My weight has been the one thing I can't really control in life.
I come from a long line of tall, big-boned giants in my family. (Seriously, my dad is a non-athlete and needed a knee replacement the size of a football player's.) I am 5'9 and have always had long legs and curves, even at my highest weight. I developed earlier than other girls when I was in my teens, and owned a size 12 (Between 165-185 lbs) until my sophomore year in college. I've always loved my body and felt that it was beautiful even if I was more voluptuous than other girls in school.
During college I ate more. I discovered that beer and wine were good. (You know, before you realized they contained boat loads of empty calories?) My sleep patterns changed and the stress of tests, papers and social life added up-- and so did the pounds. By the time I graduated I was larger (Size 18-20, 240-260 lbs) but still had my curves. Dieting became more of a priority now, but the dieting almost made it worse. I would lose weight, regain. Cut carbs, try intuitive eating, then go to a doctor, go to the gym and try to get on a new plan, try the South Beach Diet, Eat Vegetarian... you get it? Right?
I felt like my energy was sucked up with trying to lose the pounds and it was discouraging thinking about it. I worked hard at my career while still trying to work out and eat less carbs. I was supervised by a doctor, personal trainer and nutritionist-- but somehow I just couldn't stop the lose and regain cycle I had started. Every time I stepped on the scale, I was more than 20 lbs heavier than the last time. I wore nice clothes to the office, but as my weight creeped higher and higher-- my heels got lower and lower-- because my sitting and walking posture were losing strength. I felt my muscles weaken and it was weird for me. (By this time, I was about 300-320 lbs.)
I added more time in the gym to help keep me active and to prevent myself from becoming completely glued to my office chair or in meetings. I gave up alcohol and only drank water.For a year and a half before my wedding, I worked out 4-5 days a week (cardio and strength). My diet was balanced, (whole grain, lean meats, vegetables, occasional treats) but between working out, going to work 40-55 hours a week-- I ate way more when I came home. Not out of stress, but because I felt HUNGRY. No fast foods, no crazy fried foods-- just balanced meals choices... but HUGE portions. I ended up losing 5 pounds in a year and a half for my wedding. Then gaining 15 while on my honeymoon-- my highest weight. (376 lbs.)
So let's fast forward to today: I am a successful professional in marketing. I have competitive skills and work well with others. I am able to look people in the eye with the same confidence I have always had. I love myself, and I love my life. I just want to be a winner of my own health, too. I am working out in the gym still, eating a balanced diet, now reducing my portions and I weighed in today at 358 lbs. I am currently at a size high 24 and low 26. I still wear heels to work, but low ones. I am at a point where I can walk up and down stairs, quickly through hallways and to my car with a bit of a heavy breath-- but still doable. My chair is snugger than I would like it to be, but it works. I pass on the endless parade of employee birthday cakes, but still participate in the celebrations.
My struggle now is trying to control the urge to eat at night and keep my calories in check. It's hard. It's hard not to be tired after work. It's hard to be as focused on my duties, be a leader and ensure I take care of my body with the proper nutrients and exercise it needs. I have some aches that I didn't have before. My lower back gets tight and my joints crack more. This is a new development and one of the reasons I am moving forward with the VSG surgery. Working out IS HARDER at this weight, and it still feels like I am not getting anywhere. However, I am staying positive no matter what.
I have decided that I am going to take control and apply this tool (the VSG, is a tool-- not a cure-all) to my gym routine and eat like my nutritionist instructs. Protein, small amounts, stay away from those starchy carbs. I only drink water and iced coffee with a little light cream in the morning. I am already learning to love my scale and thinking of it as a unit of measurement. (The same way I would measure success at work.) I can still be my big-boned, tall self at work-- I just need some help and taking these next steps will help me do that.
Anyone else struggle with the weight and work? (In the office or at home?) I'd love to hear about it. I will continue to write more. The good, the bad and the UGLY It's here we can all share these experiences and learn from each other.
