GonnaBeFit

I'm about 6 months out as well and have hit a plateau also. We can work it out though ... and I have to keep reminding myself that this is weight that I wasnt losing before .. but now I am at least losing! Good luck!

Well its been about 6 months since my surgery. I have not lost nearly as much as I was hoping, doing nearly as much as I wish I was ... but I'm losing. Thats all that I came into this whole thing for ... to start losing. I have hit goals ... which is awesome! The first one was to just start losing. With having PCOS it was impossible to lose, I had tried, trust me. And it just never happened. So losing anything feels great! The second goal was to get below 200 lbs. I am currently at 198.4!! Not that far below but I still met my goal That one feels awesome too! I have gotten a job so I dont really have time to come on here at all ... I just wanted to update everyone though Keep on truckin' ... it might take a while but its definitely worth it

Well I'm back! After my 2.5 weeks in WI visiting my family for a get away from stress and life right now and for Christmas, me and my daughter got back to an empty and messy house. My husband moved out of the house the day we got home. Its an adjustment that's for sure and my daughter is missing her daddy and doesn't understand what is going on. He decided to move in with his girlfriend and I don't want her around that. Anyways its been very stressful and I'm breaking out, losing hair like crazy and still around the same weight. I have my third fill on the 19th and should be at about 5ml when I get it. Hoping its a good amount bc I might be losing my insurance in a short amount of tome due to the divorce. Please pray for me if you know the Lord and keep my daughter in them as well please!

I just got my second fill today and am very cautious about drinking my shake of a dinner LOL ... Everytime is a new experience! Hope it gets a bit better for you!

Those are awesome ideas! I am starting a job the beginning of the new year and seeing this thread totally helps!!! I will certainly be referring back to it!

What a crappy week ... There I said it. I've had a terrible week, in regards to my "husband", our fights, being sick, then being sick of what is going on. But I'm determined to make this next week and the ones to come so much better than the one I just had. In church last night the Pastor was talking about a women that was sexually abused by her father when she was a little girl. Well when she grew up she had so many issues because she couldnt let go of the whole situation. She harbored so much emotion and hatred toward him and the situation. She finally learned to forgive him through the workings of the Holy Spirit and when she told him she forgave him for everything he had done to her, she also asked for his forgiveness for all the hatred and other feelings she had towards him. Then the pastor said something so profound it really touched me. He said "Even though she will never trust him alone with her daughters, she forgave him" ... He even repeated it again. That line has been ringing through my mind ever since. She can forgive him but she doesnt have to put herself in his path of destruction. Even though she can forgive him, doesnt mean she has to be a victim of him. It was like a wake up call I guess for what I'm going through in my marriage. I can forgive but not be a victim. I can forgive him but not be in his path of destruction. I can protect myself by keeping a check of my feelings and my heart ... guarding my heart from his actions. I have control over that. I have control over my feelings! Seeing that I have control over my feelings, then I guess I have control over SOMETHING right? So if I have control over something then I dont have to let everything go spiraling OUT of control. I can have control over my eats .. I can have control over what I put in my mouth and what I do with my body (exercise wise). So here is my new turn ... my new way of thinking. My new "resolve" if you will to not be a victim of anyone ... not even me. I feel like I need to have a plan of action. I am not entirely sure what this plan should look like or include ... probably my diet and exercise of course ... lol ... but besides that, I dont know. I just know that I'm done .... I'm done being a victim, I'm done being all flimsy with my feelings and letting someone else have control over my feelings and I'm done being this freakin heavy. I'm done being fat and I'm done feeling like I have no control over my body. This is my new turn ... a second, sixth, or fourteenth turn actually. But it is my new turn.

