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Surgery Looms & I Can Only Think Of My Kitty

I have today and tomorrow to get ready, and then my surgery is on Monday!   I am finding it very difficult to wrap my head around all this as I'm just not thinking of myself because my beloved cat is really sick. She was given to me by Godmother and my Mom before she died- so she is very special to me and is only 12 years old. She has had a temperature, stopped eating and was dehydrated and the vets have done blood tests, a chest X-ray, and a tumour scan and they still don't know what it is and this has been going on for over two weeks. She has had a feeding tube inserted through her neck into her stomach because she has lost so much weight -she is just skin and bones although recently she did put on a little weight. She has been in and out of the vet and is there being monitored right now. They still have no diagnosis, she still is not eating and they are bareIy keeping on top of the temperature. If she is utterly miserable with no clear positive prognosis I will have to make a difficult decision because I just can't put her through more pain and misery. I simply can't bear the thought of losing her though - as I live alone and much of my life pretty much revolves around her. (I'm the original weird cat-lady) NOT good timing :-( and very much adding to my worries with the surgery. Oh, and to top it all, it is costing me an utter fortune (although her health has no price to me).

Smoggy

Smoggy

 

My 2Nd Week Bandiversary

Man oh man oh man!! My life has certainly been a roller coaster these past few weeks. Things are changing all around me. I have been meaning to post more often but I just kept putting it off. I dont even know where to start so I'll start with surgery to now.   Surgery: Started at 715am. Things went well during surgery but when they wheeled me into recovery my heart's electrical impluses went into Wenckenbach....i'd never heard of such and was sure they were just making stuff up. But they kept me in recovery for 4 hours to observe me. I guess it turned out ok because I was discharged at 2pm.   Post op: I dont remember much from the 1st day. The 2nd day I felt like crap and was very emotional. Day 3 was a little better. I had a lot of pain in my left shoulder but using a heating pad helped a lot. Day 4 I began to feel more like myself....well, until I got dumped!!! Yes, thats right. The man I love and biggest supporter broke up with me 4 days after I had surgery. That was rough! Reallllly rough. But im ok. Everything happens for a reason..... or at least thats what I keep trying to tell myself.     So lets fast forward to today because im tired of typing :-) I went out with some friends tonight (none of them know im banded) and I actually had a really good time. I ordered a quinoa black bean burger and ate the "burger" patty without the bun. I had never tried quinoa before but it was pretty good! I am so super duper impressed with myself for not eating the bun. That would have NEVER happened before.   Overall things are ok. It is going to take some time for my heart to heal but I think this banded journey will be good for me to focus on. Love will find me again when it is time!!   Im down 23 pounds. I can not and will not complain! Hugs to you all!

Ready2loseIt

Ready2loseIt

 

I've Been Sleeved!

Hi. This is my first blog so I want to give all of you out there a shoutout from NJ!!!!! I had my surgery 6/18/12, my 2week anniversary is coming up and I can't believe how fast those 2 weeks flew by!! I lost 7 lbs the first week and I can't wait to see what the scale says on Monday. I am down a total of 19 lbs including the 2 week pre-surgery diet!!! I am feeling really good, I began walking on Tuesday and I am hoping that it will help my body tone as I am losing weight. The only thing that I am afraid of is the excess skin. Has that been a problem for any of you out there?

Jersey Girl

Jersey Girl

 

