I have given up the secret love of my life....Just saying......

[RJ'S/beginning 5,357]

I have given up the secret love of my life "FOOD". The one who gave me comfort if only for a little while. The one I depended on to help me through the tough times. The one that brought me pleasure and happiness even though it was temporary. The one I trusted to get me through every pain, happiness, celebration, family get together's and so on. The one that was always there for me through the good the bad and ugly. The one thing I could always count on for support if everything else failed. The one that told me it brings happiness, pleasure and fulfillment like so many restaurants and the slogans for fast food joints promise...Happy meal...you get it!! The one who I tried so many times to break up with and it found its way back to you stronger and more powerful then before....

Why would you not dream about it. Fear it, try to control it and finally conquer it and put it in its place ...I will eat to survive not to live to eat...

We are changing our entire relationship with food. The one thing we could always count on...But not without its consequences...health, how people view us, medical disdain for us and the over all ignorance of society...

It will take some time for the fears to be brought into place and we may never think that we will have a normal relationship with food....We take it day by day. Minute by minute...That is called food addiction and we are all here with the same issues.....

I will never trust me again to have a relaxed relationship with food...So that brings on the doubts and worries and dreams and fear of failure....

But it is up to me to pull out the will power and fix my brain to make it all work...A lot of sleevers have been totally successful and we can too..Faith in oneself and building up knowledge of what is better and healthier to eat as well as not making it the focus of life will go a long way in us succeeding...

You can do this and I can too...And we will!

How do you feel about it?

[Arts137 1,811]

Well food has proven to be an abusive lover, so... no matter how hard, it's gotta be over!

[bettiann 9]

I have not had the surgery yet and am still debating between sleeve and banding, and doing it at all.

You siad exactly what I feel. I live to eat. It makes me happy all the time...thinking about what I will eat, eating it, thinking about what I will eat next. The thought of never having a big bowl or two of spaghetti and meatballs scares me. Probably because I am a bit of a loner aside from socializing with family and working. What would I do with myself? I am not going to change the person I innately am.

On the other hand I would like to go somewhere where I am not the fattest person, where bariatric surgery is not suggested to me with the kindest intention. I'd like to run up the stairs when I am late for work, or fit in a theatre seat without flowing over to the next person.

Which is more important to me....that is the question...

[RJ'S/beginning 5,357]

I have not had the surgery yet and am still debating between sleeve and banding, and doing it at all.

You siad exactly what I feel. I live to eat. It makes me happy all the time...thinking about what I will eat, eating it, thinking about what I will eat next. The thought of never having a big bowl or two of spaghetti and meatballs scares me. Probably because I am a bit of a loner aside from socializing with family and working. What would I do with myself? I am not going to change the person I innately am.

On the other hand I would like to go somewhere where I am not the fattest person, where bariatric surgery is not suggested to me with the kindest intention. I'd like to run up the stairs when I am late for work, or fit in a theatre seat without flowing over to the next person.

Which is more important to me....that is the question...

I wondered the same thing..I find I cannot sit still..I am always on the run now......Always doing something...because.....now I can!!!!love it!!!!!

[Arts137 1,811]

I have not had the surgery yet and am still debating between sleeve and banding, and doing it at all.

You siad exactly what I feel. I live to eat. It makes me happy all the time...thinking about what I will eat, eating it, thinking about what I will eat next. The thought of never having a big bowl or two of spaghetti and meatballs scares me. Probably because I am a bit of a loner aside from socializing with family and working. What would I do with myself? I am not going to change the person I innately am.

On the other hand I would like to go somewhere where I am not the fattest person, where bariatric surgery is not suggested to me with the kindest intention. I'd like to run up the stairs when I am late for work, or fit in a theatre seat without flowing over to the next person.

Which is more important to me....that is the question...

Bettyann,

that is how you are now, but not how you have to be. While food is your lover now, you can put him in his place and find better lovers.

We are all with you, dear.

[bettiann 9]

Thanks for the encouragement. I am feeling a little more positive that this something I can handle. I have 3 months to think about it while get approved. Maybe no more shopping in the plus size section is worth it.