Need to get back on track!

[Pookeyism 1,143]

For Christmas, I think my dinner will be crow. Or at least it feels like it should be. I have gained a bit back, kinda afraid to get on the scale. It started out as maintenance and I hurt my foot and couldn't be on it as much, and I was bored, and the holidays did not help (my Mom passed away this last year). But I woke up this morning and realized that clothing that was once ridiculously baggy was only, well baggy, and I asked my Hubby who said "umurpmmppphhh" which translates into "pleassseeeee don't make me answer". I am still, at most a size 16, but I was on my way to a full-blown 12. Not as much sucesss as it may seem, but for me near the "perfect size".

I let myself slip, I let myself down. I hope, as of today, I am back up. It has took me several weeks to understand what was happening, to see the difference between events and excuses (or what to do when they are so parallell as to be very hard to distinguish). So in 9 days I will be a year out. I was sleeved on 1-4-2012

I am not wholly dissapointed, I am not going to ignore how far I have progressed. I am going to regain my progress, own my mistakes, and begin to unravel the last few months, try to really understand how this happened. I think it is obvious to me now that knowledge and experience are two different things. I need to marry them - get them together, so they can both work for me.

I will weigh myself this evening on the scales in the warehouse. It has been a good ritual for me, and I had let that slip also.

If anyone is in a similar place, please feel free to speak up. I think this is the gray area alot of us hit, and where alot of us stop posting or visiting the site often - which was another mistake. The support on the way down was essential, why I didn't reach out once I began to realize I needed it was, well, prideful, I think. It was not intended, but was a consequence. I will be back more.

[Meliss000 283]

I think that you are on the right track. The hardest thing is admitting what you did and knowing what you should be doing. I'm only five months out, I know one day I will probably slip up and it gives me great strength to know that other people have been there and gotten back on track. You are an inspiration to those of us that are just in process of figuring this out and I think this is why this forum is so important. You will be successful, I have no doubt, because of the way you are holding yourself accountable. I am rooting for you! Thanks for being so honest and giving me hope that I can be too. Here's to a healthier new year!

[FishingNurse 1,211]

For Christmas, I think my dinner will be crow. Or at least it feels like it should be. I have gained a bit back, kinda afraid to get on the scale. It started out as maintenance and I hurt my foot and couldn't be on it as much, and I was bored, and the holidays did not help (my Mom passed away this last year). But I woke up this morning and realized that clothing that was once ridiculously baggy was only, well baggy, and I asked my Hubby who said "umurpmmppphhh" which translates into "pleassseeeee don't make me answer". I am still, at most a size 16, but I was on my way to a full-blown 12. Not as much sucesss as it may seem, but for me near the "perfect size".

I let myself slip, I let myself down. I hope, as of today, I am back up. It has took me several weeks to understand what was happening, to see the difference between events and excuses (or what to do when they are so parallell as to be very hard to distinguish). So in 9 days I will be a year out. I was sleeved on 1-4-2012

I am not wholly dissapointed, I am not going to ignore how far I have progressed. I am going to regain my progress, own my mistakes, and begin to unravel the last few months, try to really understand how this happened. I think it is obvious to me now that knowledge and experience are two different things. I need to marry them - get them together, so they can both work for me.

I will weigh myself this evening on the scales in the warehouse. It has been a good ritual for me, and I had let that slip also.

If anyone is in a similar place, please feel free to speak up. I think this is the gray area alot of us hit, and where alot of us stop posting or visiting the site often - which was another mistake. The support on the way down was essential, why I didn't reach out once I began to realize I needed it was, well, prideful, I think. It was not intended, but was a consequence. I will be back more.

I'm a sooooo in your exact place. My low weight was 168 (felt great!!) but I saw 176 on the scale yesterday and almost had a bird.I'm 18 months out. I admit I have not been exercising at all. Holiday food is all slider food. Thank you for posting. I hit the grocery store today and threw out all the holiday treats. Lots of lean protien and veggies for me. and I'm soooo getting those 7-8 pounds off. I have a gym membership and will be utilizing it!! :-) We can do this!!

[SylviaMom 83]

Thanks for posting! You can do this. You are an inspiration to many and have helped so many through hard times. Redirect some of that awesome energy towards refocusing. You got this!

[CowgirlJane 14,261]

Great post. I weigh myself daily because one of my old habits was to slip into denial....and somehow gain 10, 20 or more while I wasnt watching. This works for me and i dont obsess on daily normal variation but t keeps me honest with myself.

Your post is important because we will all regain a few pounds, the real key is what do you do next!

[doxieville 799]

Thank you Pookey for posting this and to all the others that posted after you. This topic is so crucial to our success. We will all slip, some more than others, but it will happen because we are human.

I am 4 months postop. For me, I've been really concentrating more on eating healthy, working on my lazy eating habits, and trying to develop a better overall healthier life. That is more important to me than losing weight quickly. So with that in mind, my question to all of you: has your post-sleeve way of living been relatively easy to slip back into once you were ready to admit that you'd gone off the path? We've all done a lot of work post-op to develop new habits. Do you think that has helped you come back to the healthier lifestyle?

Thank you!!! And lots of luck to all of you.

[GeauxForIt 659]

Thank you so much for pouring your guts out to us. I'm only 10 weeks out and look to 'vets' like you for the real, sometimes ugly truth. Once the newness of this new tool wears off, I need to know that even those of us with the best intentions and strongest wills will screw it up now and then. I have to know that bad things happen (and I'm so sorry for your loss) and life is going to get rough and that I can't allow myself to use that excuse anymore.

That's when the old me would say, "Eff it!" And go back to my old BFF...FOOD. The new (sleeved) me will not do that. I'm gonna be like you when I grow up.

You're modeling such great behavior for us newbies and I'm so grateful to you!

[Lisa :) 231]

I can relate!!!

I'm a little over a year out, have about 45 lbs to goal and have hit a wall in terms of weight loss. Like you, I can't say that I'm super disappointed in myself because I've come so far in a year. But my food choices for the month of December have not been all that great and I know I need to get back on track!!!

I get on the scale daily, not to obsess, but to keep myself honest. Well, I have just hovered over a 3 lb range for weeks now. And, I know, the only reason I haven't gained weight is because I exercise 6 days a week.

I think I'm gonna do Lil Miss Diva's "Basics Boot Camp". Anyone wanna give it a try?

[Lisa :) 231]

If anyone is in a similar place, please feel free to speak up. I think this is the gray area alot of us hit, and where alot of us stop posting or visiting the site often - which was another mistake. The support on the way down was essential, why I didn't reach out once I began to realize I needed it was, well, prideful, I think. It was not intended, but was a consequence. I will be back more.

Oh, and I absolutely agree with you on this!!! For about 6 months, I was not very active here and didn't even come on to the site. I find that when I'm here reading and responding to other people's experiences and struggles, it helps keep my focus!!!

[kimmy*custis 276]

I am also in the same boat. I haven't gained any back ....occasionally I will be up 1-2 lbs but I haven't lost in 3 months. I haven't been eating but I have been drinking wine....lots of it! I started today.....no more alcohol, back to the workout regimen I was using. I only have 18 more to go....I can do this and so can all of you!