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Great story. Sometimes it takes someone outside to remind us what is inside.

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Thank you for your comments, all i can say is that this surgery was worth it!

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What a great story, thank you for sharing. I have not had a moment like that, but more of a gradual change. One thing I do understand without question is self loathing. I'm happy for you! (and your husband sounds like a keeper :) )

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OK hold on' date=' i know that you may find the topic title weird/odd, but i promise you am not a *****/freak.

but it is true, i kissed myself today, and i find this to be a NSV that is worth sharing.

First, before i go into the subject, let me tell you a little about myself.

[*']I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HAVE ALWAYS HATED MYSELF!

[*]DID I SAY, I HATE MYSELF?

[*]IN CASE I FORGOT, I HATE MYSELF.

This has all changed today as i was washing the dishes. This past valentine, my husband has gave me a mirror as a gift, this mirror is heart shaped and my husband decided to glue it on the wall that i face when i am at the sink, when he glued it, he said and i quote: " this is for you to always remember how beautiful you have became and have always been". well, it was a sweet thing from him to gift and say BUT i have always ignored mirrors, because i have always seen a reflection of someone who i never thought i was, i acted different than what i see in the mirror, i act as if i am small but the mirror has always showed a big reflection which i hated!

Well to make this long story short. Today, as i was washing the dishes, i take take a look at the mirror and look back down BUT i looked back at myself right away because what i saw has pleased me!! I saw a beautiful 20 year old woman who is the exact reflection of my soul, i thought i looked beautiful, and i questioned myself: is this really me? I teared up and all of the sudden without paying attention to what i am doing, I kissed the mirror and stood up and smiled (but whats wrong with complimenting myself) UGH, i confess it felt weird but for the first time i love myself.

This made my day, and i sure could not leave it at that.

I walked swiftly to my husband in the living room and told him that he is a very lucky man to have me. HAHAHAHA he was weak. BUT i was very happy, and in a very good mood all of the sudden.

I am sure this has happened to someone else, kissing the mirror/liking what you see... it happens right?

I find it okay to compliment myself, because what i went through was not easy, what i gave away to be at this state of body was not easy, it is okay to like what i see even for a moment right?

Sorry for this long post, i thought i had to share, please give yourself credit, you deserve it.

I LOVE THIS!!!!!!! I also hate mirrors and have as few as possible in my house and can only imagine what will happen the first time I let myself really look at myself in a few months.

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So happy for you! I've long hated myself for various reasons, one of them from letting myself get so fat and unhealthy. I can't wait to get rid of that monkey on my back and be able to forgive myself and be proud of how I treat my body, not ashamed. Thank you for your beautiful post!!

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I think that's the best post I have ever read in here!

Congratulations to you. What a huge NSV!

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As I read this I cried more and more. First if all you sound like a very lucky woman to have a husband so supportive and thoughtful. I have felt every word you said. I hate getting my hair cut because you are forced to look in the mirror for so long. I hope I see this through and all goes well so that I can have the feeling you describe. Thank you for posting and motivating.

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thank you all for your sweet replies, am glad that i was able to motivate you through my post <3

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My surgery is 18 days away. I am terrified. I keep re reading this post and I remember why I am doing this. Thank you again.

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