Been a rough week or two or three

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Death in family, issues at work, severe neck pain... just stuff.

I have been hungry and not wanting to work out. I had too many "meals out" - and even a couple of "drinks out" - just too much.

I moved into stage one of denial and stopped weighing myself about a week ago. Today i finally stepped on the scale - only up 2# so i am okay. It is time to return to daily accountability and eating the way i should. There, i said it.

deep breath - there was this little part of my brain that expected to be up like 10# or maybe 100#, who knows... LOL... just goes to show that facing the honest truth is easier then whatever it is we might be imagining. My clothes still fit, I just feel very fat which is completely illogical, but it is how i feel.

[No game 14,437]

Jane,

You have had a lot happen in just a few weeks!

I can understand the pull of food especially when under stress.. It's my biggest challenge.

But on the bright side? 2 pounds, very manageable with tiny changes it sounds like you are at a very normal place as a normal weight person. That is something to be very happy about.

[lsereno 2,525]

Hi Jane,

Glad you are back on track! I have a bounce range of 5 lbs. either side of my goal. I purposely set my goal so that would work for me. Maintenance is scary. It's one of the reasons I'm here almost every day. I know myself. Left to my own devices, without tracking and accountability, I would be at my top weight again in a few years, and I don't want that.

I'm thinking of you. Buy yourself a little present - you deserve it!

Lynda

[Nicolanz 1,484]

So sorry you're going through a rough time, Jane. Life happens and we can't be on point all the time. Don't be hard on yourself. You got this! Again, so sorry for your loss.

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

I'm so sorry for all you're going through.

Glad you tackled it quickly... Something I don't do well with at all. Thanks for the reminder that we have to nip it before it get worse.

Take care.. Go on a positive ride and clear the ickies out

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

I set my goal with the intention of it being the upper end. I have been maintaining 156-158 range for awhile. I hit 160 this am and that is the official panic button...LOL

the important point though is that i actually weighed myself. Stage 1 of denial is misplacing the scale every morning... and it goes downhill from there if I let it.

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Best of luck Jane, so sorry for your loss. You are doing the best thing by maintaining conscience.

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

I just lost my cousin and my daughter in law's father had a horrible accident and was found dead. My client is having a really hard time and I am trying to get her to go to the hospital. So I have been eating due to emotional stress and have gained a couple of lbs too. So tomorrow it's back to Proteins and Fiddleman's 12 day challenge to help gets me back on track. I have to leave my work at work and not turn to food.

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Oh ms skinniness, I am so sorry to hear this.

My dead sisters dog just died yesterday too... I am okay, but it was a little emotional. She loved that dog - she has been gone for 6 years and in some ways he was a little bit of a living reminder of her. She died in May too.

But, good news is that I am back to my goal weight! Now, I want to get a few pounds under, since my goal weight is my upper threshhold.

I somehow feel fatter though and i don't know why...

[kyllfalcon 768]

If you've been eatly the wrong stuff, you may have a litle sodium bloat. Happens to me.

[nanaspez 58]

Jane,

So sorry to hear you about your rough time. When it rains, it pours! I think you did a incredible job of not gaining more! Don't be so hard on yourself!

[Georgia 2,908]

Isn't it funny how we feel "fat" when we know we have not been good? Even though, most times, we are probably closer or at the same weight. Sub-conscious and "old image" can truly do a "number" on us!!