Day 76: Crikey I was Fat.

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Very good! I can’t wait to be where you are... jeans loosening...growing a waistline...you've got to love it!

I can relate to getting obsessive, had a similar experience last time I lost big…didn’t carry around the food scale, but was obsessed recording calories/carbs/fat etc on myfitnesspal and getting so down on myself when I went over. What sucks is I know I’ll need a tool like that post-op…am not sure yet how I’ll keep from obsessing.

Congrats on your progress and thanks for the update, always enjoy your posts!

That might be a hard one.... Have you talked to a psych? That might be helpful. I know i write down everything except low glycemic veggies. I hate to be a slave to the counter... I have at different times refused to write anything down. I swore I would never again go on a "diet" where I had to write everything down... and here I am again. I am trying to make a different relationship to the scale and the counter...just to help realize one kind of measure of the progress... but not get too pushed around by the good and bad of it, or letting it push my "failure" button.

[losingwait 1]

How are you, mrs positive?I met you in the hallway walking our iv machines! Hope you're doing well. I am better than I thought I would be at this point thank goodness. Love to hear from you.

[Douceur72 3]

That might be a hard one.... Have you talked to a psych? That might be helpful. I know i write down everything except low glycemic veggies. I hate to be a slave to the counter... I have at different times refused to write anything down. I swore I would never again go on a "diet" where I had to write everything down... and here I am again. I am trying to make a different relationship to the scale and the counter...just to help realize one kind of measure of the progress... but not get too pushed around by the good and bad of it, or letting it push my "failure" button.

Yeah I had a great psychologist for my psych eval, and am hoping to have a few visits with her post-op as well because I truly valued her insight. We didn’t get into the obsessive part of things but did talk about how important it is to find practices that are sustainable, whether it be habits or attitudes toward eating.

I’m with you I don’t want to be a slave to counting, but in my past experience the counting is clearly what keeps me losing. I used MFP in the past and just re-installed it on my phone to track my pre-op diet…I’m having great progress but have started to feel that nagging obsessive feeling again…yuck.