My Three Year Bandversary Today

Hello Three Year Bandversary.   I was banded June 29, 2009 it was three weeks earlier then my original set date. I was ready, you know how ready we get, right! Someone who did not follow all the pre-op diet and all those rules before surgery allowed me to be moved up. Lucky Me!!!   Keep in mind, just remember to follow all those rules no matter how lame you think they are. I honestly felt bad for this person because all I knew was they were scheduled, had the date and did not meet the guidelines. Made my day that’s for sure.   My first suggestion Follow all the rules, no matter what!   As I reflect over my last three years, I can honestly say I have never been HAPPIER with my life.   I would choose this procedure again. It has not made dealing with the everyday life and it’s many traumas really any easier. Yet, it has helped me make better food choices and the issues for me related to the food a whole lot easier.   On my second Bandversary - June 21, 2011 I was able to have the full body nip and tuck and as I remember that was way harder and a much longer recovery than the Lap Band. I thought two weeks and I’d be up and around. It took almost the entire summer to feel better. Two months, so if you are thinking in terms of nip and tuck prepare yourself. It is a much longer recovery and way more painful. I do not regret one minute that I had it done. I love my flat stomach and small breasts now and my arms and legs with exercise don’t look bad. I like swimming and water activities. I can say I am normal, looking and feeling all around now. I love how my clothes fit. I love that I can buy anything I want in any store and I am a normal size. I even see myself in the mirror as normal. I love what I see these days. I never liked the mirror, as a matter of fact I hated it! Looking in the mirror and having a good cry can be a catalyst to change. When you see the results before your very eyes it makes a huge impression. I kept wanting more change. I followed the rules and I did make mistakes. I kept getting back on track. The mirror helps you stay focused on your goal. The scale just validated the number loss. It took a year to lose over 100 pounds. I have kept it off now and am excited to write about it.   My weight has gone up and down 10 pounds and it is always a struggle to lose again. Keeping a positive attitude and blogging made it so much easier for me.   I have had fills and un-fills and more fills do to the surgery, that was my choice. This is what is so wonderful about the Lap Band it all becomes our choices to use the controls inside. Before my nip and tuck I had almost all the fluid taken out. I knew it was risky and yes I did gain weight. Because I gave in to old high calorie habits and choices. I have always said, I want to be small so I should eat small! But if those small choices are HIGH CALORIES there will be problems. I can’t tell you how fast 10 pounds can come back if you make wrong choices. I am getting back to eating real food, not processed, protein first, not too much and mostly plants. They don’t have a lot of calories and are way better for me.   My life has never been happier, my journey has been unique to me and I wish everyone out there all the best on your journey. Keep in touch Blogging helps. Best Wishes Love, imaluckydog

imaluckydog

imaluckydog

 

And It All Comes Crashing Down........

Woke up this morning and headed to Seattle with Ty... First we met with the dietitian and learned a lot of stuff. It was nice because we got to do both consults together. After talking to the surgeon, she told us that it would be better if I did the surgery a few months before Ty, and that a few months before leaving for Japan. So I was excited and scared to think that I would be getting the surgery in a month or so. Then we came home to see if we would qualify for CareCredit.... and sadly we don't. So now it looks like we are going to have to wait until I come home from Japan in May of 2013. I'm sad. I don't know if I can wait a year.

Shelleymb

Shelleymb

 

Time To Get Serious

Well, I went to my first nutritionist class and while I was told that I don't need to lose any amount of weight in the next two or three months, I am certainly not supposed to gain any. I didn't gain any this month even though I went a little crazy eating all the things that I know I won't be able to eat for probably about 6 months and even then I won't be able to eat near as much of it. Mexican food, Popeye's Fried Chicken, shoe-string potato chips, chicken pot pie. Now is the time for me to start eating at home and cooking most of my meals. Eating less simple carbs and more fruits, vegetables and lean meat or vegetable protein.   However, I still have a huge appetite and I have a few things left at the house that although I can eat them in moderation right now, I need to get used to doing without them for a while - pasta, popcorn, potatoes, corn tortillas, rice. Tonight will be one of the last meals I make with a starch. I'm making tuna casserole with lettuce and tomato salad. My sweet boyfriend will always want tortillas or bread, but even before now, I don't eat bread if I'm eating pasta, one starch is enough. I will probably end up having a snack after dinner of either Kroger's CarbMasters Yogurt - only 60 calories, 4 grams of carbs, 1.5 grams of fat and 8 grams of protein, and cheap too.

Pinky Green

Pinky Green

 

