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So I had my second fill this past Tuesday and I'm not feeling full or anything...I'm so angry with myself cause I'm still eating until I get sick then I try to throw it up and nothin comes up...I had a break down today cause I'm so mad I hate myself. I thought I could do this but guess I don't have the power I thought I had. The scale is what is triggering me maybe I need to throw it away!! Grrrr

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Hello butta. First let me start with this- I am one hundred percent totally on your side. Now lets talk this through, you had your second fill. You are not feeling full. That's not all you. The band has to work first. As for will power- I'd say most of us are in the same boat. Or we wouldn't be here. The scale? I think that is my worst enemy too. The cause for my eating disorder when younger. I hate scales. You can do this. And I will do whatever I can to help. Talk to your doc. Make sure all is well. And than lets take this one day at a time. I'm here if you ever want to vent or chat or just laugh with. Best of luck.

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Don't get discouraged so soon. I'm 3 1/2 years post banding and I still am learning! Some folks take a long time to get to proper restriction, and until you do, its really willpower...a diet. Try to follow your surgeons advice as best you can. Try slowing down your eating, chewing really well. Maybe hiding that scale for a couple of weeks is a good idea for you.

I promise, this band does work! It takes a while for some, like me. You really can do this....never, ever give up! :)

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Sorry you are having trouble. First of all you do not want to be full. If you are full you have eaten too much. For me learning what it feels like to be satisfied is often a work in progress and I am four years out. I find the best thing for me is to measure my food so I know when to stop. Trust me it does get better. Try to keep yourself busy after you eat and remember it takes about 20 minutes for your brain to register the food you have eaten. Sometimes I take a five minute break half way through a meal especially if I am really hungry starting off. Hang in there.

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I agree with everyone above....take it day by day. My concern is that you are eating until you feel sick each time and that scares me. Maybe if you know you will be tempted to keep eating, try and measure out your 1 cup of food and bring only that to the table? Or do a re-set and start with mashed foods for a few days agian? Hang in there!

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I try not to weigh myself till I see the Doc. then we ( Him & myself ) know wheather or not I need a fill last time I went I had lost like two lbs each week for four weeks so it was my my fifth fill and now I have 10cc's in my fourteen Cc band and I am just starting to feel a lot more restriction , believe I am really feeling it so stopping from eating too much is noooo problem at all it to from Sept to march , almost April to figure it out lol so it's going slow but it's going and that's what I care I am not comparing myself to anyone cause I did this for my self not anyone else.

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You are never going to get that Thanksgiving kind of full.

The LB is a whole different dish of fish.

yes, if you are eating until you feel full, you are going to get sick and hurt everytime.

Don't get down on yourself. This is a huge learning process. I know ppl at goal that still make mistakes.

Give it time!

Measure your alloted amount until you know for sure what that looks like. Eat slow, 1min between swallowing and next bite, which means put your fork down. Stop at 20 mins whether you're done or not.

Those are the LB rules.

Good luck

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You are never going to get that Thanksgiving kind of full.

The LB is a whole different dish of fish.

yes' date=' if you are eating until you feel full, you are going to get sick and hurt everytime.

Don't get down on yourself. This is a huge learning process. I know ppl at goal that still make mistakes.

Give it time!

Measure your alloted amount until you know for sure what that looks like. Eat slow, 1min between swallowing and next bite, which means put your fork down. Stop at 20 mins whether you're done or not.

Those are the LB rules.

Good luck[/quote']

Well said!,

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