Surgery on Tuesday.22 Aug17. Weather looks stormy for the weekend. Thursday. Well now we have a hurricane and all my "support "has either evacuated or is too busy for me. Thank goodness my mates are in same home. They have tended to me like champs. Shots, G2, pop sickles, med reminders and anything else I have needed. Thank u C3 and Joe
5 years ago I got a lap band and I failed. I kept the weight off, but stopped losing after about 3 months. I would still diet here and there, usually a halfhearted new years resolution and took a few pounds off and then after a few months stopped and put them right back on. 2 years ago I was admitted to the hospital with severe abdominal pain, like debilitating abdominal pain. After 24 hours of constant testing and 3 pelvic exams I was diagnosed with a ruptured ovarian cyst. The pain was intense and it stopped me from doing anything I enjoyed because inevitably it would rupture and I'd end up back in the ER. So I stopped being active and the cyst stopped rupturing, win, win, right? Wrong... it was growing, growing to the size of an orange. I went in for my annual exam in May of last year and my Dr. was shocked at how big it was. She sent me to get a CT scan and ultrasound we did that every 4 weeks watching it keep growing. At this point, September she did an OVA1 test, to check for ovarian cancer markers. It was positive and I got sent off to an Oncologist. There I continued to get CT scans and ultrasounds, CA125 tests.. The cyst was still growing, the screens were positive. In the middle of this my band slipped and that sent me once again to the ER, my esophagus was in spasms, I had GERD and couldn't keep anything down. I had to get all the fluid removed from my band. I was depressed and had to accept the real possibility that my life as I knew it was over. My Oncologist scheduled me for a full hysterectomy, pelvic lymphadenectomy, partial colectomy and an abdomen scraping. I was miserable, depressed , really just ready to give up. On February 1, 2017 I went in for surgery not knowing what I would wake up to. I woke up in the recovery room, unable to feel my hands with a nurse scraping blood off of my face. I reached down to see if I was still all there, to see my oncologist standing at my feet with a beaming smile on her face. She told me that my biopsy was negative and she only removed the right ovary and fallopian tube. I didn't have cancer, I was not in instant menopause! I was going to live!!
I physically healed within a month and then I realized that I needed to mentally heal as well. I found a therapist and started seeing her once a week. I faced my reality and decided that not only did I want to live again, I wanted to be the best me I could be. I made an appointment with the surgeon that did my band to see what my options were. He said that for my age and weight he thought I should do the sleeve. I said no, I made that mistake before, I'm going in all or none this time. He talked to me for over an hour about the sleeve and told me to go home and think about it. I went home and started to research and came to the conclusion that he was right. I went back in and we made a plan, I would get the Lap band removed and he would preform the sleeve operation at the same time. I had to go through all the insurance requirements again and I'm glad I did. I'm still seeing my therapist, have left my husband (not getting into that here, but it was a very good thing) and have a new self awareness that I never had before.
I'm scheduled for surgery on 9/8/2017. I haven't gotten insurance approval yet, I'm still concerned about that. But I have started my pre-op diet and gotten everything lined up for my post-op. I have been much more open about what's going on, I have told, friends, family and co-workers. I'm excited! I'm ready to live my best life.
Well the scaled moved some today. yay I'm five weeks post op today and I did my Monday weigh in and it's on 267.0 finally away from the 270. But like I had mentioned before, I was still shrinking because I could tell by my belt. I could tell by my belt. I never got to measure last week. seems my tape measure did a hoodie and can't locate it. But I'm good. Not letting stalls or anything get to me. I feel much better and that is all that matters. My goals are to up my working out. I walk a mile 5 times a day, but would like to see about doing more cardio. I see doc tomorrow for follow up and see what he says. I do still have incision pain on my largest incision. So not sure what I'm allowed to do.
I am still trying to get the eating down too. I know I'm not suppose to snack, but to do just three meals a day doesn't get my protein in. I do like five mini meals. All good stuff like diced chicken, yogurt, cottage cheese, cheese stick, protein soups from this site ( so yummy), etc. It works for me.
My big excitement beside the eclipse everyone is going bonkers over today here at work is, my husband and I are going to Gatlinburg here in TN in Oct. for my 45th birthday/ 23rd Anniversary. So excited. This will be a different trip since we usually focused a lot of our trips on FOOD and places to eat. I'm not a big shopper so trying to figure out the best way to enjoy a NON - FOOD focused trip.
Well hope everyone is doing well in Bariatric Land.
Blessing to you all,
Had my 7 week PS followup on Monday! Dr is very pleased the boobies are healing nicely. No incisions opened up which is great! However my left nipple still has not popped out yet. Was told to keep massaging it, which I will do. Told I could finally wear a regular bra. However we did discussed the fact that I bought the B cup bra in the style I use to wear and am smaller than that B cup bra. Yet, my friend gave me her padded B cup bra and the cup part fits over my boobies nicely. The padding comes out. The Dr and I discussed sewing those paddings into my B cup bra as I need the back and sides higher which is my bra style. I do sew so I was pleased to hear to go ahead and do that for now.
Good News! The Dr wants me back on Sept 11th for the next consultation for PS which will be my arms. I was hoping for my tummy but I still have about 27 pounds before I get to goal. The Dr felt that the arms were ready to be worked on and the extra 27 I have to lose wouldn't really affect the arms as much as the tummy. Plus I have a hernia so he needs to coordinate with another surgeon for the hernia repair and tummy surgery at the same time This will be done next year.
I am able to go back to swimming and can go to the gym if I wish to do so. I have been walking with my walker and also my cane and have been riding my bike. I am feeling great and have so much more confidence and am becoming more involved in life. I am looking forward to finding out about the arm lift and how long of a recovery period I will need. I don't know if getting the arm lift will help with my ability to walk better but I do know it will help with the types of blouses I will be able to wear. No more long sleeves!