On The Road Again

I've decided to try and blog so I can track changes and see how my body and my thoughts change over this journey. I've been on journeys (diets) before. I am 53 years old, 5 feet tall and currently weigh 240 lbs. I have not been less than 170 lbs since I had my daughter in 1988.     I started dieting when I was in Jr. High when I went on Adkins the first time it was popular (1972). Then I went on Weight Watcher's the first time when I was about 15 and lost 13 lbs. I weighted in at 114.   I really didn't have much of a weight problem back then but my mother thought I did - or at least thought that if she didn't constantly monitor what I was eating I would have a weight problem.   I've been on Weight Watcher's at least 5 or 6 times. I lost weight at first when I was younger but the last 3 or 4 times I didn't lose much weight.   I went on Nutrisystems about 5 years ago and lost down to 170 and was also riding my bike and swimming but then I moved in with a guy who was a bit eccentric and after a while we broke up and I moved out and with all the stress and I gained back up to 220. Two years ago, my right knee started hurting real bad and I I put on another 20 lbs this year when my company dropped BCBS and I had to go to Cigna and I didn't find a PCP right away and ran out of all my medicines. I think the Metformin I was taking for PCOS had kept my blood sugar down enough to never quite push me into diabetes but without it my A1C went up to 6.5 and my weight bounced up to 240. My new doctor put me back on the Metformin but maybe after I get sleeved I won't need it anymore.   Anyway, after my knee Doctor told me that I would need knee replacement surgery on one or both knees in five years about two years ago, I started thinking about WLS and decided to call Texas Laparoscopic Consultants and got an appointment with Dr. Terry Scarborough on May 29th. He sent me to a cardiologist, a psychiatrist and told me I need to be cleared for medical necessity through my PCP. I have an appointment for that with my PCP and I have to go have a stress test for the cardiologist and then all I have to do is have 2 more nutritionist consults, my colonoscopy, my endoscopy and a consult about my pre- and post diets. If I'm lucky I'll have jumped through all the hoops and be ready for surgery in September.

Pinky Green

Pinky Green

 

Almost 2 Years

in 10 days it will be 2 years since i got lap band. i am currently 37 lbs down and have rejoined weight watchers. i feel like this has been a huge expensive failure. i am always hungry. if i go more then 1 to 2.5 hours i feel sick. 90% of the time i dont feel satisfied even with a lot of protein. i thought food getting stuck would be negative reinforcement, but thats never what happened. i have no idea where to go from here except to just keep dieting. which i was told i wouldnt have to do anymore. lap band is "a lifestyle". i was told i couldnt eat bread, drink soda, etc. i can do all of those things and most of the time pull it off without the food getting stuck. i keep telling myself its head hunger, but then my stomach starts growling loudly at work and i have no choice but to eat something just to keep it quiet. at home its different. i can stay fuller longer for some reason, but it still takes more then what i am supposed to be eating to get me to satisfied. or at least my heads version of satisfied. ive been fighting along the way of course. i thought i could have the best of both worlds. lose weight while eating whatever i wanted only in moderation. apparently thats not possible for a stubborn fat girl.

kelbelle29

kelbelle29

 

72 Hours And...

Hello good people from me to you on day 3! I absolutely overdid it yesterday and I felt it last night. I could not get comfortable even with pain medication, felt like I had been in a sword fight-and I suppose I had been. I am a "side sleeper" and that is pretty much impossible right now, so it's on my back-or seated in my "Edith Bunker Chair" with my storage ottoman to rest my legs and feet. Sleep seemed to come in 90 minute intervals, and now I feel the need to order all kinds of funky stuff from the info-mercials I had to watch last night because I was too exhausted to get up for the TV clicker. It was a rough night, note: Do not go krogering 2 days after surgery, no matter what!   Which brings me to today sweetlings and I am 85% better than I have been any other day! Taking it way easy today wasn't so much of a choice as my body dictated that was what we were doing today like it or not. I have been reading "Wild" by Cheryl Strayed imagining myself walking ANY trail in my condition and it brings forth thoughts of laughing hysterically! However, I may give hiking a try-when I am healed of course. I talked with the nurse yesterday and she didn't know if my Dr. had put any fill in my band or not, she would guess no, but was not 100% in her answer. Today I drank about 30 ounces of Crystal light and about 8 oz of protein and milk, no hunger, no desire to chew, no desire to get a fill on July 5. I took a shower last night, gee that was fun-NOT! I just wanted to stand under the beating water and let it ease the pain my shoulders were screaming to me, I shaved my legs and underarms best I could. We shall see how I feel on the 4th regarding my fill.   I woke up this morning and feel so much better and finally have the knowledge that one day soon I will walk erect again! I could kick myself for doing all that stuff yesterday that was so necessary but not really. You show me your surgi-strips and I'll show you mine is the joke I keep running through my mind-too much narcotics I imagine. I am going to have some carrot cake yogurt, some more Crystal Light, and curl up and finish this book! Now that my friends, is an exciting Friday night. Lo & Behold!

