35%pre surgery and looking for buddies/mentors

I am due to have my sleeve June 16. I have developed hypertension so I purposely gained a few pounds to weigh in at 35% so insurance will cover surgery! I have tried and can not loose this weight on my own. Developing hypertension was a serious wakeup call.

I started my journey in February and have since lost just over 10 lbs making me 33%. I go to the gym at least once and week. I can run 3 miles with out stoping and still do the splits so I'm hoping I'll have an easier recovery.

I also feel a little guilty getting this surgery as I'm on the "smaller" side. I was complaining about my weight then noticed the bariatric nurse was bigger than me. When I went to my support group several people asked me when I had my surgery and told me I looked great. Part of me feels I should not be eligible. But I am, and insurance has agreed to cover it. I AM doing this

I'm very excited and nervous. I have told only my husband and a few friends. I can not tell my family as they are all very thin and don't understand why I'm always the one to polish off the cookies when I visit their houses. I will tell them I'm seeing a nutritionist and did this on my own.

I'm worried about the post op diet as I've never been good at sticking to a diet. Also, I can not eat with out drinking.

I would ideally like to find people who are/were in similar situations as I am.

Thank you for reading,

Jamie