Four weeks today I did something that was to change me for the rest of my life. I had the Gastric Sleeve done at Centennial Hospital with Dr. Dyer on 07/17/2017. My highest weight was 315. I as of today weight 270.0. i never got my Day of Surgery weight, but I think it was 286. I have been on a roller coaster stall for a couple weeks now.
I've read this is common but it can still be frustrating, especially since I'm only four weeks out and already hitting one. It seemed to happen when I changed stages and the problems with Constipation started. I was worried also about changing stages a little early may of caused the stall. I did stage one, good. But I did stage two like a week and then moved to pureed stage 3 early. I was getting so nausea's on the shakes. So I added the pureed stuff a little early. I'll admit I'm not good at pureeing the foods. I just chew chew chew till it's pureed in my mouth or eat already soft stuff like eggs, cottage cheese and yogurt. No problems with anything yet, well still no jello and anything strong mint, like toothpaste.... it makes me nausea. Not sure why. But doing good with everything else. I'm still under 500 cal a day.
I'm going to start my food journal this week as well as measurements. I was told this can help see any bad trends I might need to nip in the butt and make sure it truly is under 500. Its so hard when labels state 1 cup 200 cal, but you only eat 3 T. Hard to calculate.
Still have trouble with the Anal Fissure. Fibers and stool Softener help, but like I had mentioned. Normal stool even for me is not fun. Going to have to go to a specialist and have this looked into more. Really don't want to go through another surgery right now. Not cool - nope nope.
Any others who stalled early on? Love to hear your advice.
Hope everyone is doing well in Bariatric Land. I'll let y'all know how the week goes. I have my follow up next week so can't wait for that. Lots of questions.
Has it surprised you in any way where the weight comes off of you first?
I'm not completely sure what I was expecting, but having no children, and being able to feel that most of my stomach fat was on top of the muscle, I had a reasonable hope that my relatively small waist was still under there somewhere.
What I wasn't expecting is for all the weight to start literally falling off my stomach and upper thighs quite like it did without touching my booty (hurrah!)
So this rambling post is all leading up to one thing: a celebratory jump for joy that my waist is now 35" and heading down, putting me in the healthy waist range again for the first time in years. I went from 52-49-56, which blew my mind and made me want to cry when I saw it two and a half years ago to 45-35-46 now.
7 inches off my chest, most of them from my back I and under arms, and an acceptable amount from my boobs, which still look boob-shaped and lifted* My back isn't as "melty/bulgey" as it was before, and my ribs visibly go "in" under the bra, rather than my breasts sitting on top of my stomach. I do have more issues with slipping out of the bottom of my bra a little if the band isn't tight enough.
10 inches off my hips, whichever came mostly off the lower stomach area and saddlebags. My booty has always been muscular, and only lost a thin layer of fat, which my wife says just defined the muscles already there more. Losing fat along my back also re-revealed the top curve of my butt, which is nice. I feel cute in dresses again, but I've gone back to looking a little weird in floaty clothes, which is boo because I do like floaty Stevie Nicks Witchy Hippie Goth looks. I don't measure my thighs, but they have definitely gone down. My legs are more symmetrical, and the wife swears she can see muscle in the back through the cellulite. Which is never going away, i know, but I'm okay with that. I've made my peace.
Then the big hurrah. I lost fourteen inches off of my waist. Some of it is from the stomach, some from the back, some from the flanks, so everyone chipped in, but I did not in my wildest dreams expect to recover my waist so quickly. I got married in a custom Victorian corset two years ago when my waist was almost at maximum size, and my corset maker, bless her, made the corset for tight lacing, getting me down somewhere around forty twoish at the wedding with more room to pull tight. I thought I'd never be able to wear the corset again, but I tried it on yesterday, and it just barely fits. The laces close all the way, and it just gently shapes my hips a bit and holds my waist in that particular corset shape, but it still fit, it was soooo comfortable, and it looked even better than it did on my wedding day. I should get a picture of that. Maybe the whole outfit, which was steampunk and had the corset on top, so that should hold it together.
On the down side, when I was rushing to get dressed, I grabbed an old favorite retro dress that my wife wore to our ring ceremony (hers was a size smaller than mine, and mine was very tight at the time), pulled it over my head without unzipping, and looked down at what should have been a cute skull and roses dress, but was only shapeless skull and roses fabric gaping over my bra. I'm still debating whether to have it tailored in or make pillows.
What changes and discoveries about your weight loss patterns and changing shape have taken you most by surprise or lit you up with celebratory joy?