velvetbuckle

velvetbuckle

 

The Update

Wow, I have a huge update.   So, I'm doing it. I'm doing it!! Its going to have to be self pay, but its happening. My parents have agreed to pay for half, and my husband and I can cover the rest.   The patient care consultant said that I should be able to have the surgery within 4-6 weeks if all the testing comes back okay. I have already scheduled my nutritional consult. I tried to schedule the psychological but the first person I called didn't take my health insurance and it was going to cost almost $500! Of course, thats a drop in the bucket compared with the whole procedure... lol. but I think I can get it covered so we'll see.   Stoked!!
 

How The He** Did That Happen!

Day 151: Too Normal   This morning I weighed in at 185.2lbs and then I walked into my closet and stared at the emptiness. My closet is EMPTY. I literally cannot wear anything I was wearing five months ago. Well, at least not unless I'm going for the baggy look.   I'm so surprised that I've stuck with it. I'm still doing all my protein, getting in all my fluids, taking my vitamins, and exercise is just a part of my life now. But my name is Miss Fickle, I'm known to grow tired of doing the same thing within a matter of weeks or months. I'm just amazed. I've been able to change my habits. Seriously change them. I still worry about the day I let my guard down, but I can't imagine it right now. I do not crave popcorn when I go to theaters, I feel *sick* after just a few tastes of my friend's ice cream (a splurge for me) -- and I'm not sad about it. Real food has never tasted so good to me. And the *fake* foods just do nothing for me now. I have a few bites of pasta, and I'm not jazzed about it like I used to be. Funny thing, I love the smell of the pasta cooking. Some days, I just don't know how I got here. It seems like just yesterday I was waking up from my surgery. It was just last Christmas I was huffing and puffing on my brother's stairs.   I have gotten out of the habit of journaling. Not happy about that, but it's been nice to have a break. I got to the point I had almost every meal memorized, so I just stopped. I'd like to get back into it, I know I will. But so long as I'm still losing, I'm not too worried about it. I keep to what I know, only deviating for a bite here and there of special things on rare occasions.   It's nice to feel normal again. To not worry when a friend wants to go out, to not panic when I'm going to be gone all day and need to pack snacks. I look at my scars and wonder if it was just a dream?   Now, I just need to sell some of these clothes that are taking up all the space in my guest closet before my mom comes to visit!!

AliveAgain

AliveAgain

 

Making A Decision...sadly

So I have researched my booty off. Called people, talked to friends, jumped up and down, wished on stars. After my saga last week with the liar, liar, pants on fire clinic and my lack of financial aid to finish school I have come to the conclusion that as much as I want lap band, I'm just not going to be able to do it.   It looks like it's gastric bypass or nothing. Which sucks humungously but I have extenuating circumstances so I have to put all of these things in perspective.   1) I can't loose weight long term and keep it off by myself 2) I don't have the money to self pay right now and my insurance won't cover the band 3) I have to get a better paying job with more hours by November and I have to loose enough weight so that someone will actually hire me 4) I am going to have to pay for school out of pocket and I need the weight loss to get a job to pay for school 5) I have had 3 doctors that know me very well tell me I need the weight off now and there is a good chance that If I don't get it off soon that I am right on the cusp of type II diabetes.   All of these things have led me to this decision, which my family and fiance are not super thrilled about, but I wonder what else should I do, and even though I know they love me, most of the people in my family and my fiance have never been this big. I'm 5'2 and 318. They have no clue what its like to carry this around. My fiance wants to have a baby in the next few years and I can say right now there is no way.   I was on the RNY board and I can say that it doesn't seem as if they are as supportive as LBT. They don't seem as friendly, and the board isn't as informative as LBT. I am sad because I really wanted to be a part of this wonderful group of lovely people and say that I too have a lap band. I wanted to be a proud bander and talk about pre-op diet and post-op diet and fill and unfills and green zone. Now I won't even be able to have chocolate and I will probably kill someone one day when I am stressed out.....yes I know I'm being melodramatic but I'm disappointed darn it... I had ideas of where my life was going and the monkey wrench has caused me to have to start over....blah.

mylynn1377

mylynn1377

 

Gaining Weight

Ok, so I may be completely panicking but I had my surgery almost 2 months ago. I had lost a total of 34 lbs. I woke up today to weigh my self and I had gained 2 lbs. Ok so 2 lbs may not seem like a lot but I am in utter panick and starting to feel real sad. I do not understand what's happening and why. I have been eating mostly salads everyday because that's what goes down best and does not make me nauseous. I don't know what else I should do. I have been working out as well, drinking fluids but this is real discouraging. Please anyone with suggestions please please comment. Thanks!

