Surgery is on June 6

I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life. I lost more than 120 pounds in my 30s, only to gain it back plus MUCH more in my 40s and now 50s. I turned 55 last month. My daughter is expecting her first child in September, and I want to be able to pick up my grandson and play with him. I want to BE there for my family. And I want to ENJOY living again.

I have arthritis in both knees; sleep apnea; high blood pressure; stress incontinence; asthma. I have been pre-diabetic for a few years but have never crossed the line into full blown diabetes, thankfully.I need to have this surgery, or I will become disabled. And to me, that would be worse than death.

At my bariatric surgeon's office last week, my weight was 338. It has just kept going up. I started my pre-op diet on Sunday, May 22, and I am now at 326 already. I can tell I am shedding a lot of bloat and Water at this point. My knees already feel better. It has been a hard 5 days. I am hungry and cranky and fighting headaches. I miss my coffee! But I remind myself that if my choice is to drink coffee whenever I want or to be healthy again, there's no question what I would choose.

I look forward to being part of this forum and finding inspiration in the weeks and months ahead.