TracyK

My doc called me in some phenegren. I called them because there was now way I could drive there. Must have gotten sick about 15 times. Every time I would even just sit up I would throw up. I have not done that since about 2:30 so that is good news. Still nauseated. I have not felt this bad in years. I can't go to the band dr right now. I do not think anything is wrong with it. I can drink now with no problems (so far). I gotta go get in bed. I sure hope macy doesn't get this!

Teachers...question... Since macy has lunch at 10:30 in the morning, the class has an afternoon snack. Well, macy misbehaved yesterday and was not given snack as punishment. I asked the teacher if that really happened and she said yes "when they are on pink, they lose a priviledge". Is snack really considered a priviledge? That doesn't seem right to me.

Hi ya'll

I am glad we are not on that number anymore too! Macy just spilled a plate load of spaghetti on the LR floor and dh just reshampoo'd the carpet that I had done over the weekend. He must have seen my face when it happened and he jumped on it. God he is SO good to me! The carpet still has this pretty orange tint to it though. lol kids!! Have a great evening violets! By the way, we did not hear about any appeals...is no news good news? I just want some news period !

whew...went and threw a tantrum in my blog and now I feel much better, lol Haydee-I heard the concert was great! You lucky thing you! Pamela-sounds like you must be feeling better. I am so glad. Judy-thanks for relating with me on the scales. Sucks, huh?! We will overcome it one day! Hopefully sooner than later. Michelle-sounds like a good time you had! Terry-I'll bet you are busy @ work as far as christmas party planning goes too huh? Where are ya'll having it this year? Laura-any plans to go to Tunica any time soon? I am living vicariously through you. How is the no smoking? Jenn-where are you?? TracyinKS-we sure miss you when you do not post over the weekend! Suzie & Jane-wish I could meet up with you 2 this weekend! Kat-I lol when I read about you saying you wondered how your family would feel about a low carb thanksgiving. LOL They would probably feel the same way mine would feel...NO WAY JOSE!! Hope you all have a great day...make healthy choices...even though sometimes it doesn't seem to do any good, at least you will know you are doing your part...right?! lol

If you don't wanna read the tantrum, just stop here.... DAMN DAMN DAMN.... :eek: I am SO tired of this. I am so sick of weighing the same thing that I could throw up :puke: I have worked and worked and worked. This it the part that makes me the sickest...I am going to have to work this hard just to maintain?! Are you fuc*ing kidding me? For real? Whatever! :ugh: I enjoy one day of eating what most people would think is a little to a normal amount of 'normal' food and I gain 4 pounds?! WTF?? I can go right now and eat ONE (1) beef enchilada, some rice and chips and gain 5 fu*kin' pounds and it takes a week (or longer) to get it off. I am not band bashing. I thank God for the band. If it weren't for the band I could eat a helluvalot more than 1 enchilada. But give me a break already! The realization that this is my life just BITES sometimes and today is one of those days. Some people reading this are probably like...206 isn't bad...what does she have to bitch about? I'll tell you...I was down to 173 at one point. Yes, I quit smoking, yes I am proud of that but COME ON!!! I am proud that I stopped gaining when I did but still....everyone has the right to be pissed every once in a while. :tt1::cool::tongue2::ack2::drool: I am just tired. But you know what? At this point all it does is make my resolve stronger. One fine day I will get on that scale and I will be in onederland again and HALLELUJAH....I live for that day!

