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That is a wonderful NSV!!!!!!!!!!

I think they are thinking that if I keep eating the way I do I will continue to lose weight forever you know.....they know that I am going to have plastics and that will remove 20-25 lbs of skin...That is what they are concerned with....You know that I have been so sick through this and it seems that nothing ever gets completely fixed...So I struggle with stuff every day....They are trying to protect me...I know that..The other day in the supermarket a woman behind me lost it when I dropped a container of milk. I lost my grip on it because I have nerve damage from the intravenous needles they used when I was in a coma.... My daughter lost it and told her right off.....I asked her why, and she said she doesn't know you. She doesn't know why you dropped the milk. She doesn't know what you have been through. You weren't going to tell her off so I did....... she was mad all day about it.....It is like it is all still so close to the surface a year later. I am being smothered again......so hard to handle it when I am already working on so much now.... Just needed to vent a little!

Yes I am working out with a trainer and I did increase my caloric intake...I eat 1/2 a complex Protein Bar before he comes and 1/2 after. It seems to have made my blood sugar settle..... Can't eat peanut butter..allergic When you exercise you burn calories in the following 48 hours after you do the sets. that is what is worrying my family. That I am not taking in enough for the long haul..... I talked to my trainer today and he said that he understood where they are coming from and where I am coming from but that this is my journey......And he has already told me how much I need to increase in calories but they don't agree. They think it is not enough....... I need to settle down and do what I do and be who I am and hope they will see I am okay....

It isn't.....I expected someone to say that and then I would feel bad for talking about it.......oh well....I will find my way I guess right!

What a relief eh!!!!!!!!!!!

Saucy thing you..lol I would say to up the calories and bla, bla, bla..But I am not at goal yet!!!!!!!! I try to eat healthy 99% of the time...I think that's why I keep losing. But to do this next step seems unreal. Esp. when I look down and see this spare tire around my middle you know.....

What do I think about it?....Confused a lot! One min. your grossly obese the next people are telling you to stop it right now.... I know they love me they have been with me throughout the entire experience. Crying with me, laughing with me, encouraging me and even studying the sleeve themselves..... But I feel a few more lbs would not hurt and the team seemed to be good with it too... But that was until I lost some more weight. Don't know what they would think now..now that 7 more are gone.......Maybe they thought I would even out too and stop. I don't know.....Oh well...seems to be the topic of all the conversations in our home and on the phone with those two....dang it all!

I have been eating a complex carb bar 1/2 before workout 1/2 after...But no one thinks that is enough calories..It is full of nuts and fruit and it seems to be helping the low blood sugar attacks..... My team said they would be happy if I stopped now but gave me the go ahead to loss 5-15 more.....OI would like to be 150-170..Not there yet. My daughter who is a nurse thinks that I have that covered when I have plastics....This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done....so confusing at times and it is hard to get my head around it all..you know!

So my hubby told me to weigh myself on Saturday...And like an obedient girl I complied...Lost another 7 lbs and he went nuts..My daughter did the same and told me I have to start eating more. My trainer says I need to add another 500 calories to my daily diet. I am bummed, you see I still have not reached my 170 lb goal. But they know that when the skin is removed that I will weigh 170 or less. I have no idea how to increase my calorie intake and have had some low blood sugar attacks after working out... I don't want to stop losing because I am not at goal yet and can't seem to stop even if I wanted to. Now I have never experienced a stall because I hardly ever weigh myself..And intend to keep right on doing that until after plastics and then I will weigh every week.....I am getting the eye constantly now. You need to figure this out they keep saying..Complex carbs and more meals during the day....I eat enough already I think......I still take a large shirt and size 12 pants..I know I am tall... but never ever thought that this would ever happen to me that they would start worrying about me being too small....WTH is that.....for almost my entire marriage I have been way over weight....How do you handle the reverse and if I am even too small.... So confused...damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!

The first time I was weighed at pre-assessment. I came out and told my husband. If I was going to get all his support I felt I had to be honest from the get go. Not only have I gone through this trip or life changing journey but he has too. right along side me............I have now lost 1/2 my body weight.......He pointed that out to me last night....I was once double the weight I am now....I can't believe it....I really can't.....And he shared that with me and we smiled about it!!!!!!!!!!

excellent.....wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes!!!!!!!!!! Wonderful NSV!

Go ahead Ana...cry...But never give up okay..I had 14 surgeries while I was in the hospital and 2 since I came out....It is quite a trip for both of us....I know I will not give up and neither will you...Your a strong woman and need to trust in your health care provider..Tell him your fears and concerns...... I came through it so will you...one step at a time girl...one step at a time....Each little NSV will mean so much to you.. I know it does for me because I paid a huge mental, emotional, and physical price for it..... Soon you will be able to encourage others. And give them hope and when they think nothing else can be done..You'll know better....... Come on Ana...show me what you got eh!!!!!!

