Low BMI Pre-op nerves

[lexiemustang 268]

apologies for re-posting this, but I think I posted it in the wrong forum initially

Hi everyone, first time poster here! I am scheduled for a gastric sleeve on 10/19. I am currently 184 lbs, 5'4, bmi 31. After I first met with the surgeon and scheduled the surgery I was very sure this was the right thing to do. I have battled my weight for almost 10 years (I'm 30) and have tried every diet and drug under the sun with no success. My only success has ever come from a combination of medically supervised protein-sparing diet combined with phentermine. But even that 30 lb loss came back on pretty quickly.

Now I'm starting to question this choice. It just seems so completely elective -- I'm healthy and young, I even completed a triathlon this weekend! But the choice goes beyond vanity, I struggle with significant depression that I never dealt with prior to the weight gain, I feel constantly exhausted (possibly from sleep apnea) and just generally feel that I'm living my life in someone else's body under a cloud of failure.

I'd love to hear from others who had the surgery at a low BMI - are you happy with your choice? I'd especially love to hear from anyone who went on to have healthy pregnancies afterwards, the concern about pregnancy at my current weight has led me to hold off on having kids! Any other thoughts would be much appreciated, I do think this is the right choice for me but I struggle with feeling selfish to put my loved ones through the stress of worrying about the outcome when I'm not facing an immediate health crisis. And God forbid something happened, I wouldn't blame them for hating me for putting them through that.

I was fairly low BMI when I started this whole process (37ish). This is one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life. My recovery went really well and I didn't have any issues at all. By day 3 post op, I was off all pain meds and walking 2 - 3 miles in the evening.

I'm almost 5 months post op now and am down almost 50 pounds. I feel so much better physically (joint/back pain gone, decrease in my blood pressure medication dosage, and lighter periods), not to mention the fact that I am looking better overall.

I, like you, battled with my weight all of my life. I am hoping this is the "last time" and this time the weight REALLY stays off for good. On the preop diet, I lost 13 pounds and started to have second thoughts about going through with the surgery. I am really glad I went through with it. Good luck with whatever you decide!