Gonna Get To Goal. Wanna Join Me?

[swizzly 901]

OMG! I could actually cry ... when I weighed yesterday morning I had put 6lbs on... that is a pound a day! I was so angry, frustrated and upset with myself. I thought about the week away and there is NO WAY have I eaten enough to gain that much in such a small space of time. I didn't gain that much when I went on holiday for two weeks, all inclusive last year.

My tummy is super swollen again too and quite tender - not sure why as I didn't exactly 'hit the gym' in Spain. Although, I did a lot of walking, a bit of swimming and lugging around heavy bags - perhaps that did it?

I had planned to fast yesterday but I didn't - not sure if the number on the scale threw me off course. I didn't go mad but I did have 4 small sweeties that were left in work at around 11am, and that sorta put the tone for the day down. lunch was better; two chicken legs with salad. Tea was good; pork chop and stir fry. But I grazed on Pork rinds. My cals wouldn't of been too high but I just felt so disheartened that I couldn't resist the chocolate! It really isn't like me...once I set my mind to something I normally do it.

I weighed again this morning and I am down 3 of those 6! So I am hoping it is Water retention - my legs and ankles felt really tight yesterday too.

I am starting to feel frustration and that sense of desperation again and I don't like it. Perhaps I should just lick my wounds over the weekend and refocus next week? *sighs*

I'm also starting to feel 'fat' again and I really don't like that either. It is such a horrible feeling and one that I thought I had overcome...

and so the battle continues!

Oh coops, I am totally feeling you on this one. I was just on the 5:2 thread moaning about my sad state of mind. I hate that feeling of being down and discouraged by the GD scales. I have been feeling so fat lately too, especially through the midsection. What is UP with my stomach area?!? Oy, bodies and their stresses... Nevermind, though -- we will pick up the fasting again in the week and we will both do just swell!! {{{hugs}}}

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

Last night I went out with my family to dinner and order very well. Outback brought the bread I used to love and I allowed myself to have a very tiny piece and it really tasted awful....I ordered a cadillac margarita and was surprised because I could actually drink it. I ordered a steak dinner dinner and ate a very small amount of the steak and a bite of veggies. I looked down at my stomach and I thought wow, where did my body go, it is really small.......Surprise, I'm skinny.....After dinner I started feeling like my stomach was getting bigger. I felt bloated. I was bloated. Then my head gets wrapped up in all the loose skin I have and I feel fat again. I even see my stomach as fat too. I really can not have a margarita. My fat thoughts take over. I need a TT and a face lift with arm, thigh, and back makeover. Gesh, I have a lot of work to do.... today I've lost 1 lb from yesterday. Not sure where my emotions are with this these days.

[Supersweetums 1,164]

Maybe it is something in the air because my emotions and that old feeling of feeling like the fatest person in the room has reared its ugly head in a big way lately. Maybe it is all the crappy food I have been eating on my non-fast days that are messing with my mental state, who knows.

[coops 1,790]

Well, I licked my wounds as I said I would over the weekend - I didn't not turn to food though..lol

Today was a fast day and it went really well... and I managed to get lots of Water in which, is a bonus.

I've lost 4 of the 6 pounds and I am hoping to see the other two go really soon... I feel a lot more in control today and I have to say that the fast day was easy today! I also went to Curves and kicked butt!

What I am starting to realise, and it has taken me this long, is that on the feed days, I still have to be vigilant and aware of what I am eating... I might go back to tracking in a week or so if I don't see movement on the scales.

Here's a NSV for you... at the moment we are having a lot of hot weather - 28+ degrees... very unusual! Anyway, I was sat in my garden yesterday soaking up the rays, and I realised that I wasn't sweating like a fool... this time 3 years ago I would of been a hot mess of sweat and blubber!

Then today, in the same heat we had sports day in school... we had to walk the pupils to the field -about 20 mins - and guess what... no sweat! I sat and watched the field events - no sweat. I walked back to school - no sweat!

OMG! It felt so good to be in the heat without melting like a chocolate fireguard.. result!

Hope everyone else is feeling better!

[coops 1,790]

Oh, and as a side note... I had to buy a dress for our prom which, is Thursday. I tried a UK14 on and I thought it looked ok... the sales assisstant came up to me and told me how lovely it looked, but it would look better if it was the right size! She brought back a 12 and it fitted like a glove! Another NSV for the books! If i get some good pics I will post them for you x

[Georgia 2,911]

Oh' date=' and as a side note... I had to buy a dress for our prom which, is Thursday. I tried a UK14 on and I thought it looked ok... the sales assisstant came up to me and told me how lovely it looked, but it would look better if it was the right size! She brought back a 12 and it fitted like a glove! Another NSV for the books! If i get some good pics I will post them for you x[/quote']

Whoo hoo!!! Way to go, Coops!!!!

[Supersweetums 1,164]

Oh, and as a side note... I had to buy a dress for our prom which, is Thursday. I tried a UK14 on and I thought it looked ok... the sales assisstant came up to me and told me how lovely it looked, but it would look better if it was the right size! She brought back a 12 and it fitted like a glove! Another NSV for the books! If i get some good pics I will post them for you x

So I had to look up what the conversion would be, and here you would be rocking a size 8! I am not sure where you are seeing that you think you are so big, but you look fantastic to me!

[lsereno 2,525]

I hate the ugly thoughts. I still get them even at my ideal goal weight. I have to remind myself: What would I say to my best friend?

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

Coops a size 8? That's totally awesome! I love your fun pic too!

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Coop. Coop. Coop! Size 8 is small! I have never gotten below a 12 (USA size) I know Im taller than you but you are doing so well! I will not be an 8 when I reach goal, I will be a 10 or 12. I remember when your ticker was only half the way across to goal... look at yourself now, and never forget how far you have come girl! I want a pic!

[No game 14,437]

A size 8??? Coops you've been holding out on us! That's a dream size for me!

Looking forward to seeing pictures of your tiny body in your tiny dress!!

[Kalimomof3 613]

So I had to look up what the conversion would be' date=' and here you would be rocking a size 8! I am not sure where you are seeing that you think you are so big, but you look fantastic to me![/quote']

It might actually be smaller than an 8. My experience with UK and Aus sizing is both can be anywhere from 2-4 sizes different than ours and even my skinny size 0-4 American sized friends experienced this

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

It might actually be smaller than an 8. My experience with UK and Aus sizing is both can be anywhere from 2-4 sizes different than ours and even my skinny size 0-4 American sized friends experienced this <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Does that mean that Coops is in a smaller size than here? Simply amazing! Way to go Coops!

[coops 1,790]

the size differences is nut! My original goal size was UK12! It might sound 'small' but I promise you I am not small! There is still weight to go!

BUT - thanks for all the lovely comments, made my morning! Oh and I've lost those pesky extra 2 Spanish pounds ... back to 164.. need to see 160 again now!

[feedyoureye 3,087]

scale down 1 1/2 pounds this morning. I wrote a longish missive on my feelings about that, then decided to delete.

I am happy about it, but flummoxed by why. Is it the lower calories? Is it the "repair" going on? Is it the fluctuation of the intake of fuel? Is it eating lower carb two days a week? Glad to have it work, would really like to know why.