please help

[want_so_bad 0]

last week i started getting sick and couldnt eat or drink. over the weekend it got to the point i couldnt swallow my spit. monday i went to the doctor and had a complete unfill. have to stay empty for a month. i have never needed to take anything for heartburn/acid reflux. after my last fill i was really tight. belly juice ended up irritating things to the point i was basically swollen shut. i felt almost instant relief when they pulled the Fluid.

i am having the hardest time being empty. all i can think of are all the things i havent eaten for the past 10 months that i could eat now. burgers, pizza, chinese, bread. i thought i had a better grip on my head then this! even on the way home from the doctor's office i was losing my mind. now its been a few days and i have had some slips, to say the least.

this week is our county fair. we are so busy running around and we dont home until late. we have been eating in town or at the fair. and i making the stupidest choices. then i go home and cry. i once again have fallen into my whole "well, i screwed up today so might as continue and start again tomorrow" mode. i was doing so much better with that. and i find myself just mindless eating.

today i seem better though. i attribute that to being able to take my antidepressant again. those days i couldnt get anything down i couldnt take it. and i just realized last night i hadnt started again. so i took one last night and can already notice the difference in my appetite and mind set. today i have done much better not eating crap all day. i had a string cheese for a morning snack and then i ate the meat/cheese off a sandwich. i am sitting here just pissy though because i know i ate prolly 3 times more of the sandwich fillings then i normally would/should.

i was thinking of taking an appetite supressant until i can get filled again, but dont know if i really want to start down that road again either.

i am just having a much harder time then i thought i would and it makes me feel weak! like i am so pathetic i cant control myself any better then this for a month! i mean, come on now, a month! i dont know what to do with myself.... i need a good kick in the buttocks, maybe a slap or two to the face to snap me out of this crap i am in!

[Oregondaisy 2,020]

Just stay in touch with all of us. Being unfilled is difficult for all of us. Take that appetite supressent if you need it. I will sometimes take one if I am going to a party. Just try to stay away from carbs cause it's the carbs that cause cravings.

[hopelives124 0]

Reading the thread on the person that had to unfill and is now beating up on themselves brings back so many difficult memories. We need to remember that our problem/drug/ or whateve you want to call it is food. it is our comfort nurturer and excitement. To be angry at yourself for wanting food because now you can eat it is like getting mad at an alcoholic for being in a bar with a pint of beer in front of him. I really really think that so many of us have internalized all the negative cultural and other stereotypes towards fat and obesity that when we have ANY kind of slip we are crueler to ourselves than anyone else would be.

Finally, we have a medical intervention to a medical problem (included in that are all the psychological elements) and we still beat up on ourselves if that medical solution is removed. Would a diabetic be yelling at themselves if insulin became unavailable?

I am looking forward to my surgery in Sept on the 16th would love to hear from fellow bandsters scheduled in Sept and on that day toooooo at NYU

ALL THE BEST TO US. Maybe we can be treated like everyone else with a medical problem...just hoping.

Rosie in NYC:thumbup:

[KELVINSMOM 0]

I am going through a similar feeling now. I can swallow liquids but I have been sliming after anything solid.( which has also had some pain in the esophagus).. It feels like it is getting stuck and then the mucus follows. I went to the doctor because I have not even had a fill... So I was placed on liquids for a few days and told to stay away from solids.. I have also been told to stay away from Caffeine, picey foods and also take Aciphex. It is the strangest thing. because I did not have this problem a week ago.. Although I do miss solid foods, the pain was unbearable , not to mention sliming and pbing after two bites of food.. Has this happened to anyone else?????

[KayseeLV 0]

You only have eighteen pounds to go! Don't give up, just think of how much better you feel now than you did when you consistently overate. Also, try to change your focus when you wnt to eat. Go for a walk, call a friend, or blog!

[KayseeLV 0]

What is sliming and pbing? I'm 4 days in and I havn't ever heard of this.

[Oregondaisy 2,020]

sliming is when your mouth fills up with thick saliva to try to get whatever is stuck through the band. Pb stands for productive burp but in my opinion, it's just a nice way of saying throwing up

Kevinsmom, this is not good. If you don't have a fill and you're already having these problems, that is a big problem. I will be curious what happens or if the doctor can figure out why this is happening already.

[KELVINSMOM 0]

Denise.. the best that they can put it as is a bad case of Gerd or gastritis..hormornal changes blah , blah.. however, since I have gone back to liquids for a few days and have taken meds for Reflux, it seems to be doing better.. Thanks for the concern.. I will keep you posted. BTW.. I suffered from GERD prior to the surgery and felt like I was having a heart attack.. i have always been High DRAMA.. lol.. and I do recall eating a lot of highly acidic foods prior to this attack. and drinking alcohol. ( which the doctor asked me as well) I have to rule out whatever caused this attack and make sure I do not repeat it!!!!