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I was sleeved about 4 years ago - I am 6’, was 36 at the time, about about 290. I got down to 240 at my lowest and now hover at 245-250. I feel like a failure in what I did and the outcome. I have battled depression for a while. I take Xffexor 150mg daily and I just sort of lost touch and ignore the guidelines to follow (daily vitamins/good food choices/etc). I need a jumpstart to get good habits formed again. I don’t want to wait till “new year”. Thinking of the pouch reset diet (5 day?). Just wanted to communicate with others and try and feel better physically and mentally. This isn’t as good as it can be. I know I can feel better and do better.

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I was sleeved about 4 years ago - I am 6’, was 36 at the time, about about 290. I got down to 240 at my lowest and now hover at 245-250. I feel like a failure in what I did and the outcome. I have battled depression for a while. I take Xffexor 150mg daily and I just sort of lost touch and ignore the guidelines to follow (daily vitamins/good food choices/etc). I need a jumpstart to get good habits formed again. I don’t want to wait till “new year”. Thinking of the pouch reset diet (5 day?). Just wanted to communicate with others and try and feel better physically and mentally. This isn’t as good as it can be. I know I can feel better and do better.
I feel your pain!!! I'm 5'2" was 270 at surgery now 2 yrs PO I'm at 182 my lowest was 165 so I gained roughly 20 lbs. Don't give up!!! I was feeling pretty sad as well. You need to join a support group where you have ppl to talk to. Posting this is the first step in right direction. You want to change your life for the better. I don't know much about puch reset it might be very difficult to do, not sure if it actually works. I just started logging everything I eat and set a caloric goal for myself. I will see how I do and than adjust accordingly. The main thing is not to give up!! We've all made bad decisions in our past, don't let those decisions ruin all that you still have left!!
Whenever I would feel low, I would grab some junk food. Now i good work out can really lift my spirits.
You can do this, I have faith in you!! [emoji2][emoji2][emoji2]

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2 hours ago, nateinct said:

I was sleeved about 4 years ago - I am 6’, was 36 at the time, about about 290. I got down to 240 at my lowest and now hover at 245-250. I feel like a failure in what I did and the outcome. I have battled depression for a while. I take Xffexor 150mg daily and I just sort of lost touch and ignore the guidelines to follow (daily vitamins/good food choices/etc). I need a jumpstart to get good habits formed again. I don’t want to wait till “new year”. Thinking of the pouch reset diet (5 day?). Just wanted to communicate with others and try and feel better physically and mentally. This isn’t as good as it can be. I know I can feel better and do better.

Effexor is a dog shitt drug. get rid of it !

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3 hours ago, Billy Bob said:

Effexor is a dog shitt drug. get rid of it !

It actually works very well for some folks. I have a family member that has been doing well for years taking it in combo with a few other meds.

If it is not working well for you, do not hesitate to see your dr and try something else. There are many things out there. You just have to find what works for you.

What I have seen some people do that are attempting to restart their weight loss is go back to basics. Start where you were just after surgery. Do liquids then soft foods, etc. always be sure to get Protein first.

Good luck!!!

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5 hours ago, nateinct said:

I was sleeved about 4 years ago - I am 6’, was 36 at the time, about about 290. I got down to 240 at my lowest and now hover at 245-250. I feel like a failure in what I did and the outcome. I have battled depression for a while. I take Xffexor 150mg daily and I just sort of lost touch and ignore the guidelines to follow (daily vitamins/good food choices/etc). I need a jumpstart to get good habits formed again. I don’t want to wait till “new year”. Thinking of the pouch reset diet (5 day?). Just wanted to communicate with others and try and feel better physically and mentally. This isn’t as good as it can be. I know I can feel better and do better.

Hey nate, just a thought but have you discussed increasing your Effexor? I am on the same dose as you but was on 3 tablets a day for a while, 1 in the am and 2 in the pm. Really helped me get out of the pit I was in. It may just be what you need to get to a head space that will help you stay on track x :)

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I personally wouldn't do a pouch reset (I've read too many negative things about it) or liquids/protein shakes only - that's pretty hard to sustain for more than a couple of days. Just start eating the way we're supposed to - Protein first (60-80 grams a day for most of us), then non-starchy vegetables, and then, if you have any room left, a small serving of fruit or "healthy" carb (like something whole grain). Log everything you eat and be mindful of your overall calories (and calorie range is an individual thing - you may to experiment for awhile to find your "sweet spot").

