to my mac, imasub to u now

"the end of a relationship is not necessarily the tragedy. staying in a relationship that is no longer working is the tragedy! living unhappily- thats the tragedy." -olivia wilde

good luck to you! and i doubt there will be any negative people! what can they really say at this point? youve had it done! youre alive & kicking and youre down 25lbs! and if they are negative, i got 2 words for them... F U! enjoy your day at work & stay blessed girl.

congrats!!

good luck to you & congrats on 20lbs!!! thats amazing!

wow! i am sooooo very sorry that you have gone through this but this is more than a NSV! this is the chance for a whole new life and a healthier life. i too just got out of a long relationship very recent & i invested so much! maybe a good 75% of me & i lost it but atleast i have 25% of me left to possibly invest in someone who is worth it & ill be winning!

i am too