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And the future is Much more Sunny than the Gloom and What- ifs our pasts, now you are I Can, I Will and I Shall, 3 "I's " to keep in Your future. Stay Strong, You Will Make It!

I'll know more Friday when my next Endoscopy is scheduled, thought for awhile I was getting a whole lot better, but urped up Friday and Saturday again as well as a little on the first liquid ( propel) I drank this morning. My bariatric staff says I am wrong, but I feel like a Gastric cripple, I get tired hearing " Be patient, you're still healing , albeit slow and steady!" I have never really stalled, but the TPN has slowed me to a pound or 2 a month, but I am assured I am much healthier than when I was hospitalized in Late November and had my PICC line installed. I had dropped 15 pounds, dehydrated and deficient of protein, so yes I am better, got a sparkle back in my eyes, but my impatience also returned. I want healed, I want it RIGHT NOW, and that's just not reasonable in the long run. But I am in this struggle to win this struggle, I am not stopping now until it is completed. And there may still be people I can help by my example, and that would be Uber-Cool!

I just might try some, thank you Fluffy Grandma for the tip. I have been on a basically liquid with a few purees almost from the beginning because of my stricture and ulcerations, and drinking gets boring after 4.5 months, someday things will be better , I will go back to oral feeding instead of my TPN, I still can have a little by mouth and usually fluids. Thanks again.

Do you remember where you were before your surgery? Do you want to be back there again? I'm a relative newbee, only 4.5 months out but I surely don't want to regress, it was not a happy place for me. Now you were once a success, look how far you came, you k,ow the right steps to take. Like one of the branches of military service, your mantra needs to be "eternal vigilance" , yeah it would be easy to back-slide, but it is going down a slippery slope, once you land in the pit of despair it is difficult to climb out again. Remember all the things weight kept you from doing, the things I hope myself to do someday. No more stuck in seats, having to someone else hoist you to your feet, not sitting in airplane seats witout extenders, not being able to ride amusement park rides, doing things without huffing, puffing or having to sit down halfway through an activity. Many of these I haven't achieved myself but I am working hard to get there. And I will need someone to encourage me, maybe YOU are that person, don't fail me now but most of all Don't Fail Yourself. I will be watching to see good reports from YOU because I believe you will keep your life going forward. ?Your Friend Frustr8

You know what I would like today- know I can't have it - Martin Luther King Weekend- no public transportation in my beknightened locale- collard or mustard greens in pot liquor, a little ham either real or Turkey to flavor it. Been on liquids and purees too long, my mind is "writing checks" my body and especially Precious Pouch refuse to cash. I'm still not quite as bad as my Brittle Diabetic friend Ellis. Told me one day " As soon as my sugar levels stabilise I'm gonna get a giant sundae with hot Fudge, whipped cream and a Maraschino cherry!" All I could think to retort was " And won't THAT do you a world of Good!" Blood sugar of 500-600 and THIS TIME you might not live through it! Someday I Shall have my greens , a piece of corn bread 2 inches square, and I'll Keep it all down. You got to have a dream, if you don't got a dream, how ya gonna have a dream come true? That's Bloody Mary's song from South Pacific, in case anyone wants to know. I have so much music in my head that sometimes it bursts forth!??

I am gonna be shaped like the Great Pyramid of Egypt, little pinhead on top but the round ass and thunder thighs will be the last to go!

Dang you mean not EVERYTHING is perfect for Barbie either? And I always thought she got the best of what was out there, even if she was a doll I envied her, nobody ever gave me a Malibu Beach House or a Pink convertible!

Yeah but some of the Oldies were Goodies, always wonder how the posters are these days! Probably living maintainable level and still grateful for their surgeries.

Yeah I also was amazed how quick Bariatric Pal Store deliveries are, even to my off beaten path and no interstate access city. Good stuff, reasonable price and quick delivery, triple wins in My Book!

@claricey I do hope they come through for you . In a world where. companies of all kinds aim for 5 ?and often get 4 or 4 and a half, Independence BCBS out of Philadelphia Pa has 2.4 so not well thought of by the General Public. I pray there is one righteous employee that will speed your request through. Keep their feet to the ? as much as possible, it's YOUR life they are monkey- doodling with.???? after all!

And I guess you turned into a February 2019 after all! Good luck whenever it happens.

And Kerri if you have questions, please ask, we will be happy to help if we can! Welcome Aboard the Good Ship ?Bariatric Pal!

And hi am still working my way to get there and join you. Just about half-a- hundred or so and I will be!???

Did the sensation finally go away,on its own?

NSAIDS I gave up willingly, it gave me Hector,my original ulcer. Tomkitten can gradually delete them from my house, I give him total permission. I still have liquid and caplet Tylenol , and I am hoarding my Norco and Tramadol for emergencies. And I usually have them expire before I ever get them taken. Glad I don't have that doctor that required his patient to give him back the Norco if he hadn't taken them all. I know there is an opioid epidemic but I surely didn't contribute mine to anyone else. And I never woyld!

