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www.myspace.com/gingerrayne is my pin up one. This is just Ginger's profile. The Pin Up Kittens are www.myspace.com/retrokitten1 I have a personal one, you know Brandy, kids, ect. that I will pm you. I don't share that one here worldwide. You have to actually know me and be my friend...lol...

LOL.....I LOVE lawn darts. I will never understand why they were recalled. But I know, it is all fun and games until someone looses an eye! lol.... :youcandothis:

Hey guys! Just wanted to share some BIG pin up news. I have just been chosen to be a Pin Up Kitten, which is alternative models. So pin up, burlesque ect. Right up my alley! I am not on the site yet, I was jsut chosen this morning! BUT it is www.myspace.com/retrodolls1

Life in general...I have become quiet disenchanted with my current life and self. I did everything I could do to change me, to make everyone else love me and feel lost. Most days I am clueless as to who I really am, and some I am so confident that I know who I am, it truly scares me. But today I ponder how someone who has everything she wished for feels so sad about it all. There is something to be said about the grass ia always greener on the other side. What did I sacrifice to become who I am? I feel more lost now sometimes than I did before. And in the quietness that has become my life I feel wretched. Are we doomed to feel there is always something missing? Are we by nature never to have everything we want and nothing we really need? What do I want to make me happy? I thought becoming the new me was all I needed to make me happy, but alas it wasn't true. I am even more lonely now than I ever was. I feel abandonned by many and intimidating to others. The thing about fat girls, most of them have lots of friends, and I miss my friends. I am so blatently sick of discussion with co workers revolving around "How much have you lost" "Are you still loosing" "You look so good NOW". I just want to be noticed for who I am now, not who I was then or compared to it. IS that the source of my ambiguity? All I have ever wanted is to be happy. Keep the castle and white horses for some other princess, I just want happiness.

Life in general...I have become quiet disenchanted with my current life and self. I did everything I could do to change me, to make everyone else love me and feel lost. Most days I am clueless as to who I really am, and some I am so confident that I know who I am, it truly scares me. But today I ponder how someone who has everything she wished for feels so sad about it all. There is something to be said about the grass ia always greener on the other side. What did I sacrifice to become who I am? I feel more lost now sometimes than I did before. And in the quietness that has become my life I feel wretched. Are we doomed to feel there is always something missing? Are we by nature never to have everything we want and nothing we really need? What do I want to make me happy? I thought becoming the new me was all I needed to make me happy, but alas it wasn't true. I am even more lonely now than I ever was. I feel abandonned by many and intimidating to others. The thing about fat girls, most of them have lots of friends, and I miss my friends. I am so blatently sick of discussion with co workers revolving around "How much have you lost" "Are you still loosing" "You look so good NOW". I just want to be noticed for who I am now, not who I was then or compared to it. IS that the source of my ambiguity? All I have ever wanted is to be happy. Keep the castle and white horses for some other princess, I just want happiness.

Ugh....I am so over the olympics already. DH watches everything, I mean it all. He was watching BADMITTION yesterday, someone please tell me how the hell is that an olympic sport?? WTF???

Hi and welcome to LBT! Congratulations on your new journey! Welcome!

lol...sorry Denise! I am being quiet myself lately, having issues. BUT on my myspace page I put up pics and stuff...lol... I should be haivng a new shoot next weekend if I can find a sitter. I have a new dress that was made for me for the shoot.

Hey all Sorry I have been so MIA. I am having serious depression issues! Happy belated bday friends! Froggi love ya girl. And Mac, you are a star! SheSmiles--congrats darling!! WOO HOO! How is everyone else?

woo hoooo congrats mac! good for u!

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing her story with us!

Karri You look great dear! I know the countdown to exercise....lol....you're almost there hun! Good luck and take it easy going back to it! Sorry about the revisions, but you do look great!

Ya, but if it wasn't for the fact she is HIS grandma I would say it. My grandma would never in a million years so anything like that to me, so it is REALLY hard for me to handle. I wanted to f*ing kill her. Why can some people feel they have the right to be so mean? Thanks! I'll only take that box if it has no holes for breathing, I wouldn't want to give them false hope....lol....

Yes, that would be them. They ended up staying longer and I have lost all sanity and comfort with myself. I would like to dump myself into a vat of water and stay there.....I freaking ate like a pig yesterday. I am so upset at how his Grandma treated me. I was going to kill her. All she talked about is all the things the girls and I do wrong as well as how I need to diet so I don't get fat again. WTF????? :teeth_smile:

I am sick of in laws, completely ready to kill them......fish and visitors stink i n3 days and we are WELL off from that! UGH!!!!!!!!!

Dr Schulman I am having a revision on my TT and breast reduction from May. I am very unhappy and the Dr has told me that it will "all be on him" as far as cost for the revision. Is it appropriate to tell him while he is fixing the breasts that I want small implants to fill them out? How do I ask? Thanks!

Just posting to say I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!! I was gone on a family vacation and I still have the in laws here so I want to kill myself but wanted to post I miss all of you and will be back soon! MUWAH!!!

Thanks DEnise! ME TOO!

lol....nope they are all girls!!!!!!!!!!! I am estatic things went so well, I amazed!

Well telling the girls went much much better than I ever could have imagined! My youngest cried but was so overtaken by the babies she got over it quickly, she still says she misses the others, but isn't crying or broken down. My oldest AMAZED me, and she was the one I was worried about. She said she was sad and she lost her best friends BUT she was very excited to have new babies. I cried like a baby and she held my shoulder and told me that everything was ok and that they were all in the big cage in the sky!! I was a wreck about telling them, and they made it so easy on me. :thumbup::tt1:

thanks all. my youngest took it better than I thought. I was able to buy a mommy with her 2 week old babies so they really helped. they are so tiny they fit in the palm of my hand!

We have decided we are going to tell them it was food related. I wanted to have 2 new ones for them to try to ease the pain but all we could find were ugly white ones..... Thanks for all the support if I can get through this without crying into a can of frosting, thank god...

Thanks, I should have known better. I spent 3 hours driving all over lower Michigan to try to fine replacements. I couldn't anywhere. I am really worried on how my oldest, the bipolar one is going to handle it. Her pigs were the only things that made her happy. If I could drop off the earth I really would do it right now, I feel like I am going to destroy her. I am going to lie and tell them it was bad food. I can't let them hate me.

:smile2: I was cleaning the house and put them outside. I had no idea it was so hot. I no longer get hot at ALL so I had no concept that it was too hot for them. I left them out there for about an hour. I roasted them all. I hate myself right now. The girls will never forgive me, I won't either.

My PS was covered by my insurance, so I wasn't self pay. I know the bill for the tummy tuck and the breast reduction was over $27k. BUT I did get my insurance to cover it.