Right now I'm 320 lbs.  The last time I had weight loss success was with WW when I started at 250 lbs. and reached 225 lbs. a few months later.  I felt and looked WONDERFUL.  I'm remembering today how different I felt about my appearance and some of the differences I experienced that made that time period so enjoyable.  One was that I was getting exercise daily.  I was walking to and from the train to my job, which was about 1.25 miles each way - twice a day.  I remember starting out lagging behind the rest of the crowd, and then eventually keeping pace.  I walked unless the weather was terrible.  I remember seeing fat people along the way, and wondering why they didn't just DO something about it.  Now I walk around and wonder if people think the same thing as I did.  I know it's not as easy as simply deciding to just start chugging along when you can barely move without hurting.  I can remember the day I realized that although my thighs were rubbing against each other, they were no longer 'stuck" against each other, causing chafing.  They smoothly glided past each other, which was easier to prevent chafing.

I also remember going to get new clothing, because my old ones were way too loose to fit anymore.  I went into the plus size store alone, not knowing what size I was any more.  I'd started out at a size 22, so I tried on a size 20.  Too big.  Tried on an 18 - too big!  Tried on a 16 - it fit!  I was a size 16?!?  I hadn't been a size 16 since I WAS 16 - and here I was, nearing 40, and a size 16?  Maybe it was just these pants.  Tried on several more - they all fit.  Not only that, but I stood there, thinking that these pants were really flattering.  Same with the next pair, and the next.  My GOD - was THIS my body now?  Did it actually look this good in clothes?  It did!  I started wearing form-fitting clothing - wrap dresses and slim skirts and tops that cinched at the waist.  Knee-high boots and heels and flattering jewelry (which always seemed to just look awkward before).  Every day was fun when dressing.

I noticed when I sat in my office chair that my belly was practically flat.  I never had to "hike" my pants up.  Nothing ever got stuck in a roll.  That was at 225 lbs.  I can't WAIT to be back to that body!  I'd love it if I were able to get down even lower than that, but I'd be SO happy to be there again.

I was able to run!  Not well, and not a lot.  But running through the train station didn't make me feel like I was going to die.  Now going up and down half a flight makes me pant for 5 solid minutes!  It'll be so nice to get back to where I was.  I had more energy, too.  And I wasn't hungry in the evenings after dinner.  I had stopped coffee and was drinking water and was happy that way.

Getting in and out of the car didn't require hefting my body up and out.  Getting up off the couch was no big deal.  I didn't lie around all evening - I took long walks, enjoyed my life more.

I'm getting really excited about where I'm going back to.  I do believe I've already lost a few pounds just from my pre surgical diet these past 5 days.  I got on the scale today.  I haven't done that and recorded it in a while.  It said 309.  I could SWEAR it was 328 just a week or so ago when I stepped on swiftly.  My pants felt less tight at work yesterday.  Almost imperceivably so, but still.  I don't think it's my imagination.