My dear friend got the sleeve done almost two years ago, and my mom is getting a RNY in the next two weeks.

I'm getting a lot of good first hand info from them, but I have so many emotions and craziness.

I'm 29, and I started chubbing out as a preteen. Puberty was not kind and being the first girl in sixth grade to get your boobs and your butt in gave me a huge complex. Add that we were dirt poor (but not dirt poor enough for assistance) and had a shaky food situation at home. My free lunch at school was sometimes my only meal of the day and it was nutritionally suspect.

Those times when we did have money to spare, we ate pizza or got ice cream because Mom couldn't take us to disney world or the movies, but by george, she could order us a pizza.

I lost some weight around 23-24 and got down to a 14! But no one tells you about that weird stuff that happens to your body around 25 or so when everything starts progressively slowing down. They tell you to fear 30, but leave out 25!

Then I got a new job that involved WAY more sitting and WAY more stress and have just ballooned. I'm 268 depending on the scale.

I really and truly believe in the Healthy at every size movement, but I know this size isn't healthy for me. I've already started blood pressure meds and I've gotten a stern talking to about my cholesterol. My grandmother was heavy most of her life and in her last years dealt with diabetes complications, kidney failure and a laundry list of pills. And I simply cannot do that.

And I try to be good when it comes to diet and exercise, but I get derailed when it's like all this torment and NOTHING changes and it's like "Is this my next 40 years?". So this is something to help me get to that light at the end of the tunnel, I guess.

Gosh, I am wordy tonight.

tl;dr: HI!

And I try to be good when it comes to diet and exercise, but I get derailed when it's like all this torment and NOTHING changes and it's like "Is this my next 40 years?". So this is something to help me get to that light at the end of the tunnel, I guess.

Gosh, I am wordy tonight.

tl;dr: HI!

Good luck with your journey. Maybe a couple of my videos will help you realize you are not alone with your doubts, fears and questions. I think we all had them when we considered WLS.

What was the last straw?

Why I chose the Sleeve

Thank you for those! I really appreciate it.

I'm a writer by hobby, so I've been thinking of various ways to catalog this whole process. My brain is just on fire with a million different things.

Initial consult went super well. The surgeon and I graduated from the same university, so there was instant bonding.

My BMI is 50.4, and he said that made me Super Obese. I asked if I could have a cape, but he said no.

I got my psych evaluation set up for next week. And apparently $500 is actually a good deal, but my brain is still reeling from that one.

Moving forward! I let my supervisor, my Hr lady and a few other important work folks know what's coming down the pike so they can expect me to be out for a bit and we can plan ahead for all that stuff that will inevitably explode in my absence.

I'm excited, but also terrified. And I keep screwing up on my diet. But, I told myself to go ahead and have thanksgiving and then, having got that out of the way, put my nose to the stone and keep on the wagon.