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And your New Reality may contain a Whole Lot of This State of Mind- I'm 13 months out and my journey still contains IT!

And what a Christmas and New Years you are going to have! @Cinde52 I wish you only the best of Everything- You are giving YOURSELF a wonderful GIFT- and you're investing in a more beautiful FUTURE and longer LIFE expectancy. Pretty much a WOW anyway that YOU look at it!??

B-sided reply it's a tie between cauliflower which seems easier on my cranky Precious Pouch than the Rest of the Cabbage family and, brace yourself- Collard and other greens except Turnip ones- never could abide the veggie or its greens - YUCKY POO to the MAX! Used to ❤fresh baby green peas, but the skins of it and sweet corn, a moment on the lips but FOREVER in my diverticular pockets, ate sweet corn once and passed little reminders for 4 days straight. Yeah, TMI but just my testimony today!

True Story Former BFF- OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BREASTS?- they are almost nonexistant now. ME- Bariatric SURGERY- who would have guessed that was WHERE all my pre- surgery weight was carried? Thought running through my mind- "Where is Dear Uncle Vito when I NEED this broad rubbed out?"

And I believe Emily Jane that you WILL BE ABLE to do it - not gonna be the easiest thing to do but I often believe our former weight had us stuck in Hades and now we deserve a chance for our HEAVEN. Work Work Work with what your Surgery can do for YOU, from the Lofty search of 13 months elapsed I know mine brought me the opportunity to become what I was always inside, a wonderful NEW ME- I am one- half the size I started AT , been staying at 180 or there-abouts, was 178.5 this AM before drinking and my morning smoothie time so artifically LOW, but I went through a lot to get where I am and diet alone could never done it for ME- believe I was once on Every diet in the Western World, even some I think were formulated from somebody's warped imaginarion, and had pitiful results- so 1/3 bariatric surgery, 1/3 Rocky recovery times and the rest? Bull- headed stubborness, I am a naturally strident redhead who no LONGER accepts what advice is faulty and misguided, even if I am not PERFECT I do give it my Best Shot and I am one heck of a Female although I'm still a Lady too!

I have Nothi,g Bad to report about. Medicare- never gave Me me one- quarter the grief United Healthcare gave me when I had IT as my Primary! Been 3 1/2 years and I still have BAD MEMORIES Of Those Folks!

Y. I P E S !

Well wilt my Kale with Bacon? Grease Dressing and Call Me A Salad, HONEY?!

Well Mic I am very proud to? hear this; I understand S all of us do, how HARD it is to lose Down That Way, some days You Wonder if it ever Will Happen but slowly and steadily it will. happen.I remember myself how it felt to Break 300, and then 200 and now, on my my 13 month Surgiversity I am 181 this Morning, really only 6pounds to the Goal I Set Myself. Was it Worth it All? Most Days I think SO, this AM I sure didn't , I am So Weary of Emesis and it seems to be my Constant Companion. Restriction- that's a Fine Idea- Yes Indeed but never feeling quite WELL, to gain all the benefits I relinquished a LOT and sometimes it bites BIG instead of a gentle gnawing. But I Have Survived a Lot in my 73 years of LIFE, I'll make it through THIS CHALLENGE As WELL As I CAN and I do wish that for YOU. TOO.

And @ SISSYJ I am over here at 73, 13 months past an RNY, yes we 1940- types can and do DO IT TOO- and any time you want a peer to peer talk---I AM HERE!

Wow You are a Lucky Ducky- wish I had been there with YOU!

Please Update us @Nacfsu- I also have been wondering how you are doing?

And I am out here in Central Ohio, my smallish- 20,000- city is called Mount Vernon- my family has lived in this area since leaving New England in the Early 1800s? Know family legend was that they traveled down the Erie Canal And down into Northern Ohio, and across my state to this area. Much farther along , 13 months today, trying to make it down the last 5-10 pounds, depending how your scale weighs-- to my goal of 175-- sounds like STILL an amount of weight? Not when YOU started at 365+ like ME and I'm 73, never gonna be Slim and Sleek unless you're hoping for Emaciation , which I am NOT. Blue, almost periwinkle blue TODAY, it gets LONG and tedious at times, but I was BORN to Triumph and I am still not ready to Give Up. So I do ❤ reading each of your Stories, ?pray for Each of You, keeps ME from fixiating on Myself!