KenyaAngel

KenyaAngel

 

Eat To Live...no Longer Living To Eat.....

I was banded in April of this year and I have certainly had my ups and downs. Good news is the ups and downs was all mental because physically I couldn't have wished for a better outcome. At 450 pounds I was certainly nervous about anesthesia and the actual surgery. My Surgeon absolutely rocked and he gave me kuddos during recovery about how good of a job I did preparing and shrinking my liver. We both had exceptional days that day.   So, I have been banded about 10 weeks now and I have lost 48lbs. First month after surgery was the roughest because my mind started playing tricks on me. I started thinking weight should be falling off of me instantly and it wasn't. I dropped a 172 lbs between 2003 and 2004 doing Atkins and some how I had it my mind that with the band I would drop weight even quicker (which is not really healthy anyway). Well, I am dropping it fast. It is really easy to get caught up when your stepping on the scale daily. Every morning I would step on the scale and then just get annoyed and start wishing I had bypass.   I am still not great with the scale as I am stepping on it every other day but now I don't get hung up on it like I was in the beginning. Rome was not built in a day and neither was the 486 pounds. My Wife often tells me I don't give myself enough credit for what I have accomplished both pre-op and post-op. I told her my problem is I am still hung up on the past and the dis-service I did to myself. In 2003 I was 393 pounds and I did Atkins so by Christmas 2004 I was in Disney World weighing in a 219 and I was on top of the world. 174 pounds gone and I thought it was forever...I started enjoying life and indulging. I never changed my habits. I went back to poor eating and gained it all back plus 93 additional pounds. For the life of me I don't understand how I got from 219 to 486 pounds. How did I let it go like that, I understand it is no fault but my own but why didn't the people around me not stage an intervention.   I am trying very hard to find peace with it and the fact I failed. It is hard. I hope maybe once I hit 393 again my mind might be a little more at ease. What has me the most concerned is hitting that 219 again and not falling back into my old ways that got me to where I was in October 2011.   Today, I have to say with the band and the 6cc's I got in it I no longer have cravings. I no longer desire to simply walk to the fridge or pantry and eat. My habits have changed as well as my appetite. I no longer live to eat. I eat to live and I only eat when I am hungry. I cannot explain in words how different I look at things. I used to sit down in front of the tv and eat a box cheese its and a liter of diet pepsi. Now, I have no thought for that stuff. No cravings, no mental arguments. I sit down now and watch t.v. I don't think about eating. Not even during commercials. It just feels "normal" to eat when I am hungry and that's it, no side eating...   Is this the way it supposed to work???? Did having this band "cure" my head hunger or am I just in the zone to a point where junk food and binging is just blocked mentally? Maybe I shouldn't try to analyze it and just enjoy the ride.   If you have read this far then thank you...I rambled on a bit but what the hell I find that to be therapeutic...

Jim1967

Jim1967

 

The Weekend Is Coming, The Weekend Is Coming!!

