The worst best night of my life

[determined1103 22]

So one of my co-workers calls me at the last minute with free stage tickets to one of the best jazz festival our city has had in a very long time. Now I almost declined because I had nothing to wear, my hair ain't done, and all the other many reasons fat girls make excuses not to go somewhere. Mind you I'm als

[determined1103 22]

Sorry hit the send button accidentally.

So, mind you I'm 6 days into my pre-op. But who turns down free stage tickets to see Fantasia, Kem, Morris Day and the Time and Leela James. So I went.

I was miserable the whole night. I only had 30 minutes to get dress, so I'm not at my best. I'm drained from not eating. We had to walk what seemed to be a Marathon to get there. We finally get to the stage and they are taking pictures for the paper. Someone shows me a picture of myself and words can't express how I felt but I'm sure many been there. I really could not enjoy myself. I had the opportunity to meet the stars but I turned it down. Like who does that. And at one point I felt like R Kelly was singing to me lol but I quickly looked the other way. Any other time I would have been trying to get on that stage. Then the walk back to the car was excruciatingly. I had to turn down the offer to go clubbing cause my feet are numb and I don't know if I can drink on this pre-op diet.

This was an opportunity of a life time to enjoy and all I can think about was I wish this was the same time next year or I wished I never let myself get like this. I use to be the life of the party. I use to be the motivator. I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK!!! Sorry, just had to vent.

[Arts137 1,811]

OK, so take your life back. It seems as if you are doing so, but it takes more'n a half hour. So you are fat? Stay on your program and you won't be, but remember the sleeve can't fix other things and we ALL have 'other things' (often in our heads). Go put some music on and crank it up, and PS, you look cute now so imagine what you'll look like in 6 months...

[determined1103 22]

Thanks so much for that Art137. Most of the time I try to stay positive. I guest I let last night get the best of me. And your right, I just need to brush my shoulders off and keep it moving. Today is a new day and I thank God for waking me up this morning. Sore bod and all. Thank him for getting me through this pre-op diet. And thank him for this tool to help me through this weight lost journey. I'm going to take your advice and crank up that music and snap back. And thx for the compliment. I needed that. Have a good day.