OK. this post is meant for me to vent. I'm so tired all the time. OK. So I had my surgery April 24th. I'm down 28 pounds!!!!! Awesome. But... This has been significantly harder than I expected. Surgery had a complication (tore a hole in my stomach while repairing a hernia) that needed fixing and that cost me an extra day in the hospital for a total of 4 days. Went home, only to return with a pulmonary embolism in my right lung. Another 4 days in agony in the ICU. I have myasthenia gravis and that already has me in a constant state of weakness, but with the PE I seem to be in a super state of weakness all the time. I can't force down the food or the liquid or the protein, it gets stuck and it feels incredibly uncomfortable and often I have to bring it back up. Oh, yea, to top things off I have a dead esophagus (achalasia). It's a dead tube so swallowing is already a challenge between the hernia repairs, myasthenia and acheliisia. . I am too weak to fold clothes, get dressed, read my Facebook!!!! I have negative energy. And when I'm feeling sickly honestly all I want is a 7-up.

Don't get me wrong, I know this will pass, but it's been this way for weeks and it's wearing me down. My husband is supportive but in the back of MY mind I wonder what he thinks of all of this. I feel like I'm failing him.

Fighting to survive is never a failure. Make sure your B12 is up to specs. Ask doctor for a blood test for vitamin deficiency. You may have to take B12 shots once a month. My wife does and it has helped for over 10 years. Good luck and hand in there. Herb