* This was a huge worry for me, as I'd had breast reduction in 2013, and while I'd be happy with smaller boobs, I really didn't want to go back to flat, shapeless boobs, which run in the family. Just not enough strong connective tissue in our lineage, plus that weird stretchy Celtic skin. Whew. I suspect I dodged it, because the surgeon removed as much non-glandular tissue as he could while trying to preserve nerves and glands, so that's may have left me with relatively de-fatted boobs, in case anyone was considering a breast reduction BEFORE gastric surgery. I was 42J+ at my most extreme, 38E at surgery, and now 36DD or DDD, possibly 34.. I haven't gone bra shopping in a while.
Went back to work this past Tuesday and Thursday 6, weeks after PS. The staff was so happy to see me and stated I looked good. This was the first of four excess skin removal surgeries, so it will be a long process. My breasts were made smaller for the ME I will become, so right now they are not in proportion to the rest of my body. I didn't even fit into the B cup bra that the Dr told me I would be wearing. I spent the weekend looking for bra enchancers to put fill out the B cups. Even though they adhere to the inside bra side I do not feel comfortable with them in. However I do look better. I only work 2 days per week so during the other days I will not be wearing them.
A few weeks before I returned to work I was out walking with my walker each day. I only used the electric mobility device to shop. Last week I walked into the WLS office with just my cane. He was so impressed. He figured it out that I have lost 89% of my excess weight. I am only about 27 pounds from goal and I told him I would have 100% gone by Jan 26 2018, 2 years after my 3 procedure surgery. When I went back to work on Tuesday I was able to use my cane several times while in the building to take short walks. Still used my electric mobility device for the longer walks as we have a huge building. The staff was surprised to see me using my cane. After work on Tuesday used the walker to go to Bingo and again on Wednesday to go to Michigan Rummy. Had to use the scooter on Thursday as I was all over the building. Come Friday I was extremely tired and rested most of the day. However for the PS I had being back to work a week earlier than expected, I think I did pretty good.
I go back tot he PS this Monday for my 7 week followup. We will be discussing a few things I am seeing that I am not real happy with, but I am sure he will tell me things will get even better when the next PS is done. I just have to keep it in my mind that my body is still in the transition stage and the final outcome of what my body shape may not take place until late 2018. I am not a 497 pounder on a 500 pound limit electric scooter anymore. In fact the Vocational Rehab Department is in the process of trying to get me a smaller scooter as I the one I currently have is very old, and difficult to load into the van because it is too big and I don't need that big of one now. I shall continue to use my walker but will try walking more with just my cane, so by the time my next PS is over with I may not need the scooter any more. Some day soon I can say I am walking without any aids and I DID IT! Please continue to read my blog and celebrate that day with me when it happens.
So, I have decided that before my 40th Birthday there are a few things I would like to do, one of which I have registered to complete on October 21, 2017 and that is a 5K walk. I am currently 10 weeks post-op and with my surgeon and PCP's blessing I was given the okay to start training for that event. I have turn over a completely new way of living and that is for the better. Do not get me wrong I still have some bumps in this journey but I will not allow for those bumps to define me. I will continue to keep you all posted on my journey and wish nothing but the best for each and everyone of you.
YEP only three weeks post - op and I had my first stall. I lost . pounds instead of pounds. With one day of gain. Not much but a little. I started last Monday at 271.8 and today I'm at 271.0.
Now I've read enough on here that this is very common. I changed stages this week from clear liquids to full liquids. And that stalls are common with Stage Changes. I'm not freighting. I'm getting my two premier shakes in a day and plenty of water. I did - bad me - have a bite of scrambled eggs a couple times this last weekend. I have 13 Hens and well the eggs are really building up. I made the Family eggs both Morning this last weekend and just took a bite each day. It didn't hurt my tummy or anything. But was very nice. I've heard some people are on food food by the third week, so I feel I'm doing very well for three weeks out and still on liquid.
Any hoo just wanted to say if you go through a stall, don't freak. It's common and will pass. I'll let you know how this next week goes.
OH! And I had another issue with the stage change. I totally had a brain fart about the constipation. OMG - I started the first Protein shakes on Saturday 28th and forgot to start the fiber and stool softener with them. I did't go till Tuesday and it was HELL. I suffer from Anal Fissures. They seems so much better. No pain with the current bowel movements (since they were mostly water due to the clear diet) But that was NOT cool. I don't try to give TMI but we are all in this together and I wanted you to understand it happens. And Bad. After two enemas and very painful - not pushing but pushing... I cleared it some. It took another bout of issues the next day. Of course the fissure is PISSED and back to feeling like passing glass, but the fiber and stool softener is finally all kicking in and hoping I can get all back to control. Please please don't forget to start at least a stool softener when you change to denser liquids and foods. I do both fiber I put in my water and two stool softener at bed time (without stimulant). BUT DO SPEAK TO YOUR OWN DOCTOR.. THEY MAY HAVE SOMETHING OR NOT WANT YOU ON A CERTAIN THING.
