Hey everyone. Well it finally happened, I woke up today and literally could not deal with all the anxiety of the surgery. It hit me that it was exactly one week away from my surgery. I have been having nightmares and overall general anxiety about the surgery. The last c-section I had I almost died due to blood loss. I guess I have alot of reasons to be scared my previous husband has passed away and If I die two of my children will not have any living parents left. I am thinking to myself that mabye by having the surgery I am being selfish and not thinking about my children. I had to muster up enough energy to go to school tearyed and finally had to leave class because I couldn't stop crying. I know I am probaly overeacting, but I just can't seem to help it! One of my medicines says to tell your doctor before having surgery and you might need to stop taking it several days before surgery. I brought this to the attention to my doctor and he says to still keep taking my anitdepressant called amitryptyline. Again I know I am freaking out, but just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I am just one hot mess. Wondring if I should write letters to all my children just in case....I have four children of my own and three step children. If I die my husband will not be able to take care of them all! Sorry if you all think I am crazy I just might be lol Did I mention also that no one but my husband wants me to have this surgery! Thanks for listening or just letting me rave about my paranoiad thoughts...Thanks, nina

You are doing the right thing and will be much much healthier for your children!

We really do not bleed much with this surgery. You will be fine!

Hugs,

Kelly

You are defininately NOT crazy! That is a lot to consider. I had the same thoughts and truthfully don't know if I could have done it if I were the only parent. I think you would not be normal if you didn't have these concerns. I will keep you in my prayers. You have to do what is right for you. No one else can tell you to have the surgery or not to, it has to feel right to you. Good luck.

You will come though the surgery just fine. You have told your surgeon about your medications and you need to follow his advice - he knows what he is doing.

It is tough to go through the surgery. There's a lot that goes on in our heads building up to the surgery and then again after as we deal with the changes that are happening. What you are feeling is nothing to be ashamed of - it's actually pretty normal. It may be therapeutic for you to write letters to your children before the surgery. It might also be helpful to talk to a psychologist - perhaps the one your surgeon had you see for the psych evaluation. There's nothing wrong with talking to someone professionally about how you are feeling.

Girl, I understand completely. I realized today that it is 1 week away, too,and I became very anxious. When they called to schedule my preadmission testing, I freaked out. I am getting very anxious. I am the sole provider for my family and am really struggling. My insurance isn't covering the procedure, so I don't even know if my life insurance would pay if something were to happen. At the same time, I know it is very unlikely for there to be a serious complication, and I need to do this for my family so I can be more active with them. I also need to do it so I can maintain the work I do for the next 20 years in order ot continue to provide for them. We need to do this, we will do this, and it will all be ok! That is my mindset right now! Ask again tommorrow after my last preop appt and preadmission testing and I am may be freaking out again.

You are doing the right thing by having the surgery. It is sooooo hard when you have kids to think about what could happen. I was freaking out before surgery too cause I was worried I would be a statistic. You will do fine and you will be heathier as a result!

Deep breaths......

Thanks you all so much I am so lucky to have you guys thank you thank you! I will get through this just a rough patch right? Your kind words mean so much to me

Everything you are feeling is completely NORMAL. I don't have any of the health issues or personal issues in my life but I was equally as afraid and the night before I had a panic/anxiety attack. I couldn't take deep breaths! I was psyching myself out. That had never happened to me before but I think it's just nerves. Just trust that everything will work out. We ALL felt something similar and are on the other side doing fine. Good luck to you

Everything you are feeling is completely NORMAL. I don't have any of the health issues or personal issues in my life but I was equally as afraid and the night before I had a panic/anxiety attack. I couldn't take deep breaths! I was psyching myself out. That had never happened to me before but I think it's just nerves. Just trust that everything will work out. We ALL felt something similar and are on the other side doing fine. Good luck to you

thank you sweetie

Nina, everything will be ok. I know how you must feel. I thought about writing my youngest a letter, but I didn't. Instead I just told him one day how much I loved him. But not in a way to scare him. I think my daughter who is 25 was more worried about losing me than anyone else. She just didn't relax until I texted her a pic after my surgery to show her I was ok. It's natural to have these feelings. But you are going to be ok. And by doing this, you will be healthier for your children.

Good luck sweetie. Try to relax and just enjoy this next week with your kiddo's.

Hugs to you.

Your surgery date is the same as mine. Yes I am kind of freaking out too. If it would make you feel better, write those letters. Maybe it will give you peace of mind. I am more jittery about this surgery than any of my others. The others I did not really have a choice. It was a matter of life or a rather unpleasent death. Maybe because this is elective, and I have too much time to think it is freaking me out. You are going through this surgery for a very good reason. You are doing it so you will be around for your children. See if you can get an appointment with the psych you went to see before. I think they wil be able to help you settle your mind a bit.

Khy

Nina, everything will be ok. I know how you must feel. I thought about writing my youngest a letter, but I didn't. Instead I just told him one day how much I loved him. But not in a way to scare him. I think my daughter who is 25 was more worried about losing me than anyone else. She just didn't relax until I texted her a pic after my surgery to show her I was ok. It's natural to have these feelings. But you are going to be ok. And by doing this, you will be healthier for your children.

Good luck sweetie. Try to relax and just enjoy this next week with your kiddo's.

Hugs to you.

thanks sweetie it means alot

Your surgery date is the same as mine. Yes I am kind of freaking out too. If it would make you feel better, write those letters. Maybe it will give you peace of mind. I am more jittery about this surgery than any of my others. The others I did not really have a choice. It was a matter of life or a rather unpleasent death. Maybe because this is elective, and I have too much time to think it is freaking me out. You are going through this surgery for a very good reason. You are doing it so you will be around for your children. See if you can get an appointment with the psych you went to see before. I think they wil be able to help you settle your mind a bit.

Khy

You hit the nail right on the head. I guess since it is elective surgery you feel alot of guilt. I need to look at this like its something that is going to save my life. I am afraid if I talk to the psych she will think I am crazy lol.