Still haven't got my Med Alert ID, better bite the bullet, and order one. See you can get them through Bariatric Pal as well as online from that. monetary spider that is Amazon.

Well I made chili before this blasted winter storm set in, tried some of it, up it came. Broths okay, my powdered whey strawberry powder in skim milk, propel water, but still living off TPN through my PICC line. Last blood draw I am deficent in the iron, so check surgeons office Monday for recommendations. Maybe Feosol? Everything is cool otherwise. Seem to have a small bm every other day, hope iron supplementation won't send me into constipation, cause that is a dastardly thing to happen.?

Well Welcome@ Trellunit With your last nutrition appointment coming up on February 2nd I would say you are close to getting a surgical date. Oh it will be a change of life, if it scares you a little, that's perfectly okay, you wouldn't be human without a whim wah or 2. But there are a lot of veterans on here, they will mentor you if you need it. I'll be happy to help too, I am a RnY of 4-and -half months, oh my recovery hasn't been perfect, had a few set- backs , but I don't regret doing it, would never trade today for a stack of yesterdays, they were not That Happy. I will finish up maybe slower than the "youngins". still okay with me, I am IN it to WIN it, and my doctors PROMISE me my temporaries will turn into final victories and I'm claiming it for my own! I am stubborn , redheaded, 73 and a force to contend with. I wear a jelly bracelet that states" I'M WORTH WAITING FOR", like all of Gods Children I'm here for a while, and my retirement will be Out of This World?. So any questions, just ask, we live and love to help others.

Sounding pretty guys, Good Luck To All.

I know where Rogers Arkansas is, it's the location of Sam Walton's very first store, and now it is doubly famous for being your home Fibro Queen, very glad to make your acquaintance.???

And my insurances- United Healthcare- Medicare- and Ohio Medicaid, no shame- no blame- that's just the way it is.

Wanna hear from oposite extreme? 3 years and a month nearly. 1st attempt: August 2015-January 2016- Job terminated, no one made me aware my secondary was less stringent and would have covered. 2nd attempt November 2017- February 2018- after every requirement fulfilled Surgeon kicked me to the curb, refusing to do my surgery. 3rd attempt: March 2018- spent 4 months doing further requirements this program required, meeting every month also with Nurse-Practioner. Surgeons pre-exam July 17th 2018, surgery preformed September 5th 2018 at 7AM at OSU- Wexner Medical Center by Bradley J Needleman MD, who I can never stop being grateful to, he took a 72 year old sad dejected and rejected person and helped her into a future of health. And now I work to finish the miracle he started for me, not easy, had some set-backs but I Shall power through to victory, just wait AND see----- AND THE REST OF MY LIFE SHALL BE THE BEST OF MY LIFE, THIS I VOW! ???

You feel guilty because society has stated Obesity is something we willfully do. And truly many of us have tried everything short of slitting our own throats as an intervention to slow or retard our weight gains. I have literally be obese since babyhood when my parents , Depression Survivors that they were, overfed me in the belief FAT BABIES ARE HEALTHY BABIES hate coming across that it is somebody else's fault, shifting the blame, but in MY case it is true. Weighed at 1 year the same weight as a healthy 2-and-half year old, and THAT AIN'T GOOD! Oh I am trying to debulk myself but it is not very easy. Lost 50 pounds since surgery but my floppy stretched out skin is going to just be, unless my reoccurent skin breakdowns buy me Plastic Surgery, and doubtful any would repair someone in their 70s. Look what happened to Joan Rivers, went in for something minor, ended up majorally DEAD.

Well bummer to the max, I'm stuck inside in Central Ohio with snow and ice, winter storm warning for my area until Sunday night or Monday morning. Can't afford to ride bus shuttle to the grocery unless I find some change in the furniture. Put my kerosene heater on a radio trade- barter -sell locally had only one lady come by, guess she thought $30 too much for something worth between $150-200, this morning I would even let it go for less if somebody brings cash money. S.S. doesn't pay me until February. 1st and that's even early because the 3rd is on a Sunday. Well what next, got food for me and TK but the cats are gonna get cranky, they don't like tuna very much. And their bag of Kitty Chow is getting low. ONE cat will eat anything but Squeaky won't , she said she deserves better. Oh yes, in her way, she does talk.

And since I am a RnY with Giant Ulceration potential, I also probably am banned for LIFE, and wouldn't you know, I had bought a beautiful red coffeemaker to match my red toaster and blender and microwave just prior to my surgery Sits there gazing reproachfully with its digital time-keeping eyes at me. At least I am still using the rest of them, nuke foods and make Tomkitten toast, he likes it with peanut butter and seedless strawberry spread, can't legally call it jelly because it is sugar-free. Used to like cinnamon sugar or brown sugar on buttered toast, have not made that since I reformed from dietary excess. Oh well I'll make me some sort of herbal tea and inwardly boo-hoo!