I feel like I blew it

[Paul Clarke 108]

Every day the calorie count restarts. What you did yesterday means less than what you are doing today and tomorrow. So learn from it an move on.

[Matt Z 4,140]

2 hours ago, ewms said:

Like I dipped my toe in the Water and hoped I'd get bit by a shark. But, nah, the water's fine. Come on in. I didn't want to really know that I'd have zero reaction to a high sugar drink.

I get this... I was hoping for dumping syndrome to keep me in check. When I realized I could eat pretty much whatever I wanted with no real effects... it caused me to take a step back for a second. I've still got some "dumping" that happens when I really push things, or when sugar is just off the charts. Like I had a piece of Apple Crisp yesterday, the "crisp" part is literally just butter and sugar. Like 2 cups of sugar to top 1 pie... I had a slice and it caused some discomfort, gas, but that was it, no "dumping" or anything really negative, just 30 mins of being uncomfortable... then I was fine.

[Georgetown 255]

17 hours ago, ewms said:

I ate decently: small amount of Turkey in small bites, a very small amount of dressing, two bites of mac n cheese...

But later I ate a piece of pie with whipped cream. Almost a whole small sliver.

And I had 3 alcohol drinks throughout the day (from 12-8pm).

Now I have the typical fat, shameful remorse that i always have had after pigging out. But I now have the additional fear DID I RUIN WHAT I HAVE COME THIS FAR WITH? I'm 6.5 mos out. What if I stretched out my sleeve with two glasses of champagne. I drank s-l-o-w but it's still bubbly.

Tomorrow has to be a restart day. Protein Shakes, Water, Water, water. I didn't think holidays would be this hard. I thought it'd be me chatting with all the family and hearing how great I look (motivation before dining). But our plans fell through and...I messed up.

You’re human! Don’t be to hard on yourself! I ate a little bit of almost everything yesterday. I felt a little guilty, but today is a new day!

[betterL8thanever 12]

Hi, I just found and joined this forum and so glad I did. My surgery will be on Dec. 3 and I admit I’m nervous. But this topic added to it, unfortunately. I guess I’m concerned that I will never be able to eat again! If a little turkey and a couple bites of other things is being “bad”, then does that mean we must forever live on Protein Shakes and a few bites of cottage cheese? Can someone please put my mind at ease that eventually I will be able to eat actual small meals again with family and friends?

[Hrsnjs 267]

Hi, I just found and joined this forum and so glad I did. My surgery will be on Dec. 3 and I admit I’m nervous. But this topic added to it, unfortunately. I guess I’m concerned that I will never be able to eat again! If a little turkey and a couple bites of other things is being “bad”, then does that mean we must forever live on Protein Shakes and a few bites of cottage cheese? Can someone please put my mind at ease that eventually I will be able to eat actual small meals again with family and friends?

Of course! You definitely can. I'm five weeks out and I had some Thanksgiving favorites. It's the pre op diet and the first 3-4 weeks after, depending on your program, that are so strict and hard to stick to. I ate what everyone else ate, just in tiny amounts totaling 1/4 - 1/2 of a cup.

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[Jdesmond73 138]

On 11/22/2018 at 9:32 PM, ewms said:

I ate decently: small amount of Turkey in small bites, a very small amount of dressing, two bites of mac n cheese...

But later I ate a piece of pie with whipped cream. Almost a whole small sliver.

And I had 3 alcohol drinks throughout the day (from 12-8pm).

Now I have the typical fat, shameful remorse that i always have had after pigging out. But I now have the additional fear DID I RUIN WHAT I HAVE COME THIS FAR WITH? I'm 6.5 mos out. What if I stretched out my sleeve with two glasses of champagne. I drank s-l-o-w but it's still bubbly.

Tomorrow has to be a restart day. Protein Shakes, Water, Water, water. I didn't think holidays would be this hard. I thought it'd be me chatting with all the family and hearing how great I look (motivation before dining). But our plans fell through and...I messed up.

Don’t worry. You will be fine. I drink 5 nights a week on average (starting 3 Months post op) and never stopped losing weight. I eat a bit more than I used to but not much

[Georgetown 255]

11 hours ago, betterL8thanever said:

Hi, I just found and joined this forum and so glad I did. My surgery will be on Dec. 3 and I admit I’m nervous. But this topic added to it, unfortunately. I guess I’m concerned that I will never be able to eat again! If a little turkey and a couple bites of other things is being “bad”, then does that mean we must forever live on Protein Shakes and a few bites of cottage cheese? Can someone please put my mind at ease that eventually I will be able to eat actual small meals again with family and friends?

Hi betterL8! I can understand your concern! I’m almost 6 weeks out and I was able to eat what everyone else did on thanksgiving. I tried to stay away from the carbs but my doctor was reassuring and said try a little bit of everything. It’s only one day!

The weeks leading up to the surgery and several weeks after are the hardest but for me, they went by fast! Now, I’m careful what I eat and having the surgery is my reminder that I don’t need bad food anymore!

I hope that helps put your mind at ease a little bit!

[betterL8thanever 12]

Yes, it does help, thank you! So glad you are doing so well ... that gives me hope :)

[ewms 57]

Hi, I just found and joined this forum and so glad I did. My surgery will be on Dec. 3 and I admit I’m nervous. But this topic added to it, unfortunately. I guess I’m concerned that I will never be able to eat again! If a little turkey and a couple bites of other things is being “bad”, then does that mean we must forever live on Protein Shakes and a few bites of cottage cheese? Can someone please put my mind at ease that eventually I will be able to eat actual small meals again with family and friends?

My "bad" wasn't the amount of food. It was my typical choices. Carb, carbs, carbs. Could have made some better choices. Add that to my sugary alcoholic beverages and it was a day of super not so great choices. My really BAD was carbonated alcoholic beverages. More than one. And I enjoyed them too easily. I've lost almost 90 pounds since April and I felt like I just stood at the top of a very slippery slope for myself.
Remember, this is my tool but my long term success has to be my choices. And if I'm already trying to go around my tool, I'm afraid I'll be setting myself up for future failure. Stretching my pouch due to carbonation was a true concern for me though. I like having a restriction.
In the moment I felt just like I have during every previous diet. Sabotage. Regret. Failure.

But the amazing thing with this surgery is that yes, I felt like that. But the next day I didn't stay in my cycle of just screw it. Instead, I still had my typical restriction. I had my tiny meals, exercised, drank my Water, and for my own personal mindset I tried on my beginning clothes which literally fell off my body. I'm good. Not as great as I'd like to be. And woah, the bloating from my 'bad' day was off the charts. Here we are 3 days out and my bloating is gone, I'm back on track, and I'm still able to shop at regular stores and not even in the plus section.
Life is still amazing!

[betterL8thanever 12]

Thank you so much for your explanation...I understand better now. I hate that feeling of “I screwed up so I might as well throw in the towel” and am encouraged that you, and others, were able to start over the next day with such great attitudes. Very encouraging!