Today I had ham and a scrambled egg..Fresh green onions and chili powder for taste..Loved it..tomorrow back to cereal for me though!!!!!!!!

awwwwwww...too cute

I too love popcorn now..did not like it before surgery...But I can eat a lot of it..so it is a slider food for me as well....I try to eat it rarely...... Fits well and goes down smooth for me...dang!

Ana, listen to me....You will get through this....I know from my own experience what a stent feels like and there is a chance that it will help the leak to heal. The stent keeps the liquid away from the hole and helps the tissue to grow over it...Now in my case it did not work..I had another one put in on top of that one. It did not work either. But most people they do work.... They can clamp it together if this does not work or do a hook up to your sleeve with your intestine....It will be fixed one way or the other.... Don't stick your hand down your throat to gag. You can cause a lot of problems doing that.. Thus making matters worse! 5 months I went through hell over complications and crying and yelling and losing it does not help. It just exhausts you and makes you feel even worse. 10 months I had extra nursing care at home.....One step at a time Ana....one step at a time......You WILL get better and you will be stronger and you will be successful in this WLS. 15 months later I still have problems with my bed sore...it never ends it seems....But I want to think I am a strong girl who will not stop fighting and working for the goal I chose to pursue....... You really have to let things like the house go you will get to it when you are better. Try not to get so down Ana....You have to remember why you did it......And work inch by inch to repair it......There are more things they can do to fix it..But they need you to be on board as well.... Please....I know this is not easy for you! It wasn't for me but I am here to tell you it will get better. You will heal and you will be like all the others a successful weight loss surgery patient.......

because I feel some responsibility to her, like I did when she was a child. You know what Ree. it is sad when a person does not grow up. You did the best for her to help your mom. she wants a pity party for herself and hand outs....Too bad! She needs to get it together. who knows when that will be. But you are wasting valuable energy worrying about this...If it is like egg shells then don't waste your time walking on them...might as well say what you think! A friend of mine always says " might as well be hung as a sheep then a lamb." Really no difference if the outcome is the same..... Time she got a wake up call from her big sister!!!!!!!!!

I had a sandwich for lunch..Well a 1/2 of a sandwich....Once you are post op for a while you will be able to eat a sandwich again...... Pre- op is hard but one of the great things about it is that you detox from all the junk in your system..Tell yourself that you are doing this to make it much easier for yourself after surgery....And you know what it is true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have had the face to thin comment. Gaunt statements and stop losing weight talk..I know how much I weigh and how much I still need to lose.... So do you. Your body will adjust somewhat depends on genes and age and amount of weight lost...Crap shoot...But I would rather have a skinny face then high blood pressure, poked at made fun of, can't walk and so on..... Tell them that their mom-ma's forgot to teach them that " If you don't have anything nice to say to shut the hell up. "

I am on meds as well and I take them throughout the day..I get what I need and they work like they always did......

Temporary condition...Once you are on solids you can eat Chinese food again....just in a moderate amount....i think once you really get going you will have a different opinion of food..it is a challenge I admit..But the good out weighs the food addiction a hundred times fold!!!!!!!!!

That's what happens when your in it for the money and not the health of a patient.....Just sad I think!

She is who she is. this is not off topic because it is affecting you and your progress. While we love those in our lives we reach a point that we are no longer going to take this kind of abuse anymore. This girl needs help not you. Somewhere a long the lines she has felt that she comes first in all things. You really need to not give her that power anymore and ride it out. Everyone has that kind of person somewhere in their lives...My mother a few weeks ago decided that it was no longer a good idea for me to ever call her again. she did this because of a minor choice I made and she took it as personal...Fine...I am done. I have reached my limit of abuse. I know that she is incapable of love and so there fore I expect nothing from her.. You will have to come to grips with the same conclusion. And realize that love has nothing to do with this. It is not you or her grandmother this is her. She must change and you must keep going... Your weight loss will stall if you don't eat...please look after yourself no matter how painful this is....The grandmother needs your love...Since you have some time to spare now...Give her the extra time and attention and work to figure out how to deal with this....Don't expect her to see it your way.....You have to live around it or plow right through it......

i just worry about possible skin infections and rashes because of the extra skin...I KNOW what I did to my body it really shows in so many ways..Don't need extra skin to remind me..although I have read several Vets who have chosen not to remove the skin for whatever reason....No judgement here...just know I need it gone for myself!