****I must share this recipe - I made it as a trial for my future Bariatric Recipes and my family was the guinea pigs. They are used it. LOL
PIZZA FOR SLEEVIES
I used two cans chicken breast- drain REALLY well - (keystone all natural is best) - you can even put in oven and dry out a bit before mixing the rest. I didn't but it suggest this if you want.
2 oz Parmesan cheese - REAL STUFF - NOT POWDERY STUFF
Mix all this and press into desired shape on parchment paper placed on baking sheet. I shaped into a square since I had it on a square cookie sheet.
Bake at 500 for 10 minutes. Remove and add Toppings. I added just a little spaghetti sauce, turkey pepperoni and shredded cheese since this is what my kids like.
Return to oven for 10 more minutes.
Remove and let cool a little.
Cut and enjoy.
Everyone said it was great. Of course I could try since on Full liquids still, but will definitely give it a go in a few weeks.
For months my urine has the strongest and strangest odor. It does not smell like concentrated urine and it is very light in color since I drink a ton of water so I know it's not that. It is just this very bizarre and pungent odor. I am so embarrassed when my husband goes in the bathroom after me because the smell is so strong. Anybody else had this issue?
I just wanted to update things. Friday, July 28, 2017 was yet another rough day. I ended up making another trip to the ER as I was vomiting bile (no one seems to know what the problem is and it is getting frustrating). So I had a follow-up appointment with my surgeon this morning, and he and I decided that it would be best to do a scope to look and see what is actually going on. So I was able to schedule that procedure for tomorrow. We are both very optimistic that we will be able to figure this out and get me the relief I so deserve. I will continue to keep those following me updated. Thanks again.
Tomorrow is my day to meet with the doctor for a free consultation and to determine if I qualify (due to my insurance carrier). I'm am so nervous that I am literally making myself sick to my stomach. Feeling anxious only because I really want the lap band. has anyone been in my shoes? Please send your positive feedback.
So I didn't know I wasn't able to blog on here on my phone. Totally frustrating. I don't have a computer at home so taking two weeks off work for the surgery; I was unable to get on here. Pooey. I tried to recap the last two weeks quickly as possible.
So it's now been two weeks since my gastric sleeve surgery on 07/17/2017. I arrived at the hospital at 9am and didn't get taken back to surgery till about 2pm. Boy that was a long wait. ugh
***My surgery was performed by Dr.Dyer at Centennial Medical Center in Nashville TN.
Surgery went well. Minimal pain. I was on the pain pump and used it for a bit. I'm allergic (severe itching) to morphine so I only used the pain med for the first two days since they gave me a drug related to morphine and of course I was miserably itchy. I had a drain on my right side. (I attached pics of the incisions.) I had a total of 10 marks – a couple you can’t see. One was in my belly button and another on my left side. It wasn’t real visible in the photo. Some were small incisions, some punctures (needles where the gas was inserted), and the largest where they took the stomach out was near the drain. It still hurts a bit today, but not much. I was up walking pretty quickly. No problem. Drinking was bit hard. It felt like swallowing a rock. And it hurt went it hit the stomach. But I just sipped sipped and it got better each day.
The second day I was given a bowel suppository of some sort to help reactivate my bowels since they freeze up due to surgery and anesthesia. I had a small movement the next day. Same stuff each day, walk , drink, sleep, walk , drink sleep. I was released early Thursday about 10am. I still had the drain and had it taken out that following Tuesday. I felt pretty good. I was probably ready to go back to work Wednesday but already had put the time in so just took the rest of the week off.
So the worst part of everything was the clear diet. Ugh ugh. I couldn’t stand Nectar, Isopure and started to have trouble with the Unjury. I don’t throw up, but just hated the tastes of the water based proteins. I was only getting 40 grams in a day. So I started the stage 2 a few days early. I was suppose to be on the clear diet for two weeks then start stage 2 liquid diet. This just adds the Premier protein drinks. I drink two a day right now.
I did have my first “too full” feeling yesterday when I drank my shake. I think I just had too much at once. It was like a large burp that couldn’t come out stuck just below my sternum and I was nausea's. Because of course my gag is broke (wink) I don’t throw up. So I just didn’t move for a bit till things moved on through. I only drink a bit at a time now. Much better
So I’ll be on this Stage 2 liquid for three weeks. It’s only suppose to be two, but my doctor doesn’t want me changing stages till I see him and the nutritionists and he is on vacation the week I’m suppose to transition, so I get an extra week of liquids. Oh Joy. We’ll see how this goes. LOL
Other than that I’m back to work today. I have my schedule with my vitamins and drinks and will see how it all goes. I listed my schedule below case you were interested. I’m suppose to add a third shake if able when I can. But doc said doesn’t have to be everyday.
Hope everyone is doing well in Bariatric Land.
