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ha haaa,, spelling, great things, lol, x

Thank you, im now 20lb down and am doing great, i am able to drink without pain and am learning when my sleeve is full. Half a tin of heinz soup with protein powder fills me, i can drink a small cup of tea normally, i never gulped before, lol.

I have so much more energy, and besides horrible liquid meds everything sleeve wise is good. I am however having a lot of pain due to not having my cod liver oil, omega fish oil, evening primrose capsules and glucoisemeine and crondoiten tablet, my joints are hurting bad, and my back and knees hurt a lot too, but only 3 more weeks till i can have all my meds again.

thank you ladies, i really appreciate your comments, xx

Hi, ive only just seen this, thank you for your reply, this is a great forum but so far not met any one who has wanted to keep in touch, I'm a Christian, and would love to share my journey being able to be free in my trust in God, God bless, xx

omg, what a nightmare, really hope you recover quickly now and dont have any more problems.

surely they should have froze you, sounds barbaric what they did to you, x

i havn't had mine yet, but i know a lot of people who have had their ops and are doing great, the one thing they all say is don't rush the process, stick to the instructions given to you by your surgeon and you will have greater suscess, make the most of the first 4-6 months when you can loose the most the quickest, not one person has said that they regret having their sleeve, in fact they all say they wish they had had it in their early 20s, xx

Praying for you!

thank you that means a lot to me, x

ok, so finally took courage and rang my wls team and my blood tests came back on friday last week, but the surgeon has not looked at them yet and he can't tell me the results, but they dont look too bad, have to wait until tomorrow to get a call and dont know if i will get my op before christmas as problem with beds, give me strength........

well done on your weight loss so far, you are doing really well.

I havn't had my sleeve yet, still waiting, anyway, i read a post on here that made a lot of sense, she said that if you look at how many cals you were eating to get to the weight you were before the sleeve and look at how many cals you are having now, you have got to loose weight, even if it is slower because there is a big difference.

I have a friend who eats what she wants, but smaller amounts of what everyone else is eating and she has lost the weight and maintaining her weight loss.

Personally i have been looking into carbs because of the change in the thinking with a diet for diabetics, my dnurse told me to have carbs with every meal, but the new thinking is to not have any starchy carbs and have a low carb diet.

I know that i feel better and loose quicker when i cut out the starchy carbs and lower my carb intake.

I am trying to eat now like i will after the sleeve so that once i am onto real food again i will be into the routine.

I also find that if i indulge in carbs, i crave more and am hungrier than when i have mostly protein and green veg.

I think you are on the right track and look forward to hearing how you get on, x

wow, 40and sleeven, i totally agree with you, at my last support group there was a lady who was at her goal weight and was saying how she used to be a

"right big fat cow" ouch that really hurt, sitting listening to that at 280lbs made me shrink down into my chair, but then i thought, well that is just her, we are all different and i know that when i reach goal and i see someone that is the weight i was, i will want to tell them how they can change their life with wls and encourage them to see their doctor.

My husband shocked me last month, he jokingly said to me

"so am i going to be married to a dolly bird" ouch, we have been married 38 years this november, i got married veryyyyyyyyy young was just 18, but i know that he has constantly loved me whatever weight i have been and he was just having fun with me, and then i told him he had better watch out because im a bit younger than him and he will have to shape up for his dolly bird of a wife, lol, makes me smile, it is 30 years since i could have been described as a dolly bird, lol.

Men think differently to us, i think your fiance was just trying to encourage you, best wishes, Janet. x

wow, well done, you are doing great and with your attitude im sure you will get there.

The pain from the open surgery will lessen, but it does take time, im remembering my c sections, but the time will pass and it will all be worthwhile.

The only thing that concerns me is the breathing bit, i had my gall bladder out keyhole 15 years ago and for the first 24 hours every breathe was agony, and am hoping i wont have that with the sleeve op, but am prepared and it will be worth it to get the tool that will help me changed my life for the good.

