"This time will be different!" she said. Sigh.

I spent three weeks gradually cutting down on my caloric intake, cutting out poor food choices, and allowing myself to experience hunger again. I was very proud of the way I handled it, received a lot of praise from my sweetie, and lost 7 lbs! The nutritionist wanted me to lose 14 (5%) over three months, and here I was halfway there in one month.

Then came this past week.

Saying I strayed is an understatement. Although I know that I ate less than I would have normally if I binged, I definitely went off my plan for 4 days in a row. Greasy, fatty foods and ice cream, both of which I had pretty much weaned myself off of (so I thought -- at least I stopped craving it).

I gained back 5 of those 7 lbs.

This is why I need the surgery. This happens every time I try to "diet". I can't wait to have the support of my sleeve taking the option of overeating away from me. I really did great for 3 weeks! But I need some help getting past that point. I expect that post-surgery I will cement the habits of continuous healthy eating during the months that I am healing and losing, the period I've seen others refer to as "the honeymoon period".

I learned that each day I stayed off plan made it that much easier to stay off another day, and that much harder to get back on track. I am now experiencing all the craving all over again, and I can't wait to stop it one more time. No more "just while my friend is visiting"! I have to start following the life plan now. It's just too hard to keep starting over and over again. I'm royally pissed at myself.

Thanks for listening. I officially forgive myself and am back on track, looking forward to my first monthly weigh in on Thursday. Trying not to freak about the fact that my original weigh in was in the morning right after Breakfast, and Thursday's weigh in will be after lunch. That's so old Weight Watcher thinking. Right? (I will, however, wear the same thing I wore to the first weigh in. Some habits are harder to break than others.)

Hi jessijuoi

First, let me commend you for your great work of losing weight. We ALL have slipped up and fell down hard...but...get back up..QUICK!♡♡ You realized your down fall and admitted to it. Don't torture yourself. One thing I have done is NOT purchase items that are so tempting to me.

I have also learned NOT to hang out with (eating buddies) individuals that are not on your journey (supportive, etc.).

DON'T kick yourself to hard...YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Sorry for the misspell jessiquoi!