***this is just a layout to try and help me get everything I am suppose to in.
Awake – 4am – take thyroid pills (crushed)
Start first 24oz cup water
At Work – 6am – take multivitamin
Start second 24oz cup water
8am – drink ½ protein shake
9am – drink ½ protein shake – take first calcium
10am if not completed – finish second 24oz water
Start third 24oz cup water
12pm – walk 30 min (lunch break) – take second calcium
2:15 off work
3pm – drink ½ protein shake
4pm – drink ½ protein shake – take third calcium – biotin and D3 ( I take B12 once a week on Sunday)
Make dinner for family
Have another 24oz water available as I want ( I don’t feel pressure to finish it since I’ve hit my goal of 64 ounces already) but drink as I want so I’m not thirsty.
6pm – yummy sugar free Popsicle.
7pm – Bed time
Oh my states right now are highest weight 315 - DOS 286 (I think- they weighed me in Kilograms ) - today 273.8 (42 total lost)
July 26, 2017
As of today I am eight (8) weeks post-op. In these short eight (8) weeks I have to say that my emotions regarding this surgery have been up and down. There are days that I can honestly say that this was the best decision I have ever made. Then there are days like this past week including today, where I sit and ponder the idea, "Was this worth the frustration that I am faced with right now"? See, when I was released from the hospital on June 1, 2017, I knew something wasn't quite right. But they insisted I would be fine once I got home. Well, they were wrong, I ended up back in the hospital that night due to severe dehydration. But once I was able to come home after another night stay I never felt better in my life. Now I am having issues of lower right abdominal pain and not able to move my bowels, and it is literally making me physically sick. No matter what I do, take, nothing is helping and as of today I am not able to eat without vomiting (sorry for being so graphic), but I need to tell my story. I mentally do know that this decision was the right decision for me, but physically and emotionally I am not quite sure. I have a follow-up with my PCP on Thursday, July 27, 2017. I honestly could not have ask for better PCP, she is so caring and concerned that she has her staff call me just see how I am felling. I just hope that between herself and me as well as my surgeon we will be able to figure this all out. So that I may continue on the right path of healthy weight loss, as well as enjoying this new journey that I have bark upon. Weight Loss Pictures.docx
Weight Loss Pictures.docx
I went from 210 back to 260. I reverted to old habits. Back on medications that I had shed before. Not the sleeves fault. My head is the culprit.
It stops now.
Eating right, exercising right.
It shall be done!
On July 26th it will be 1 1/2 years ago that I had my 3 procedure hernia repair, gallbladder removal and sleeve surgery done. I have lost over 280 pounds from my highest weight but was still not able to walk without excruciating pain in my back. . 18 days ago I had the first of 4 excess skin removal surgeries. The Dr felt that I was low enough to be able to have a breast reduction and free nipple graft. I was suppose to have this surgery in March but the day before surgery, they canceled it due to finding microcalcifications in my left breast. I had to wait over 6 weeks to get approved for a biopsy and it proved to be benign. Than I had to go through all the preop testings and get approval again . Finally on June 26th I had my breast reduction and FNG.
Today is the 18 day after surgery and I just walked 1/4 of a mile with my walker without any back pain. It felt so great to be able to do this walk without pain. I was and probably will continue to be hunched over as I still have a huge amount of excess skin on my tummy and lower half which needs to be removed as well. Despite being tired from the walk and sweating like crazy in this Florida sun I was able to do this walk. I am thrilled and just pray to God that I continue to be pain free on the rest of the walks I plan to do this weekend and in the future. I have a goal to do in Sept 2018 the WLSFA Stamp Out Obesity 5K walk. Would love to do it this year but I doubt I will be ready for it in time. But come 2018 I am sure I will be able to do it if there is a group in South Florida sponsoring it.
So it has been one month (and one day) but hey who is counting, since surgery and I have lost 29 pounds since surgery and 32 from my highest weight. I can't say any of this has been easy. I spent two days in the hospital instead of one because the medicine they used to inject my stomach area to numb it didn't really work on me. This is probably because I am used to narcotic medications due to neck and back issues along with how much I was given when I was in an induced coma in 2005 and in my recovery after. So the pain was much greater than I anticipated and it wasn't gas pain.
Once I got out, things were ok. I was able to keep my liquids down but I was still tired and to this day I am still easily tired. I am having a hard time getting to the goal of 100 grams of Protein and 100 oz of liquids a day but I will keep fighting to do so.
Now that my wife has started her solid meals it is interesting trying to share a small plate of food and not even being able to eat that all. Plus having to find things that we can eat when we are out. Just much harder than we thought. The looks we get when we ask for specialized things. People don't understand and think we are crazy.
Until next time!