Weekends are the hardest for me. We don't go anywhere except the pool right now and that means snacks. I am sucking down water like a fish, I am trying to pack fresh fruit for snacks...but it's 101-105 out there and even my cooler isn't keepin' it cold. Then when we are home, we are so drained from the heat, nobody wants to cook so we usually end up with pizza. I say to myself, well I will just have one peice or I will make a quick iceburg salad. NEVER WORKS!! What's wrong with my brain. My answer: NOTHING!! It's an addiction. An alcoholic can't have just one drink, a drug addict can't take just one pill. I can't be around sweets and junkfood, pizza or a bowl of pasta without wanting to jump right in with a shovel.   I am learning to chew my food more, savor the flavors and eat small meals throughout the day. I am doing it....most days. It's a process. I start my 2 week pre-op diet on July 2nd. Ewwww, that's cutting into 4th of July. My friend that knows I am doing this asked if I will cheat on that day. Hmmmm, will I? I want to say "no". I don't want to be negative about it. It's 4th of July, it's fun in the sun and fireworks...and BBQ's. I am mentally preparing myself now, I can have a turkey burger (i like those), load it with lettuce, tomatoes, mustard and pickles. Instead of potato salad I will make some coleslaw. I will make some crystal light mojito flavor, I will be the only one without a hangover...not a bad thing. So, here's to the weekend, the good food, the fun in the sun and the knowledge to know when enough is just enough.

Kekeboo

Kekeboo

 

Every Step I Take...

3 years ago I noticed a slight pain in the sole of my right foot. Later that week, almost as if overnight, my shoes felt different, like someone went and messed up the area where the arch is in the foot. My shoes felt like they had been turned out on their sides. Every single pair. From that point on the pain in my feet started everyday, through the night and affecting my sleep. Sometimes the pain reached up my calves and I slept many nights stretching out my legs, flexing and pronating my feet. I went to the DR, and she didnt know what was going on.   Then I figured it out. Im too heavy. I went on another crash diet, HCG this time and the pain went away for about 6 months. But its back now, and I feel it in both feet, just stronger on the right heel.   Ive been lucky medically so far even with the weight. No diabetes, cholesteral not elevated and no heart issues. But the gall bladder is out and this pain, which I think is Plantar Fascitis is a daily reminder that my health issues can worsen so quickly. I went to Zumba for the first time on Monday, yay, but as I started into it, the pain in my feet was becoming unbearable. But I went on and finished the class. Reason #10 for getting healthier starting with my weight, is make the pain of walking go away, because its a reminder every step I take, that no matter how good that donut or slice of pizza tasted, being able to walk or dance or skip without pain gives me greater satisfaction.

RahRahRah

RahRahRah

 

3 Weeks Until Vsg!

I am scheduled for the VSG on July 18th and cannot hardly wait to feel better in my own skin! However, my anxiety is growing as the days tick by and I will begin my Pre-op diet while we are on vacation (bummer)! I have tried several protein shakes and supplements thus far, so I would know what to pack for my vacation. We have a very limited supply of that kind of stuff where I live, so I have to purchase things like Isopure by mail. Just curious on what types/flavors of protein are good.

RafterJones

RafterJones

 

Saved From Heartburn After Six Days!!!!

OK so here i am six days later and so far no pain!!!! I did have my husband call my Dr last night because the pain was so bad that i was shaking and crying something that i rarely do. And i never ask to call the dr and i never go to the er, so when i do that's when people start to worry about me. But it was so intense last night that i thought i might die yes for real. I know that when ever i have pain that bad i turn in to like this awful person who cant control what i say lol. My husband just laughs at me after he finds out im not going to die and ill be ok. Any ways after talking to the dr and him telling my husband that there shouldn't be that much acid in anyone's tummy and that i had a reason to be pissy and cry he told my husband to go to the store and get some childrens Motrin and give me that and in the morning he would call me in something different. Well i took two phynigrin before he got back then he gave me the Motrin and i slept all night!!!!! All night long! I haven't don't that since last Saturday!! And please don't get me wrong i still love my band and i still want it and when they told me they had to take liquid out i cried because i have come so so so far and im not going back! But this heart burn is horrible! And sadly it wasn't my fault. they don't know what is happening but I do have to go back for more test . OK so i cant eat real food till tomorrow and trust me that scares the hell out of me but today i was going to the store and i thought to myself what can i eat............................... Then i thought what is the most gentlest thing that i can thing of..... and trust me this took a while but then i saw the diapers and thought oh baby food!!!!!! Ok i know what your thinking gross right but really I haven't eaten in six days and when i did it wasn't very much and it made me hurt to the point of i stopped even drinks where making me hurt that's maybe why they had to give me an iv. any ways this morning i woke up and drank a very small coffee cup of water and that made my tummy feel just icky. Like it was raw on the inside i know gross but any ways so i called my friend who has a baby and asked her what her baby liked and what i could get that wasn't high in acid. She told me all the good stuff to get because well i haven't ever had a baby and i have no clue about the baby food. She told me to get some meats but the ones that where dinners not just the meat so i did and so i got that and some bananas because i read that they help with acid in your tummy and while am allergic to reg bananas i thought its got to be better then feeling like crap right? ok so i get home put everything away and choose chicken noodle and banana and some cereal. And its was like after i ate that and then drank the Gerber juice my stomach just stopped it calmed down stopped hurting and stopped burning everything and i didn't even have a reaction to the bananas. I felt so good i almost cried with JOY! I text my husband at work and told him he at first got scared and said that the Dr only told me i could have liquids so i got on the phone and called them and they said baby puree food was fine. Then he calmed down lol and couldn't believe that when he got home i was sleeping good and i felt even better. Of course he asked what made me think of that and really i was in the soups and everything i looked at just looked painful then i turned and again saw the diapers and it was like a light went off in my head. Any ways im just happy that my stomach is happy with me again and that i am not going crazy with pain. Ok so this would be my biggest point if your having hell with heartburn that hurts like crazy try baby food and Gerber juice, i think it saved me from going insane! I just thought i would share this because it sucks and its not fun. And i wouldn't wish this on ANYONE so really if it happens to you just try to baby food.