That really funny because it tickled me too! I didnt get numbed in the area beforehand ... she just inserted the needle and I was laughing the whole time! Your not weird ... or maybe we both are just weird.

good luck with the exercises. there are lots of possibilities for exercise

I cant tell if thats where I am at right now .. either a slow go or a no go. I feel like I'm at a no go. I know I'm eating less, somewhat better quality of foods ... Just have not done a SparkPeople/Fitday calculations for my eats. I guess I'm too lazy for that ... probably not a good combo for having a LapBand. I just feel completely and utterly TIRED of everything that is going on. I know I am partly depressed because of whats happening in my personal life, exhausted of the go around and waiting and hostility and everything else associated with this crap. I just want it over with. You would think that with everything I am not in control of I would want some type of control over my foods and exercise ... its like its the opposite though. If I cant have control of one then forget having control of any of it. Like I'm giving completely up .. I know its not good. I know its not healthy, physically, mentally, or emotionally. The past three days have just been a living hell pretty much in my marriage (If you have read any of my other blogs you know what I'm talking about). we have just been constantly fighting and everything just seems to be spiraling down like crazy. Its hard right now to look up to God, I dont blame him. I dont hate him for what is going on. I know that God is in control, I just dont like the road. God never said we would be completely happy with what he gives us. I guess I'm in a funk .. I need out. I Just cant wait to get to my parents for Christmas and get away from the negativity here. It really is wearing me down, feels like its beating me down actually ... So I have my second fill on the 16th. I doubt she will be very liberal with it ... infact she will probably be very conservative, probably 1ml again. That will do nothing for me .. It did nothing last time. I'm able to eat whatever I want. I need restriction to help me ... I need peace, I need positivity.

I gained weight back as well .. I had lost 30 lbs then started eating real food again and i gained almost 10 back ... its very hard to get that weight off ... i've been hovering around the 20 lbs loss mark and its driving me insane. I wish i had some advice for me but I have nothing I feel like going back to the liquid so i can lose some weight!

Thank you all! I thought everyone should see things the way I did yesterday ... Maybe it will help some people feel better.

So of course I dont like my body. I got the lapband for a reason. As long as I can remember I've been semi-obsessed with losing weight and getting to be "skinny" and fit into skinny jeans etc. I want to look hot and feel hot and be hot. I was always, and still am to a point, jealous of all my skinny friends and all the cute clothes they could wear, and how all the boys liked them and not me. The result this mind set has on me is not really the best ... It makes me feel really discouraged, disappointed and even like I am a failure because I have been overweight since I hit puberty. I used to feel worthless and unlovable because of my size. I've recently come to the realization, even though I have had this head knowledge for a long time, that God loves me just the way I am. He created me in HIS image. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, no matter what this stupid PCOS or I have done to my body. Today during my devotions the ending question/reflection point was to ask God where you have discontentment in your life and for his help to overcome it, come through it, etc. So I was praying and all I could think about is my weight. The verse I read right before the question was talking about how fearfully and wonderfully made we are and we should know it full well. My weight and being fearfully and WONDERFULLY made doesnt really seem like it goes together but I realized it does. God made me fearfully and wonderfully made, no matter my hair color or how I cut my hair, no matter my weight or what clothes I wear. No matter what I am fearfully and wonderfully made and I need to know it full well. It is not about getting down to a certain weight on the scale, or a certain size ... God is not worried about trivial stuff like that. God is more concerned with my heart and of course if I am healthy enough to do His work. So my new take on everything is that I will not focus on the size I want to be. I will not focus on the scale. I will focus on my health, eating the proper food and in the proper portions. I will focus on being active and keeping my heart and lungs healthy. I will focus on making sure my muscles can do the jobs God has planned for me. I will focus on keeping my body in good condition so when God says go, I can go and not worry about my body not taking me there! How freeing it is to not be tied to the scale or those cute little jeans I saw at the store. How freeing it is to be tied to God We are ALL fearfully and wonderfully made and we should ALL know it full well!!!

You look so great in those pictures Beth!! Sounds like you had an amazing vacation!!!

Nancy, so sorry about your port flipping! Hopefully everything will be fine after this surgery and you will get the results you want! Good luck!

Hi KatieJane ... yes I just had my first fill the week before Thanksgiving. She only gave me 1ml though so it was basically nothing. I didnt feel any change in my appetite or restriction. My next one is the 16th of Dec and I'm hoping to get more than 1ml ...