Well it was 30 minutes before I was to drink the Magnesium stuff and I got a call. The pre-cert was denied because it was put in as In-pt and they had it as an Out patient procedure. So long story short, my surgery was moved to Monday since they can't talk to the denier till Friday morning. As frustrating as it is, I'm okay. The worst was getting all the work time off situated. My husbands is unfix-able. He planned off the whole week this week and now we have to figure out how we are going to do Monday. He is off the day of surgery but not the rest.
All will be good. We will figure it out -
So back to my regular pre-op diet till Sunday when I have to do that clear all day thing again and the drink Sunday night.
They are to get back with me on Friday to let me know how everything went with the fixing of the Pre-cert. Praying there is no more delays or problems.
Well this is the last day for my pre-op diet. Tomorrow is the day before my surgery on the 12th and it’s a clear liquids all day with a 4pm Magnesium drink – yuck. Then Wednesday Morning at 6:30 am is it.
I’m down 22 lbs so far from the pre-op diet. I battled with edema a lot due to the broth and sodium it contained, even with the low sodium kind. The last couple days I’ve cut out the broth and dropped 5 lbs after gaining some due to swelling. I expect to swell some again since tomorrow is a clear liquid only and broth will be my main thing besides jello and Popsicles. I will try and get on her before the surgery but if unable to, I will try once feeling up to it after.
I'm not really worrying about the pain, the skin issues or my hair falling out. I just want to get through the surgery and get on with my new life. I'm feeling better just being on the pre-op diet. Don't feel as hungry anymore or think about food like I used to. I can totally see the benefits from doing the pre-op diet before the surgery. It helps us really get in the right mind set.
The only thing I do worried about is the constipation. As I had mentioned I have chronic anal fissures. I’ve been babying them and it is doing better, but I take a daily fiber in everything. (about 6 tsp total daily) and this has helped a bunch. I’m hoping I can still add this to my liquids post- op. I have to call and find out from the nutritionists. This stuff below is the bomb. It goes in everything, no grit, no flavor.
Oh and I wanted to follow up on the experiment with the chicken unjury soup mixed with unflavored gelatin. Nope – total fail But I did add to my cottage cheese and it was pretty good. Kinda strong, but good.
Well hope all is well in WLS land and wish everyone many blessing.
I have been thinking (more so daydreaming) about the after results of my upcoming weight loss surgery. I am currently in the paperwork process to be approved. It may be due to my over-planning, but I can't help but wonder if I'll have a lot or minimal extra skin? How much will I change when I no longer am burdened by my weight? Due to these constant questions repeating in my head, I decided to do some research on the subjects.
I know that genetics and age play a part in skin elasticity, but I wanted to be sure. What is extra skin? What is the real cause of it? and How do I combat it? Skin in general is an organ. It has the ability to grow and to shrink. Although as you age you can lose elasticity; I found you can replenish your collagen with 1: diet and 2: good hygiene (such as moisturizing your skin with natural products). In my opinion this seems like a win. The cause of excess skin after extreme weight loss is due to the elasticity needing time to adjust. I found out that this can take up to or a little over two years. It seems like a long time, but I may be willing to bide my time to prevent going under the knife to have skin removal surgery; in the event that I may need it. However, what really was an interesting find was that the loose skin most people are concerned with is actually not just skin; It is in actuality skin with a lot of leftover fat underneath it also known as subcutaneous fat. In order to actually see what loose skin is, or how much you have, you would have to burn this fat off. Hmmm...interesting. So, apparently the loose skin would be a thin layer like grabbing the skin on the back of your hand versus grabbing the underarm flap which most people see as extra skin but is actually leftover fat. I get it now. So I guess my goal would be to get to extra skin by lifting weights and hope my skin bounces back.
My plan is to get a personal trainer once I heal up after surgery. I want to make sure I maximize my potential. I have always wanted to be one of those fit people. I work out sporadically and oftentimes regularly (confusing I know). The best explanation is that at times I become defeated when the scale doesn't move enough with all the hard work I do. I know now that it's due to my eating habits and lack of sleep. I want to find joy in physical activity without feeling weighed down and tired due to my weight on my frame. I look forward to riding my bike regularly, rollerskating without fear of falling (due to locked knees holding up my frame), running, and yoga- definitely yoga. I've never been a thin adult, and I cannot even imagine what my life has in store for me post surgery.
Honestly I cannot wait till after. I'm sure most of us can't either. Who will I be if I am no longer the fat girl? I've become so accustomed to what and who I am, if this is no longer in the way; what will I do with myself? Will I start doing solo activities again like I did at one time; after losing 51 pounds? I'm hoping I feel normal again. For the past few years I have had some deterioration of my health and have been feeling it. Will this change or will I forever feel this way? Being comfortable in my own skin is something I dare to dream.