And I Just Bet ?333 and I will be THERE hoping and praying ?All Goes Well!

And ?my Friend, I will be following your story, like all of us in Life, You Learn as You Go, and We All Will Have a Story to Tell as T8me Goes On!

Done them All except for the friends Sibling-every one I can think of was 1. Rotten Disposition 2. Belched, picked their nose or scratched private area in public 3. Gay 4. In colleges 3 states away or 5. were too much like the Rotten Little Brother I never Wanted! But, the rest -Yep did them ALL- I even dated a guy in another country so I guess I trumped Sheribear68 after all!

I ❤IT -AZhiker- it is So True and that's the Way I want it to BE and I suspect it Will BE.

Thanks Darktowerdream, I believe you do understand and I'm going to see what I can find out about this "Mell of a Hess" life I'm leading. Oh I do try to remain upbeat, optimistic, but sometimes I just Feel so bone-ass weary of it All. Like the happy optimistic twin locked in a room full of manure, if I look hard enough there's got to be a pony SOMEWHERE!

And you're living up to your Name, suspect you always were- but now you're looking like Arm Candy- congratulations on all Your Hard Work- it's paying off!

Poor Dragon- looks like the critter might need a filter there- but I bet it will be Uber Cool when it's All Done!

My wellbutrin got changed from 150mg ER twice a day to 100mg three times a day SR if that's of any help with your question. Probably the dosage and timing may change but you'll still be receiving your therapedic dosage. And congratulations on your RNY , I am also a member of the Kangaroo Klub myself- we are Kangaroos because we all have pouches- a little RNY humor for YOU!❤

And they will fade and grow smaller- at one year m8ne have all faded into the stretch mark scars I had from 3 9 pound babies once upon a time. If you weren't another bari- patient and knew where to look, you'd never find them. Only one really still evident and it's such a mini one is the one. between my breasts where the liver retractor was placed. There had not been stretch marks so high to hide it. Its my little battle ribbon from it all. Means my skin rated me a SUCCESS so I wear it with pride!

I like the Nutra Family- I have a Nutribullet and use it almost every day.

And May You Work to make It so- I have passed Doctor's Goal- anything below 200 but I am still trying for My Dream of 175- so so close- really am hating My At3as of Gauntness- 2 of my,Major Doctors SAY I'm Looking Fine- but I am Doubting Myself at This Point- maybe a Crisis of Spirit- it the Emesis, underlying pain and the knowledge I inately now feel " Gastrointestinally Crippled" and it is a Life Sentence without Parole, maybe it is time to seek some Bariatric type consultation SOMEWHERE- people keep saying "I'm Just Fine" nobody actually seems to Listen- and a Niggl8ng Voice wisps for the days of Tummy satifactionn oh it Wasn't Always" Binge City" for Me- I just wish i DIDN'T HURT ANY MORE- yeah the scale does Read Lovely but have I, like the Biblical Esau, sold my soul for A Bowl of Pottage_ And were the deminishment of size worth the pain and perpetual nausea state I have now? I went into this to regain health NOT to lose it in the process- the Brave Little Cowgirl is feeling Midnight Blue this AM- even watched the Bypass reversal. Videos on YouTube- DON'T Think I'M QUITE THERE YET but am teetering towards- even IF it killed me and an Open Abdominal surgery at 73 just COULD I might die with the sense of peace I don't feel TODAY- I am weary of the struggle, my friends, and too too depressed over what I elected to have done to ME. But I can't commit to suicide for ME - I couldn't hurt my family, friends and BP friends by THIS, my uncle did kill himself before I was born and my Daddy carried emotional scars to his own death 50+ years later, mourned his brother that was his "Irish Twin" only 11 months between them and when He told me of Uncle Clement, He Cri3d and I did TOO-! So where does One go from Here? Sorry to Vent- maybe there is PEACE Ahead? Some Say :Give Yourself at least 18 months to Feel Healed" Well I'm still less than That, maybe I will be Okay?

But it is starting to return- and THAT is A Good THING in the Grand Scheme of Life!