Thank you for sharing your experience, i am looking forward to hearing how you progress, take care, Janet.x

thank you i will try that, x

I didn't have an abnormal ecg, but my blood wasnt clotting right, i was supposed to be sleeved on oct 9th, but am still waiting for my blood tests to return to see what treatment i need then will get a new date. i know how dissapointing it is, but it is better to have the checks before surgery, hoping they can soet it soon for you, hang in there, and if it is delayed, keep focused, and working towards your sleeve, x

well done, not long and the journey will begin, x

thank you so much for all your replies, i am feeling much better today and i know it will be for the best in the end. I am going to ask them to redo the test on monday as well as sending off for the further tests. Also ask if they can find out what was said and done in my records about 15 years ago, not sure if those results will be there, but i can ask eh, take care, and thankn you so much for your support. xxx

wow, Mexico sounds good, very enjoyable and interesting post, thank you, x

4th day and feel more in control today, not as hungry and am not thinking about food. Had a very stressful day, my 80 year old mom is ill and had to call a doc and be there, but did'nt turn to food, another small hurdle over. I have my close friends praying for me and can tell that they are praying enabling me to stick to this very low cal diet. my bs went really low yesterday and i knew about it, but managed to eat before i went totally strange, lol. Each day is a day nearer, so glad i am not alone in this, :-)

wed, the third day decided to get weighed, i had been for tinkles that much i knew i had lost weight, another 2lb down, that is 6 altogether. Finding it easier but did have more to eat for dinner, but did keep within limits.

the second night i was very hungry, but had a big drink of diluted pop and went to bed.

my opdate is the 9th Oct and today I have started my pre op liver shrinking diet, so far so good, watch this space, lol, :-) x

finally found my way back to this blog, I did wimp out and removed my before pic's, am not ready to look at them myself, never mind other people seeing them.

Also, I know this is public and have been debating if I wanted more than my close family and friends to know about my life at this time in my life, and have decided to continue in the hope that it will encourage and help other people who are struggling with living in this world with an unacceptable to most 5 x body, now 4x I am glad to say.

I have been yo yo dieting since the birth of my second son 30 years ago, I have been to wws 5 x's and lost up to 5 stone only to struggle with hunger and unable to continue have put all the weight back on in half the time it took to loose it and often a stone extra each time.

If I added up all the weight I have lost in my life I would weigh - nothing, lol.

Even though I was so big, I was still able to work and always dressed as nice as I could, but was never happy with my size, and the verbal abuse I received was evil, and even though I tried not to let it hurt Mr, it would drip into my ears lowering my self esteem drip by drip.

My husband has always loved me, fat or thinner, and always told me he only wanted me to loose weight if it made me happier and healthier, bless him.

In 2006 I started wws for the last time at 21 stone 4lb, and by Sept 2008 had lost over 5 stone, I had gone from a size 34 to a size 20, and what a difference, I was swimming, could walk easier and was determined to get down to my goal size 16.

However, after a holiday in our caravan at the coast in Sept I had a really big and painful bite and came home really unwell, that was the start of health hell, from being fitter than I had been in years I became house and bed bound, I just couldn't understand what was happening to me. I struggled with attending my meetings and began to yo yo again due to no more swimming and comfort eating. In the following Jan my hubby suddenly lost his job and took a self employed job, it failed miserably with the recession and we used up all of our savings, and this was a very stressful time which added to my fatigue and pain.

We are Christians and out faith was well and truly tested, but our God is faithful and we were never without our needs.

2010, all the weight was back on and I was very I'll, my blood sugar went sky high and I was reffered to a fantastic specialist called Dr Hosker, he was brilliant, I got victoza, a brand new drug, and the sugar was stabilised.

I was reffered to the bariatric process in Jan 20011, and began to loose weight, I was also seen by an arthritis specialist who diagnosed fibromyalgia and osteo arthritis, at last I knew what this terrible pain and fatigue was.

I have told the rest of my story so won't bore you with it again.

There is one thing I would like to say about the last 18 months, that in the end it has worked out to be good for me.

I the beginning I saw the operation has a punishment for not being able to get the weight of myself and keep it off, but not now, I see it as a gift, a privelige, and am so grateful to God and my family to come to this place of knowing it is the right thing for me at this time in my life, and with God's help I will use this tool to get to the healthy happy person I was born to be.

Sorry this is soooooooo long, but now it is written I can move on with my story, and hope that when you read you too will be encouraged to make this step if it is right for you, Janet, x :-)

feeling really vunerable and unsure about posting my blog and pic, and having it on public view, not sure i can do this public yet, x