I am waiting on forever after. I get it now. :-)
Well I'm at the end of my second week of my three week and two day pre-op diet. The Mon-Fri part of the week went very well, but the weekend was a different story. I didn't like totally blow it but I had to cook all weekend and did some canning stuff from my garden and the tasting (just little tastes to make sure it was right) was enough to make me not feels so well. I also got so busy I forgot to take my pee pill. (that is what I call that water pill I take for edema) - So I feel a bit puffy, but not too bad.
I'm down a total of 12 lbs as of this morning but will know more in a couple days once all the fluid is down again. I feel so much better though and just that little bit of weight has made a huge difference on my ability to walk a bit more. For every pound I lose that is 4 lbs of pressure off my back. That's 48 lbs of pressure off my back already. It feels much better. Can you imagine when I get a 100 or more lbs down. Wowzers - I'm going to love it. Still have trouble just standing, but I can at least go forward longer.
Only a week and two days away. Its so close. Feeling the nervousness creeping up. I don't even thinks its the surgery. Its such not much time to get a few things taken care of around the house and yard before. (hence the canning). I don't think I will be in the mood after. *wink*
Hi I had my surgery in April 2018 I had a lot of experiences like you. Before my surgery, I used to gulp down some water. That was my favorite drink. Since the surgery it's been really hard to get water down. My doctor said many have that problem because water is heavy. That's one problem I didn't think I would have. I'm not the one who like a lot of artificial sweet drinks. Definitely not drinks with aspartame. I would do some drinks with suraclose. like the zero calorie powerade. It's pretty good and goes down well. I drink teas and coffee as well and add stevia the natural sweetner to try to get in all my liquids. So liquids have gotten better for me after 7 months. Hope it gets better with you
I'm kind of surprised that only about 30% are diagnosed(?) with an ED.
I personally think everyone who needs WLS has severe problems with eating/food - if one wants to call that an eating disorder or not doesn't matter in the end.
My team is so weird. Full liquids are their own thing, and then purees and soft foods are thrown in together. I'm on that stage, which starts with cottage cheese and yogurt and ends with ground meat and soup/chili. The most "advanced" thing I've eaten was a couple (1 and 3/4 :)) of Ikea meatballs, which sat really heavy, but besides those, I'd say I'm around the middle of the list. Very moist tuna salad is fine, as are scrambled eggs (I mean, those settled weird, but I digested them, so I guess they're OK). I'm thinking of trying thin-cut lunch meat next; that sounds really good to me.
All I want in this world is the middle of a cheeseburger--I could let the bread and veggies go; I just want some ground beef, and cheese on it would be excellent--but I know not to push things that far, yet. The reward for going slowly is not getting sick, and that is a very compelling reward. :)
Thank you for sharing your experience! I haven't even thought of trying to get my fluids in any form other than plain water or at a temperature other than room temp, but I may have more success there, as you have. I'll give tea a try - thankfully I enjoy my tea unsweetened!
You're probably right about the rollerskating - I don't normally fall, but it could definitely happen, especially since I haven't skated for a month. I just love it so much, I'm eager to get going, but it's more important to let my body heal. I could make a point of taking a short walk during my breaks at work.
Have you started soft foods yet, or are you still doing full liquids/purees?
Just comparing notes, in case it helps...
I still can't drink plain water. I'm getting 90% of my hydration with hot tea (mostly decaf--I don't count the caffeinated tea toward my total) and protein shakes. And it is close to 64 ounces per day, but it's not ever very much more than that.
Besides hot tea, I can stand to drink protein shakes cold or at room temp. Room temp Powerade Zero is only a little bit harder than a protein shake, but room temp water hurts. Cold beverages also do OK, mostly--it's chilly enough out, now, that I just find myself gravitating toward the hot--and I definitely eat more sugar free popsicles than anyone should (even though it's cold, yes ... they seem to help when I start to feel nauseated from dehydration, though, and also they taste good 😁).
I think not going rollerskating (or ice skating?), this soon, might be better than going, unless you're a lot less likely to fall than I am. (Who isn't, though? 😁) We're still pretty early on in the healing process. I do little walks most days, and since I'm still on blood thinners, I figure I also still need to be up and moving a little bit every hour I'm awake. But none of it is especially epic exercise, and I'm not going to beat myself up about that until after I've been cleared to go in the pool and lift weights and get out of breath. (Those first two happen at the 1 month post-op appointment, and the latter, I don't know? I have in my notes, from somewhere, that we're supposed to exercise only at a "moderate" pace until sometime after the 6 week mark, but that's not from my surgeon.)
I don't know what to say about the food. I feel so bad if I eat too quickly that it's a pretty good policing mechanism. Like you, though, I wish I'd practiced more. The constant gurgling has gone away, and now I feel hungry 3-4 times per day, like you'd expect. It probably helps that very little of what I'm eating now is so appetizing that I feel rushed to eat it, lol.
I think this will all get better with time. I hope you find a way to get your liquids in soon, though! ❤️