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Gosh darn it! I am doing the emotional roller coaster thing I think cuz I am realizing that this weight is coming off and going to FINALLY STAY OFF! It is super exciting and super scary, eh? I am trying to pin point what the fear is about...not sure yet. I have a medical background and really do not fear the surgery itself or even the consequences/eating change etc. I think it is the RESULT...like maybe I am peeling off a total protective cover off me and will be left exposed. Is this weird or does this sound like something you are going through/have been through. I am just feeling a bit like maybe I will no longer have any excuse not to be fantastic! Am I going nuts or what? LOL Well, it is get r done time regardless...just trying to journal it out. Thank goodness for this site. It is helping a TON!

Joan

Highest weight 292

Starting weight 289.7

Pre-Op Diet day 3 weight 281.4

Sleeve scheduled with Dr. Nick Nicholson on May 24, 2011

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You are not nuts; you are just experiening the wild fluxuations of feelings. I believe your fear is the fear of failure. Obviously everything else you have tired for permanent weight has failed before. But now you have a actual plan for success. You are used to small victories and then disappointment. Maybe you fear disappointing yourslef again? Shortly you are just going to see success and victory as long as you work your sleeve tool.

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I can understand what you mean about peeling off the protective layer. While I'm fat I can hide behind that as a reason I can't go out and do things. I can stay safely hidden behind my wall and not have to face life. When you lose weight you become a full player in the game of life again without the built-in excuse of fat to explain any failures. But seriously I think you're totally normal and have nothing to worry about. I believe as you lose weight you will gain confidence.

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Hi Joan - first off let me say, you are not nuts, I went through the emotional roller coaster as well - I think its part of the process. This is a life changing thing we are doing. I was told by one of the nurses that we would morn as if we have lost someone.

Second, I am getting Sleeved by Dr Nick Nicholson on Monday May 9th! Nice to meet another! ~ good luck with your surgery, keep me informed on how everything goes

Happy Friday!!:D

Gosh darn it! I am doing the emotional roller coaster thing I think cuz I am realizing that this weight is coming off and going to FINALLY STAY OFF! It is super exciting and super scary, eh? I am trying to pin point what the fear is about...not sure yet. I have a medical background and really do not fear the surgery itself or even the consequences/eating change etc. I think it is the RESULT...like maybe I am peeling off a total protective cover off me and will be left exposed. Is this weird or does this sound like something you are going through/have been through. I am just feeling a bit like maybe I will no longer have any excuse not to be fantastic! Am I going nuts or what? LOL Well, it is get r done time regardless...just trying to journal it out. Thank goodness for this site. It is helping a TON!

Joan

Highest weight 292

Starting weight 289.7

Pre-Op Diet day 3 weight 281.4

Sleeve scheduled with Dr. Nick Nicholson on May 24, 2011

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Wow...you sound exactly like me. I have wanted this for so long...I am self-pay, and now that I have finally saved enough money, I am an emotional wreck. I think that my main concern is failure.

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I am with you. I think it is just the idea that I am going to be totally successful at this...I just know it. And that means I have now unlocked myself to be successful at everything in my life. I feel like this has been the key all along. Wish I had figured it out earlier!!!!!

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      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      1. summerseeker

        Life as a big person had limited my life to what I knew I could manage to do each day. That was eat. I hadn't anything else to look forward to. So my eating choices were the best I could dream up. I planned the cooking in managable lots in my head and filled my day with and around it.

        Now I have a whole new big, bigger, biggest, best days ever. I am out there with those skinny people doing stuff i could never have dreamt of. Food is now an after thought. It doesn't consume my day. I still enjoy the good home cooked food but I eat smaller portions. I leave food on my plate when I am full. I can no longer hear my mother's voice saying eat it all up, ther are starving children in Africa who would want that!

        I still cook for family feasts, I love cooking. I still do holidays but I have changed from the All inclusive drinking and eating everything everyday kind to Self catering accommodation. This gives me the choice of cooking or eating out as I choose. I rarely drink anymore as I usually travel alone now and I feel I need to keep aware of my surroundings.

        I don't know at what point my life expanded, was it when I lost 100 pounds? Was it when I left my walking stick at home ? Was it when I said yes to an outing instead of finding an excuse to stay home ? i look back at my last five years and wonder how loosing weight has made such a difference. Be ready to amaze yourself.

        BTW, the liquid diet sucks, one more day and you are over the worst. You can do it.

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