If you don't wanna read the tantrum, just stop here.... DAMN DAMN DAMN.... :dita: I am SO tired of this. I am so sick of weighing the same thing that I could throw up :puke: I have worked and worked and worked. This it the part that makes me the sickest...I am going to have to work this hard just to maintain?! Are you fuc*ing kidding me? For real? Whatever! :ugh: :yikes: I enjoy one day of eating what most people would think is a little to a normal amount of 'normal' food and I gain 4 pounds?! WTF?? I can go right now and eat ONE (1) beef enchilada, some rice and chips and gain 5 fu*kin' pounds and it takes a week (or longer) to get it off. I am not band bashing. I thank God for the band. If it weren't for the band I could eat a helluvalot more than 1 enchilada. But give me a break already! The realization that this is my life just BITES sometimes and today is one of those days. Some people reading this are probably like...206 isn't bad...what does she have to bitch about? I'll tell you...I was down to 173 at one point. Yes, I quit smoking, yes I am proud of that but COME ON!!! I am proud that I stopped gaining when I did but still....everyone has the right to be pissed every once in a while. :cursing::banghead::willy_nilly::incazzato::prrr::cryin: I am just tired. But you know what? At this point all it does is make my resolve stronger. One fine day I will get on that scale and I will be in onederland again and HALLELUJAH....I live for that day!

not to mention 207 and 208...

no luck :thumbup::wink2::sad::mad::ugh: I am so sick of 206 I could throw up! :w00t:

I think tomorrow is my day....I really think tomorrow I may be under 206. GOD...let me be right please Have a great night ladies! Judy-lol @ Bob...I would have smacked Frank too.

The head hunger is the worst part. The band helps with the physical hunger...without a doubt. Being able to know the difference between real hunger and head hunger is the key. I wish the band made food taste bad...

Jane-about your post the other day....it reminds me. You and Michelles cat have alot in common, huh? lol

Hi everyone-macy is home now and my moms b-day cake I made was a hit. They loved it. Wish they would have brought the whole thing home but they only wanted about half of it Now it is dh responsibility to eat it! I have to pay a hundred bucks to get my hair cut & colored (or highlighted). That is why I normally just try to do it myself...it is so high! For just wash, cut & style it is like 35 or 40. God I wish I could see about a month into the future...

HEY.....can we say what we like to give our secret santa ideas? I need to know what to get my violet and I am clueless.... By the way....I like coffees (and coffee cups)and also my favorite scent is roses :thumbup: hint hint and chocolate but don't send any :thumbup:

Good luck in finding the new you. You know, I really think that counseling should be a requirement for anyone with WLS. The band helps us but there are other issues, ya know? The head games. The inner fat girl synrome (IFGS). I fight that daily and will probably fight it for the rest of my life. That is why I try so hard on my own blogs to make sure the newbies know the band is a tool and it takes alot of work. Ugh, I am rambling, sorry! -:cool:

Never really understood the secrecy thing but respect people that have decided to. I just knew I was going to do fantastic and am so proud about my choice that if someone else doesn't like it, that is their problem. PLUS, it keeps me on track knowing that they know, ya know? lol

1. Not really 2. Depends on the person and how much you need to lose. from zero to 30 pounds, just depends. 3. Yep...you can more than likely get to where you want to get (if you work hard) and maintain where you want 4. Goodwill was my best friend...honestly. I got tired of spending money on clothes. So I will use goodwill & walmart til I am at goal (again) 5. you can start walking the day after surgery (at least that is what my dr said) 6. I can not really remember...not long Not stupid at all. When are you being banded?

I feel ya sista! Thank GOD those days are just a memory for me and they will be a memory for you soon too. (((hugs)))

I am just not in the mood to think up a witty title to this blog. lol I have not had my first full cup of coffee and am not feeling that creative at this point. It is 6:20 AM and I have been up since 4:00 AM. Stress is a factor but I will not bore anyone with the details other than to say tomorrow will make us or break us. I will be either VERY happy or VERY disgusted once I hear some news we have been waiting for. Ugh, the waiting is brutal. Then again, we have been waiting for 4 years. So, all day yesterday I cleaned and cleaned to keep my mind busy. I even shampoo'd the carpet! I baked a cake for my moms b-day and she will be here today bringing home my daughter so they can have cake while they are here. I will just taste it to see if the cake from scratch came out OK. I can bake and just taste it. I will not over-do it. It is theraputic. Kind of like getting the feeling of cheating but not really. :cool: I am going to make lasagna for them too. Just because I can't have it doesn't mean they can't. It will keep me occupied anyway. Yesterday I made 8 months without smoking. 8 MONTHS!! Unbelievable! :tongue2: I still think about it alot but not near as much as I used to. I have come too far to start smoking again. I would have to be retarded to do that. HEY...still stuck at 206 but I guess you knew that already. Wow, today is the 16th and I weigh the same as the 1st. UGH...but at least it is not up, right? I have high hopes...I think tomorrow or the next day is when the scale will finally go down. The power of positive thinking will do wonders for me in the next day or 2...weight wise and good news wise:biggrin:

