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A blog by TracyK in General

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About this blog

A weight loss surgery blog by TracyK on BariatricPal. 37 entries on surgery, recovery and progress.

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just babbling

Some days I think I really wish I would have had gastric bypass. Then I think about some of the people I know that had it done and they are still struggling as well. But, at least they get to GOAL before they have issues (or at least it seems like they do). I would be paranoid about the long term damage RNY would be. Unless they come out with something to fix the addiction/brain part of it, I am just gonna have to fight it my whole life the hard way. Band or no band, I can gain or lose. Tr
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Happy Labor Day

Whoa, the holidays are right around the corner. Unless I show a great deal of self restraint I could seriously blow it and be right back to my surgery weight by January. Can't/won't let that happen. I see the danger and that is a huge thing. I see that as the first step in making it through the holidays OK. With today being Labor day it seems like a good day to really jump back on the bandwagon. If I were to re-read these blogs I would prob see that same sentence quite a few times. Bu
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wonder why I am stressed?

Just found out today that my step daughter (15 year old) has been having an internet boyfriend that lives WAY in another state. How scary is that? When we ask her about it today she (finally) told the truth...then proceeds to tell us that he has been telling her that she is the one he wants to be with and that he is coming to Texas....God help us! So, needless to say his number is blocked. Lets hope it ends there.   BUT, I haven't run the the fridge yet!
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positive change

I sure have learned alot about changes and the positive affect they can make in your life. Talk about relieved, and feel GOOD! I will miss a handful of people however. I like to keep it REAL and surround myself with people that do the same. So far since I got an unfill I have lost 5 pounds and it has been wonderful. Actually being able to eat healthy things, keeping it at small portions of course, has been just what I needed. My stmach is growling at times (have not hear that in over 2
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stress=unfill

Me again. A few days ago at 230.5 now at 227.5. I need to post on my blog more because it really is theraputic for me. I had stopped for a while because it is bad enough knowing I am failing at this band thing much less letting everyone else know I am failing but I decided I am going to my best not to fail anymore. I had done very well since the last blog and lost 15 pounds then regained all 15 plus 5 so here I am again. Since the beginning of summer I have been beyond stressed. And you

a loss is a loss

So today is the last day of May. Started out at 226.5 and lost 5 pounds for the month. I am perfectly fine with that. -5 is -5. Alot better than +5, ya know? This is the way I see it...5 pounds a month will get me back to where I wanna be by the holidays. What an added holiday gift to myself, right?! I went to the gym again today. I walked a couple of miles on the treadmill and did a mile on the bike thingy. :biggrin: I really need to get an IPod or an MP3 player. I am probably the onl

ow ow OWWW!!

Went to the gym and met with a personal trainer yesterday and all I can say right now is OUCH!!!! My thighs are SO sore I could die! :thumbup: I have another meeting with him in 2 hours and I am thinking, hmmm, I can hardly walk, what am I gonna do? lol It's all good and it is so worth it! I am down to 220 so I have lost 6 pounds in the past week or so. I know alot is water weight but 6 pounds of water is just as heavy as 6 pounds of anything so it counts! It is 6 that I do not have to ca

2 months later...good news & bad news

Well now, lets see. Here it is, 2 months since my last blog entry (which was a really good one if I must admit it myself) and I just had to come and update. Good news....#1. the scale is going down. and #2. I only let it get up to 226 before I finally decided enough was enough. :thumbup: Bad news...I JUST NOW got the rejuvination I needed to restart my journey. But I guess that isnt really bad news, right? My husband and I have joined 24 hour fitness and tomorrow we have our first meet

food for thought

OK so here I am, 3 or so months past the hoidays when I practically ruined myself...and I am still in a holding pattern of somewhere between 216 and 222. WTF? Then, last night I was watching TV and I had an AHA moment, a revelation...(key up the choir here)...lol A commercial came on and it was for Chilis food chain....there were pics of burgers and all kinds of yummy fattening foods and everything, I mean EVERYTHING they showed on the commercials, I can not eat because of my band and I know I

YAY, no tastebuds!

Never thought I would see the day that I would be thankful to have a cold and no sense of taste! Sure makes it easy to eat right! I am trying really hard to not let myself think things like 'this time last year I was @ 173 (my lowest weight). I am trying to focus on what I need to do to get back there...or at least to 18something. So, had gotten up to 223 now I am back down to 216. About 30 more pounds to re-lose. Not as easy as the first time when I when I smoked. Truth of the matter is
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TODAY I am doing good

Nothing witty, no self pity, no more tears. I am just taking today as one day and tomorrow will be one more and so on and so on. Yesterday I did really well with my eating. Today I am doing extremely well. Funny how when dh is working I can do really well. Shows ya how our worlds and 'fun' revolve around food. I have lost a couple of pounds that I had gained over the past week or 2. I am injured (neck & shoulder) and the past week I have have eaten out of self pity I guess. Made me f
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yay, holidays are over!!

Now, back to the reality of it all. Amazing how much a month can change a person. I gained 15 pounds in a month...from 204.5 to 219.5 BUT...have lost back down to 212.5 since 12/27/08. Wow, this is the year I do it. I lose this weight once and for all. Yes, I have done it before but it is different this time....this time I am a nonsmoker and am losing the weight. A double threat woman! I sure did put back some food over the past month! Whew....between cooking and baking I ate ALOT and

accountable tomorrow!