newlife4nekaylyn

newlife4nekaylyn

 

1St Consult Tomorrow!

Excited. I go in at 8:30 am, hubby is coming with me. Tonight I will be working on my list of questions and my initial paperwork. I feel like I'm getting ready for the first day of school, or a test?!   Anyone have any questions I should ask, that maybe I wouldn't think of? Or something you wish you would have asked?
 

Sharing My Update................................................now Tell Me Yours

Hey guys, I am in a really good mood. I meet with my nutrionalist today and she said that with my insurance Horizon Blue Cross/Blue Shield she believes that my weight management diet is just 3 months*YIPPEE*. She says of course losing weight is great while on the program, but as long as I maintain and don't gain they will be happy with that. I am planning to lose some weight by following the eating habits that she gave me. Hell it is better to start now before the surgery and get used to it.   So now that you guys know what is going on with me, tell me, what is your latest update and how have you been?

Thyckness718

Thyckness718

 

48 Hours

Holla to everyone reading! Well it's been almost exactly 48 hours since I was banded. I'm still sore to bend over, coughing, and laughing are somewhat painful but tolerable. I went to the grocery store today, my son went and did the lifting for me. I had no problems except the heat outside-WHEW LAWDY it's a hot one!   I have a call in to the nurse because I am not the least bit hungry. I had to make myself drink some chicken broth last night, and some protein today. I feel as if maybe it's filled already, although my first fill is scheduled July 5, I don't think I'll need one at this rate. I can drink everything as much and as fast as I did before, just not a single hunger pain, or desire to chew at all. Maybe it's part of the "healing" process, maybe because my Dr. also said he repaired a large hernia? Whatever the case, the facts remain that I'm not hungry.   I still have 5 bandages on, 1 over my belly button, 2 on either side right above, and 1 far left and 1 far right. It seems as if the soreness is evenly distributed. Tonight is the big bandage removal and taking a shower YAY! I believe I have some surgical strips that will remain until told otherwise, I think anyway. My throat was a little raw and voice was slightly hoarse from the tube, but that is all but gone away.   The way I feel right now is that a "fill" in my band in 7 days would be too soon, especially when I'm forcing myself now to take nourishment. I'm thinking it's a little longer to heal from the hernia possibly, not sure but I intend to ask the nurse when she calls me back.   Have a great evening everyone, onward and upward Lo & Behold!!!

velvetbuckle

velvetbuckle

 

Broken Wing?

