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tonibugg I'm actually quite tempted. I want a juicy burger but in my gut I do not feel hungry like that empty hungry feeling. Every day the pains get a little better.

tjloser I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thought I would do a play by play for others, but also for my own record

I am 4 days post op also! If I had the ability to have gotten a recliner or something, I would have loved to have had something like that for at home. It was heck trying to get on and off a couch the first 2 nights! I was only in the hospital 1 night.

Thank you so much ladies! <3

If you mean for the Syntrax Nectar it's one serving per packet with 8 oz of water or almond milk, whatever you want really. Same for Unjury.

I have been gargling salt water the last 2 days and it helps a lot. I stopped taking the Tylenol on Friday morning I think was the last one I had so I'm not going to take any other medicines.

Just been drinking liquids and eating some vitamin C throat drops that are sugar free. I don't like the juice plus I'm not allowed it in my pre-op diet. I'm only minimally stuffy at all now but my throat, although not painful, is swollen.

Yeah they suggest the almond milk over the soy milk. They told me not to mix a lot of soy milk in one time, but with PCOS I don't think I have much issue with having "too much" estrogen as we are lacking a bit of it, lol.

I am about to be there with you although not sure about the spinach thing! I can only imagine that you will never touch the stuff after surgery ever again! LOL But in all you are doing awesome, don't be afraid! There's nothing to be afraid of. You'll wake up after the surgery and be healthy and fine

Gosh I am sooo happy for you! I learn when my surgery date is on Monday at the consultation. I'm not going through insurance so it will be SOON!

Tomorrow is the deciding factor. We need to be covered by $13,000 at least (if not more) to be able to do this. Praying, hoping, wishing...

Congrats!!!!

As your stomach reduces in swelling there will be more room for the room vs acid ratio and won't have so much reflux going on. But if you're not far out from your surgery then you still have swelling going on probably that is contributing to this.

I am replying unofficially because I don't know, but I would guess you should take them all out just in case but remember the procedure only lasts a couple of hours at most. I can't imagine there being any reason you can't put them back in after you wake up.

Unless they are brand new piercings, they shouldn't close up any by the time you're awake and able to put them in (or have someone help you..). Sometimes I take my lip ring out for a number of days and it won't close up, but I've had it for 12 years.

Do you swim in a public pool? Maybe you can find one that you can swim in in open time at a gym or something where people are more understanding and not so ignorant and crude. I hate people who act like such dorks.

A size 20 is amazing, you are doing great! I'm a size 30/32 now and I am waiting to be a size 20 again, but smaller still than that of course. It's just been such a long time. How does it feel??

I'd be up for a texting buddy if you'd like to text with me. If not that's understandable. Only if you're interested and Mrs. wouldn't mind Don't want to make anyone upset!

Don't just 'think' you'll get there, KNOW you will get there! I have every faith in you. We will all have those types of obstacles but the important thing is that you got over that stall. Yes the stall happened but you overcame it! That's miraculous! Have you considered a texting buddy that perhaps you can talk to anywhere instead of only at the computer? That way you can be out and about doing whatever you like, but still be in touch with someone for support or just for conversation.

Thank you so much for your reply. I have read so many places that BPD is so often mistaken for schizo or other similar personality disorders. It's also very commonly mistaken for bipolar because of our constant up and downs. To be honest I have never felt better in my life lately and that's strange to me because I am also my biggest I've ever been. I have so many positive things going on right now that I am just overwhelmed with positive thoughts and for the first time the positive are shining through more than the negative. Because it's always been a vicious cycle of negative thoughts when anything good would happen. Don't get me wrong I'm not all cured and perfect, but it's just getting better for me.

I have read that BPD since it is not a chemically induced condition that it can be curable in your later years if you work at it. It's just a matter of re-learning to cope and not have such bad habits.

All in all, don't blame yourself. There's always things that "could have" been done in someones past, but at the end of the day after so long it really is only up to us the individual with the problem on whether we want to better ourselves or not. Our parents are not responsible for our lives after 18 even though a lot of the good ones feel they are to blame. But it's not true, I never blamed my mother for not getting me help sooner than when I was starting to cut on myself. By that point my thoughts were terrible and my habits worse. I was addicted to sex at 13! Can you imagine?

With that said, the fact that you CARE at all is enough to say that your love and encouragement was a good call, regardless of the outcome. Because it still would have been up to her what she wants to do with what she has been given. You know?