Wow, holidays and all the food accompanying it SUCK! I know I have gained some and since it is tom I am not weighing right now. I am a firm believer in "you can't fix what you won't acknowledge" (dr phil) but I will acknowledge it in a few days, k? lol I mean why get on the scales and depress myself right now? I will just be a really good girl and hope like hell I can loose back down to at least 207 before I get on them! Last time I got on scales they were 211.5 but that was the day before
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Bye bye 206

I did it....I finally did it! What a joyous occasion it was when I stepped on the scales this morning! 204.5. :confused: How is *that* for incentive to behave myself over the holidays? I never wanna see that dumb number again. I have so much to be thankful for. I am truly blessed. I have a Godsent family, I am healthier than I have ever been (even though I gained some weight back), I am a nonsmoker for the first Thanksgiving since 1983....my family is healthy, I have a great group of fri
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nothing really

Still 206 after 5 or 6 weeks...oh well, at least it isn't 207 :cool: I am in the baking mood so I am gonna go bake some thanksgiving desserts. I am glad that I am not craving sweets right now. That would be a disaster. My daughter loves to bake with me though and we hardly ever get to do it so it will be loads of fun. I may even take some pics and post them. I really have this feeling that either tomorrow or Thanksgiving morning I will get on the scales and be under 206....like 205.5 then
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PG-13 post (V,L no nudity though)

If you don't wanna read the tantrum, just stop here.... DAMN DAMN DAMN.... :dita: I am SO tired of this. I am so sick of weighing the same thing that I could throw up :puke: I have worked and worked and worked. This it the part that makes me the sickest...I am going to have to work this hard just to maintain?! Are you fuc*ing kidding me? For real? Whatever! :ugh: :yikes: I enjoy one day of eating what most people would think is a little to a normal amount of 'normal' food and I gain 4 pounds?
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no witty title

I am just not in the mood to think up a witty title to this blog. lol I have not had my first full cup of coffee and am not feeling that creative at this point. It is 6:20 AM and I have been up since 4:00 AM. Stress is a factor but I will not bore anyone with the details other than to say tomorrow will make us or break us. I will be either VERY happy or VERY disgusted once I hear some news we have been waiting for. Ugh, the waiting is brutal. Then again, we have been waiting for 4 years. So
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a week later...and still stuck

Better stuck on 206 than gaining! How is THAT for an optimistic view?! :cursing: The good news is that yesterday I got TOM and this morning I was still at 206. So, with the bloating and water retention, I am holding 206....that is actually pretty fantastic. Maybe that means when aunt flow is gone I will lose some weight finally?:cursing: Just the thought makes me giddy inside. I hate plateaus. I did not think I would hit one again SO SOON. I thought I would hit one at like 193. Oh well
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can you spell STUCK?!

TRACYK, that is how. I have been stuk on this 206 number for long enough. Thank goodness I am not depressed enough to EAT, but motivated enough NOT to eat! Should be starting TOM soon so I am scared to weigh because of retaining fluid. I will probably just weigh in the morning and then not weigh again until tom is gone. Wanna know what my downfall is? Enchiladas. OMG, they slide down the old pipes. This next part is for myself (to kick things around in my own head for therapy) and for ne
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4 is very acceptable!

Well I may have not rocktober like I thought but -4 is -4. I started October at 210 and I lost 4 pounds for the month. I could get down and depressed but I'm not because it is a negative and not a positive. The only time a negative number is not better than a positive is in a bank account, now THAT would suck! As far as weight though...If I would not have got back on track I would be back up to 230-240 by now. I am so proud of what I have NOT gained. I guess you would have to have lost it
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Forgive me father for I have sinned...

It's been a long time since my last confession. DH made some peanut butter cookies last night and I ate about 6. Ugh...they are probably in the neighborhood of 180 calories each. I admit it, I am part stupid. Here is the great part...I ate them and now I have had my "fix" and I am over it for the week. :confused: So it is Monday, a new week, I probably have the same 3 pounds to lose to get back to my 206 low (thanks to the cookies). I did not weigh this morning but I have sabatoged myself enoug
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food addict that needs a fix

That is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I am needing a fix of something, anything tasty. I know within 30 minutes flat I could have a batch of cookies whipped up and be sitting here with 2 dozen warm cookies and a big glass of milk but I also know that it would be a very dumb thing to do that I would regret immediately after consuming them. I am down to 206 now and if I eat junk tonight I will be right back up about 2 or 3 pounds again and I WILL NOT do that to myself. I would like
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bandster rules....forever

Wow, been a long time since being banded in April '07. Done really well, stopped smoking, gained some back and am losing it again. Fellow long time bandsters can probably agree with this from experience....it is a life long battle with the band as well as without. It is just easier to win a battle when you have a weapon. And the band is our weapon. BUT, do not break the rules and lay the weapon down cause then you are in trouble. You have to be vigilant, day in and day out unless you want
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up down up down

Yo Yo'ing. Dontcha just love it? But I mean what can you really expect when ou are on your TOM? I am not a stupid person but I did a stupid thing...I weighed when I was on my period. Come on now, common sense said DON"T DO IT!! Did I listen, hell no....did I regret it? Hell YEAH! Ugh...gotta love seeing the +5 pounds from water retention. Then the mind games start....is it really water weight...omg what if it isn't? YIKES!:cry_smile: That was a few days ago and I am staying away from t
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weigh/wait to weigh

208.5 this morning. This is the huge question for me right now. I normally weigh everyday. That is what I have been doing so far. I need the accountability. But we all know that when you weigh every day you can fluctuate up and down each day and it can be a real downer. What I think I will do is...since I think I will weigh the same tomorrow I will just put the scales in the closet until say....ummmm....Wednesday or Thursday. Some people go a week without weighing. I can't do that becaus

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