Today I am one week and one day post op. God almighty, it seems like 2 months!!! I've had a lot happen in the past 8 days........and a lot of emotions to work thru.   But I've gotta say, I LOVE MY SLEEVE!!!!!!........and I'm not talking about that cute little sweater sleeve I wear over my sleeveless shirts so my arms don't frighten small children. I Love my VERTICAL GASTRIC SLEEVE.   I am in Utopia. This must be what it is like, cause wow, this is awesome.   I've been hungry for the past 25 years of my life..........yes, I said HUNGRY. I'd stop eating after a while during a meal, but rest assured I was hungry. I was always hungry.   I hate being hungry.   And I'd deny myself food trying to build will power (whatever the hell that is).   My dad had even suggested I pray to enjoy the feeling of being hungry..........(he loves me)......so it wouldn't be so awful.   Ok, 25 years of being hungry and attempting to build will power...............and I was no closer to reclaiming myself. (I don't know where I lost me.....could have been in the airport. Who knows?)   Now, I know, portion control has something to do with it...........but starving and feeling denied doesn't.   I know when I am hungry now. I get something to eat (I'm still on the liquid/semi-solids) and after 3-4 ounces I'm full...........and satisfied!!!!   To be satisfied!!! Oh how wonderful!!!! I didn't know that was what was missing. It is so un-real.......a few bites, and like magic......I'm full and satisfied!!!!   I laughed with my husband last night over this. I was telling him, I'm gonna be one of those thin chicks in an amazingly sexy dress with damn fine high heels at a cocktail party with 3 bites of appetizer on her plate and 1 martini that will last the whole night long!!! ..........I'm gonna be a stereotype!!!!!   And I will be satisfied.............(and he's excited that I have become the world's cheapest date!!!!!!!)   I don't remember the last time I felt so excited and FREE. It honestly feels like the shackles have been taken off my feet and I might just about be ready to fly.   Makes me think of the words to Martina McBride's song (yes, I know it was about domestic abuse, but somehow I get the feeling I may have domestically abused myself somewhere along the past 25 years)   And with a broken wing, she still sings She keeps an eye on the sky.........oh yes I do!!! With a broken wing she carries her dreams.........of marvelous dresses and amazing high heels Man, you oughta see her fly!!!

Ready?Going..

Ready?Going..

 

Last Day At A Desk...for Now Anyway ;d

Today is the last day that I will be sitting at a desk for a while. I'm glad to be going back to the waterfront. I feel like part of the reason why I have gained some weight in the last month is because I stopped being active at work. But don't get me wrong, I don't want to be on the waterfront for the rest of my career. At some point I woulnd't mind a job that is less demanding then what I do on the waterfront. But I'm still young, and I still have some work left in me.   Tomorrow is my and Ty's consultations with the nutritionist and the surgeon. I'm so excited!! It feels like everything is happening for real! I called the receptionist and asked if Ty and I could combine our surgeon consult and they said yes, but no to the nutrition consult, which I figured would happen. I wanted separte nutrition consults because we eat so differently.   I can't believe Ty leaves in 4 days! This is going to be the longest TDY trip for either one of us while we have been together. But at least I will be able to go visit him. If it were 6 months in Japan, that is a different story....   I am, however, trying to get a trip to Japan to pay everything off. Ty and I are ok with being apart from eachother for almost a year to get the things we want, but for some reason our families have a problem with us being apart from eachother for so long. I just don't get it. Ty and I both have the opprotunities to travel and earn a lot of money to pay for the things we want in cash and our parents think that it's a bad idea. We don't want credit cards for everythinig. If I didn't think the Care Credit card wouldn't help out in the future after the band (tummy tuck, boob job, emergencies) then I wouldn't even want that, but I can't wait a year for the band!   I have been doing some research on the Fitbit and everyone seems to love it. I really want Ty and I to get ones after we get banded. And the new fancy scale that they have. I wish I could keep myself off the scale that I have at home. I almost want to throw it out. It upsets me more than it makes me happy, and anything else in my life that would do that, I would throw out. Maybe I'll just put it somewhere that is hard to get.   On saturday I am doing my second 5k! It's the foam run. Check out this website to see if one is coming to your hometown, because it looks like so much fun! www.5kfoamfest.com My friends from work are doing it with me. I am, sadly, the fat friend in the group, but they are nice about the fact that I can't run as much as they can. We did the color run about a month ago, and that 5k was a bit more difficult because there weren't any obstacles to break up the running...but it was a lot of fun. This is me and my friends doing it. It's kinda long, but there are some pretty funny parts in it. Also, I did the music mix myself with a dj app on my ipad ... it was my first time.  Hope everyone has a great rest of the day! I will probably write something tomorrow because I will be so excited!   Shells

Shelleymb

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