Random wonky body image thoughts

[Arabesque 6,494]

Was waiting for my micro blading follow-up appointment at the swanky local day spa this morning when in walked two young, thin ‘beautiful people’ (all spray tans, botox & body con clothes) and I suddenly felt uncomfortable & embarrassed. I thought oh I’m so fat & they’ll look at me & judge me.

WTF!! Where did that thought come from?? I’ve always been pretty self confident & never really felt that way when I carried weight (probably because I saw myself as ‘only being overweight’ not the reality of being obese - body dysmorphia). And now this random thought of being less than & being judged by how I look comes into my head. Worse was the realisation that I still saw myself as being fat.

It threw me. I had to give myself a mental slap & looked again at the women with clear eyes. The reality was I was actually smaller than they were.

Looks like I still have head work to do. Maybe I’ll be working on it for a long time as there’s obviously some buried stuff that needs to be dug out.

[Tamarita 30]

It sounds like you are not only self confident but are your own best advocate! Good for you!!

[AJ Tylo 1,398]

The mind games are tough - Great job being that strong and mentally able to balance you self

[DaisyChainOz 343]

Freaky feeling I am sure! You are so tiny!!! But sounds like you have a good handle on it...🤗

Bet you those chicks were too busy being self conscious about how they looked to even think about anyone else in the room... those types rarely think beyond themselves lol