Hey everyone. Well it finally happened, I woke up today and literally could not deal with all the anxiety of the surgery. It hit me that it was exactly one week away from my surgery. I have been having nightmares and overall general anxiety about the surgery. The last c-section I had I almost died due to blood loss. I guess I have alot of reasons to be scared my previous husband has passed away and If I die two of my children will not have any living parents left. I am thinking to myself that mabye by having the surgery I am being selfish and not thinking about my children. I had to muster up enough energy to go to school tearyed and finally had to leave class because I couldn't stop crying. I know I am probaly overeacting, but I just can't seem to help it! One of my medicines says to tell your doctor before having surgery and you might need to stop taking it several days before surgery. I brought this to the attention to my doctor and he says to still keep taking my anitdepressant called amitryptyline. Again I know I am freaking out, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I am just one hot mess. Wondring if I should write letters to all my children just in case....I have four children of my own and three step children. If I die my husband will not be able to take care of them all! Sorry if you all think I am crazy I just might be lol Did I mention also that no one but my husband wants me to have this surgery! Thanks for listening or just letting me rave about my paranoiad thoughts...Thanks, nina