So, I have been seeing my nutritionist every two weeks for the past three months. At my last visit (Tuesday June 16th) she told me that maybe I am not ready. It certainly didn't help to hear that because I have been flip flopping this entire time. Its the whole, "hurry up and get these appointments done, and then WAIT for a surgery date" that's driving me bonkers. Her statement certainly didn't help but it was a good kick in the butt because it angered me and well......"Hi my name is Bill-amina and I am three days sober"

Maybe just what I needed.....

Edited June 19, 201511 yr by India928

I know it must be very disappointing to hear that from someone and when I started my journey, I would have been devastated if someone said that to me. But they are professionals who have seen a LOT of patients and are really only trying to look out for your best interest. I am only 16 days post-op and this is tough. I am definitely a food addict and have been working with a counselor since beginning of February and it took me a while to admit that I was an addict, but once I understood it and accepted it, I am able to look at this whole process so differently (though I know this will be a battle the rest of my life just like an alcoholic is always an alcoholic but just in recovery.). My counselor has been my single most important tool in this process for sure. I am not sure if I am reading you correctly, and I don't want to assume, but if it is what I think (and it is real), please don't do this surgery yet. If you are not seeing a therapist, please do that first. The goal at the end of this is to be healthy - mentally, emotionally and physically. Remember they are not doing brain surgery, just stomach surgery and the brain is really the driving force behind it all. HUGS!

Thank you for responding Daisee.

I actually have been seeing a therapist since August. I have to be honest though, it wasn't until the nutritionist made her statement that I finally "heard" it. I have always spoken about food as an addiction, and would say I was addicted but I NEVER labeled myself as an addict until last week.

I need the surgery if I am to live pain free, both physically and to some extent emotionally. If of course, it is approved- this will be my third procedure

Thank you again