CandySmooch

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ok, i've always wanted to write a novel too - but haven't decided on what kind - fiction or non...............so what are the topics of your'alls novels? What are you writing about?

WhippleDaddy - I'd like to introduce myself - semi-newbie CandySmooch - late at night in a lonely 911 Dispatch center I get bored and go looking through old posts. I've gotten to know you from your old posts here at LBT and even posted something a few weeks ago wondering if anyone knew what happened to you and your wife. It's a pleasure to read your provoctive posts and I'm glad to see that you are here with us. Look forward to corresponding

Yes my scale does that - I know it does because when it trys to calculate body fat % it just gives me a long piercing BEEEEEEPPPPPPP!

Is your last name the same as mine??? Hi all - I'm GOOBER CHUCKLETUSH Porn name - PUNKY HILL - LMAO!

Yes that's it - even voicing it out loud makes my heart skip a beat - and starts the anxiety all over again !

Carrie - yes I can relate, but not because of the aftercare issue - I was banded in MX and know the resources are there if I utilize them, but I need to change my mindset - its different than what your going through but what I go through is I freak out that I will lose weight and then for some reason will have to fly solo without the band and then I will gain it all back because I am not conisistent with my eating patterns - thats why I need to get into a good pattern so if one day God forbid I lose my band - I want to be able to do it on my own and be strong enough to stay with it. Right now I can't do it without my band - but I feel like there is this ticking time clock everyday.....weird....I'm trying to figure it out and get a handle on my patterns - this is my only chance - I couldn't financially afford to get another band if I have to have this one removed and it really freaks me out.

Hey there girl! Dr. Malley is my aftercare Dr. too - isn't he great? He's always so calm, quiet and confident I like him. I am going for a fill soon too - I called and left a message so it will be this Weds or Next Weds.

VINES!!!!!!!!! I was so excited to see that after I being gone for 2 weeks - come back to find you now have a ticker - way to go!!!! Turtle power! You've made my night Embrace it

Hey all - good to hear from you -

Did you wean off the prozac? My friend stopped taking it suddenly and went crazy for awhile until it got out of his system. He was pretty bad for a few months - and I mean badddd. I believe in alternative medicines - wow 14 years? I've only been in a position to go on anti-depresseants twice in my life and one was well-butrin and the other was prozac and neither of them worked for me. Are there any other alternatives besides being on medicine for so long? You have to do what you need to do, it just worries me to hear of people being on these medications for so long! Keep us updated We're here for you

Glad to hear your coming to your senses with the obsession of countin calories girl! And hell yes you need a snack or 2 to tide you over - I can't make it on 3 meals a day - I fell tired and bogged down if I don't eat a snack to pick me up in the afternoons and evenings! Keep us updated and forget those freakin calories!

It defianltey plays a factor. On my father's side - his mother was obese as well as his brothers and sisters - 2 of 3 step-sisters are obese as well as I am. Heart attacks also run on my father's size at young ages due to obesity. So its definately hereidarty. My mom always told me growing up that I had 1/2 of her "skinny" genes to try to encourage my weight loss - when I would lose - I always gained plus some more back. My mom is a small size 10 and has been her entire life where my dad weighed over 350 at his death at age 54. His father died from a heart attack at age 59 and I was truckin right along to join them if I didn't do something drastic - so here I am - banded!

I don't think I had one - wouldn't one be a bit sore or tender down there afterwards? If I had one it was put in during surgery and took out while I was still under.

There is no ground for her to find. I've been playing this game for a few months as it was on antother game site I go to. Check out these fun sites I go to all the time for stuff like this. You can do all kinds of stuff for hours! www.killsometime.com www.ebaumsworld.com

I don't know - but they I want the emails but they all end up in my spam box no matter how many times I click NOT SPAM on every single one - they still end up there go figure!

Me too! I will try taking off 1/2 of the bun if I ever attempt the cheeseburger again!

Penni - thanks for fixing - good to know that information! DYLANSMOM & THE BEST ME - thank you so much for the compliments - as I know we don't always feel beautful so it lifts us up to hear it yes Jon is a handsome man and lets hope he keeps his head on straight from now on :)LOL - the pic of me in my EMT uniform & fire gear was when I weighed 230 6 years ago - I'd be happy getting there again - I'm currently 283 - and even with the pic of me and Jon - I was maybe at 275 - I gained some happy fat since getting with him as I was 293 at surgery. When I get my pics back - I will post the horrible ones right after surgery where I have no makeup & baggy clothes. Vines - how much have you lost?? I can definately see a difference in your face! I love seeing everyone's faces to match with their usernames now! Keep em coming!

Yes Louise - we're all here to help support you!

