Was waiting for my micro blading follow-up appointment at the swanky local day spa this morning when in walked two young, thin ‘beautiful people’ (all spray tans, botox & body con clothes) and I suddenly felt uncomfortable & embarrassed. I thought oh I’m so fat & they’ll look at me & judge me.

WTF!! Where did that thought come from?? I’ve always been pretty self confident & never really felt that way when I carried weight (probably because I saw myself as ‘only being overweight’ not the reality of being obese - body dysmorphia). And now this random thought of being less than & being judged by how I look comes into my head. Worse was the realisation that I still saw myself as being fat.

It threw me. I had to give myself a mental slap & looked again at the women with clear eyes. The reality was I was actually smaller than they were.

Looks like I still have head work to do. Maybe I’ll be working on it for a long time as there’s obviously some buried stuff that needs to be dug out.

It sounds like you are not only self confident but are your own best advocate! Good for you!!

The mind games are tough - Great job being that strong and mentally able to balance you self

Freaky feeling I am sure! You are so tiny!!! But sounds like you have a good handle on it...?

Bet you those chicks were too busy being self conscious about how they looked to even think about anyone else in the room... those types rarely think beyond themselves lol