I agree with the above posters that a support group might be helpful, too...

also, some anti-depressants can cause weight gain. I'm not sure about the one you're on, though. If it's one of those that does cause weight gain, maybe check with your doctor to see if there's a different med that might work for you?

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Hey Nate, sorry you feel like you've failed WLS. I think that's the deep dark dirty fear we all have and it's also a lie we tell ourselves.

The only way to fail is to totally check out and not try any longer. But I don't see that in your intention!

I agree that if you are still depressed, you should run not walk to your psych and or doc and ask to have your meds adjusted to either another dose or to a different combination.

Some other things that help:

Exercise (walking), especially in sunlight and fresh air/green areas. And if you can walk fast until you feel pooped even better, but you may not have the strength for that, so work with your doc.

Practice deep breathing exercises and relaxation techniques. Pray or meditate. Google four square breathing. Really great stuff.

Watch comedies and laugh out loud.

Smile at yourself in the mirror and envision you dressed in a Super Hero outfit.

Find someone you love and hug them tightly, rocking, for a long time. Or hug your pet!

Then clean out your pantry, fridge, and freezer. Clean out the booze closet too.

Begin planning, tracking, weighing, measuring your food.

Here are your rules to start:

3 meals + 2-3 small Snacks (no more than 100cals each and low carb high protein):

Each meal = no more than 1 cup of food by volume = 2-3 oz of lean dense Protein by weight + 1-2 oz of al dente steamed dense veggies + 1 tsp healthy fat equivalent: olive oil, ghee, butter, avocado oil, coconut oil or 1oz avocado.

snack Ideas:

Hard boiled egg

1oz Boar's Head Turkey or Everroast chicken

1oz Leftover Dense protein

1oz reduced fat cheese + 1/4oz almonds

2oz Granny Smith apple + 1/4oz almonds + 1 lite string cheese

4oz Greek Non Fat Yogurt + 1oz blueberries

1 Jello sugar free cup + 1/4c Plain Greek Yogurt + 2-3 drops liquid vanilla stevia

1 sugar free popsicle

1cup raw veggies + 1/4c Plain Greek Yogurt + 1/2tsp Ranch Dressing Mix or Lipton Onion Soup Mix

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You are NOT a failure, you are on a journey. When we fall we learn lessons. You got this, you know what to do. Try to get to a support group with real people, not just online.

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Effexor is a dog shitt drug. get rid of it !
OMG. Effexor is fine until you go off. I had horrible withdrawal symptoms requiring ER visit. I didn't realize I was having withdrawal and thought something was really wrong with me. I had limb jerks, horrible headache and flushing. Never stop Effexor cold turkey. Do a slow dose reduction as advised by your doc. I will never take Effexor again.

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13 minutes ago, over65 said:

OMG. Effexor is fine until you go off. I had horrible withdrawal symptoms requiring ER visit. I didn't realize I was having withdrawal and thought something was really wrong with me. I had limb jerks, horrible headache and flushing. Never stop Effexor cold turkey. Do a slow dose reduction as advised by your doc. I will never take Effexor again.

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Exactly !

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It’s great that you realize all this. It’s ok. You fell of the wagon. It happens to all of us sometimes. Start now not tomorrow and get right back at it. It will make you feel better on the inside as well.

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Thank you all. Working to reset in other ways and start not with the new year but tomorrow :)

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Thanks for the meal
Plan ideas. Definitely agree on xfexxor. If I miss a dose big headache and almost a twitch in my eye! Need to stay focused!

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23 hours ago, nateinct said:

Definitely agree on xfexxor. If I miss a dose big headache and almost a twitch in my eye! Need to stay focused!

OMG it is awful missing a dose huh I get whooshing head spins ugh 2 weeks in the hospital without it, on morphine, you can just imagine the mess I was haha

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