I'm a slow loser member and here is a pic - I've searched and searched trying to find out how to actually post the image instead of just the attachment - can't find any explanations! Can someone please post it as regular pic in the post and then tell me how they did it? Anywho here is a pic of me - I was 18 and at my thinnest - this pic just cracks me up I still love it. 2nd pic was taken in 2 years ago and is of my boyfriend and I. 3rd pic is of me at my thinnest & most athletic/muscular at 230lbs which is where I want to be for my mini-goal - also this is what I'd be happy being at by my 1st bandiversary in 7 months. Now again - its driving me nuts and i've searched over an hour trying to find out how to post pics inside the message without haveing to click on the attachement - if someone could please do it and tell me how - it's be greatly appreciated!

I never ordered another drink at the drive through or cake if I wanted the frosting. I've never been ashamed of what I've ordered - how does anybody really know where or why your ordering it? Well I take that back - when I would go to Quik Trip and just pick up late night junk food at work - the person behind the counter would ask if I worked at the fire dept. because of my work shirt and I would lie and say yea just making a late night run for the guys at work because I'd have a wide variety of junk food that was really for me since I didn't know what I was in the mood for. I still do the pull my shirt out of my fat rolls constantly - like it really helps or something! I do this constantly - everytime I stand - everytime I move - I have to adjust myself for fear of someone seeing the shirt tucked in my fat rolls. My boyfriend has always asked me why I do that - I lie and say I don't know. He really knows because its gotten brought up in one heated argument - he's like why are you constantly pulling at your clothes even when its just you and me sitting at home? Is it because your not comfortable with who you are? Grrrrrrrrrrr hate it when they speak the truth because it hurts so bad - it hurts even more coming from someone you love. I've been terrible and accused him of calling me fat which he never has but sometimes I told him he makes me feel like I'm fat - and he said you are! I about died it hurt so bad - until he went onto say but that's just it - your the only one who has the issue with you being fat - who cares what everyone else thinks - I don't care that your fat - I love you for who you are - your body is only a shell for your spirit - but it still hurts to hear your boyfriend say it even if it is the truth. Then again on the other hand - maybe he's right - maybe I should let all my complex's go since he obviously doesn't have a problem with my bigness - maybe it is all my problem and I only like to pretend to blame him too. He only cares about me being healthy and so far I haven't had any health problems related to my weight but I know I will in the future. I cancelled my Nascar Season tickets because I couldn't bear another year of sitting through another 5 hour race stuck in those tiny uncomfortable seats with the bars cutting into my hips and people too close. I stopped going to summer music concerts because I would literally be drenched in sweat very quickly and it was embarrasing being with a group of skinny friends looking like you just ran through the sprinklers.

Did you mean to post this under the Curves post instead of Body Wraps? Funny this came up yesterday because my mom always gives me her old issues of Women's World magazine and I have to tell you there is lots of useful and interesting information in these things! Anywho so I'm reading an old issue and AHA! There is an article printed this past May all about these new Mineral Body Wraps you all speak of with the mineral water & ace bandages. They even give a recipe for a home wrap if anyone's interested I'll email it. But anywho they give a couple websites to check out to find out where you can get one done at - haven't checked it out yet but its www.suddenlyslender.com and www.slim-wrap.com.

you go girl! I love your spunky ways! You've inspired me to take more pride in my body even though I'm a biggin - and today it paid off Boyfriend couldn't keep his hands to himself while I was putting my makeup on in my master bathroom - cuz I was standin there in all my thick glory - he came in to empty my trash (the same trash can that contained the infamous I Puked On Myself stain) and he said dammmmnnnnnn - and that was all she wrote - normally I'd be all tucked away in my nice big pink fluffy bathrobe but because of you I'm changing my ways. I didn't even flinch when I heard him coming - normally I'd try to hide my nakedness or suck it in (yea like that really helps) or something else silly if he would catch me unclothed, but today I acted like it was no big deal and kept putting my makeup on. Not only are you changing one man at a time - you are also changing one woman at a time. Big is sexy and so am I! BIG BELLIES UNITED - HERE WE ARE!

well i'm not worried about my weight per se' but more my strength and flexibility - I'm not sure I'd be able to get up on it without it being a big scene LOL! I would rather wait until I'm at least a little more flexible and stronger, not because I'm big right now. And Megan that's a great idea! I will have to get a bodyslimmer and sportsbra!

Aww I got goosebumps when I was reading your post of where you found that footage. I had something similiar happen. My father passed away when I was 19 during the summertime. Holidays were extremely special in our family because my father was all about getting in the holiday spirit. He would bake and bake and make cookies, candies - the whole 9 yards at Christmas that he would pack up a special tin for each one of us kids. Maybe a year after he died when I was moving I came across one of those tins - I opened it up and there it was - still in physical pefectness - an entire tin of my father's goodies. Its like the only thing I have from him besides pictures. I keep that tin in my nightstand and occasionally I take a look at it and take a moment to be with my father again It feels like they're speaking to us even after they've gone - just a gentle reminder that they are still with us. That's something very special.