I am just not in the mood to think up a witty title to this blog. lol I have not had my first full cup of coffee and am not feeling that creative at this point. It is 6:20 AM and I have been up since 4:00 AM. Stress is a factor but I will not bore anyone with the details other than to say tomorrow will make us or break us. I will be either VERY happy or VERY disgusted once I hear some news we have been waiting for. Ugh, the waiting is brutal. Then again, we have been waiting for 4 years. So, all day yesterday I cleaned and cleaned to keep my mind busy. I even shampoo'd the carpet! I baked a cake for my moms b-day and she will be here today bringing home my daughter so they can have cake while they are here. I will just taste it to see if the cake from scratch came out OK. I can bake and just taste it. I will not over-do it. It is theraputic. Kind of like getting the feeling of cheating but not really. I am going to make lasagna for them too. Just because I can't have it doesn't mean they can't. It will keep me occupied anyway. Yesterday I made 8 months without smoking. 8 MONTHS!! Unbelievable! :wub: I still think about it alot but not near as much as I used to. I have come too far to start smoking again. I would have to be retarded to do that. HEY...still stuck at 206 but I guess you knew that already. Wow, today is the 16th and I weigh the same as the 1st. UGH...but at least it is not up, right? I have high hopes...I think tomorrow or the next day is when the scale will finally go down. The power of positive thinking will do wonders for me in the next day or 2...weight wise and good news wise:biggrin:

Terry-the other 3 malls are Willowbrook, Deerbrook and First Colony malls. I found out in the story that it is the same company that owns all 5 malls. It is that parent company that is having financial difficulty and may file chapter 11. Supposedly the malls will be OK. I don't see how unless they sell out.

Still awake....still have not made coffee. I should be really tired after all the housework I did yesterday. I even shampoo'd the carpet! I made a cake bithday cake for my mom yesterday from scratch. Normally I ould buy one but I had everything here to make it and I thought it would be fun. She is coming over today to bring Macy home and we will have b-day cake for her. Macy will be a happy camper. I am kind of axious to see how the cake turned out. I still need to ice it. Maybe I will get up now and make coffee and then ice the cake?! I know why I can't sleep. We are on pins & needles about a pending lawsuit and we found out that Monday (tomorrow), as long as there are no appeals by the end of the day, the case will be settled and the check will be mailed to us on Dec. 8th. What a Christmas present! I know that we are not supposed to pray for money BUT God knows we can use it. The case has gone on for 4 years. So, it's time, right? It by no means will make us rich but it sure will be nice to pay off some debts to give us a little more breathing room. Please send purple vibes this way. I wish I would not have even heard about the appeals thing and tomorrow being the deadline. Now it is all I think about. If it is appealed, no telling how much longer it will be before it is settled. Maybe that is why I am trying to stay so busy...so I won't think about it. It isn't working though. I am gonna get up and shower and have some coffee. bbl

Ugh, 4 in the morning and I can't sleep. I am like Terry and can't seem to adjust to this time change. But time change or not...4 is early right?! Terry-the 2 malls that I remember them talking about was Baybrook and The Woodlands believe it or not! I will look to see what the others are and let you know. Pamela-hope you feel better today! How did the cookies turn out? I am sure I will be back later. It is so early I haven't made coffee yet. Maybe I outta go ahead and bite the bullet and just do it.