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Ok, so I'm getting banded on July 2nd and am already losing sleep. I kept dreaming that I've already had my surgery and my "incisions" were hurting. I'd roll over on my side (I'm a stomach girl, but am trying to get use to sleeping on my back) and it "hurt." So I kept waking up to tell myself that I haven't even had my surgery yet. The dreams are starting about my surgery. I had a stupid dream last night that I slept thru the entire recovery and I was upset because I wanted to remember what I did right before I was put under and what I said when I woke up. ??? I had a check-up with my PCP yesterday and she was asking about the surgery date and then checked my heart rate - it was 104! Just talking about it gets me all freaked. I've never had surgery before and I'm so overtaken by fear that I almost feel that I can't be excited until I'm post-op. To top it all off, I'm an emotional eater. So unfortunately, my pre-op diet isn't going as planned. I'm not gaining but I'm not losing. I've lost 35 lbs pre-op by I had hoped for much more. I'm trying to exercise to balanceit out but I don't know...

UGH! I don't know why I'm being such a baby, but now that I'm not sleeping it's making things worse. Thank you all so much for letting me rant. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have you guys to turn to. My husband and family just don't understand the emotional side of this. They can listen, but unless you've experienced it, it's hard. LOL - maybe no one else has experienced this. Maybe I'm just going crazy! :confused2:

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Hey Amanda,

My surgery date is July 2 as well and I am going crazy! Losing sleep, nervous, but now as the date gets closer, I am TERRIFIED! I'm not dreaming, but I am doubting my decision. I keep thinking that I am going to die on the table and leave my children mother-less and my husband wife-less. And since I haven't told anyone about my upcoming surgery besides my immediate family, I keep thinking that my husband is going to have to call my work and tell them that I died having weight loss surgery! How embarassing! Is this crazy or what? This is what I think about every moment of every day right now. But then on the other hand, I tell myself, if I can do this, than I will feel great. I have been wanting this for so long, and now that's its actually here it is very scary. Since we both have the same surgery date, maybe we can keep in touch and "compare notes." I will say a prayer for you. Good luck and try to get some sleep - without the dreams. :(

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Relax, ladies! It's all good.....easier said than done, I know. The surgery is a breeze with very little pain (only some minor discomfort). It'll be over before you know it and you'll both be on the road to skinnyville, LOL.

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Thanks guys! It's wonderful to know that someone else feels like I do... I mean, I wouldn't wish this fear on anyone, but to know someone's right there with me helps a little. I'll definitely keep you updated! :(

Last night's sleep was a little better - not as many dreams!

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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      1. summerseeker

        Life as a big person had limited my life to what I knew I could manage to do each day. That was eat. I hadn't anything else to look forward to. So my eating choices were the best I could dream up. I planned the cooking in managable lots in my head and filled my day with and around it.

        Now I have a whole new big, bigger, biggest, best days ever. I am out there with those skinny people doing stuff i could never have dreamt of. Food is now an after thought. It doesn't consume my day. I still enjoy the good home cooked food but I eat smaller portions. I leave food on my plate when I am full. I can no longer hear my mother's voice saying eat it all up, ther are starving children in Africa who would want that!

        I still cook for family feasts, I love cooking. I still do holidays but I have changed from the All inclusive drinking and eating everything everyday kind to Self catering accommodation. This gives me the choice of cooking or eating out as I choose. I rarely drink anymore as I usually travel alone now and I feel I need to keep aware of my surroundings.

        I don't know at what point my life expanded, was it when I lost 100 pounds? Was it when I left my walking stick at home ? Was it when I said yes to an outing instead of finding an excuse to stay home ? i look back at my last five years and wonder how loosing weight has made such a difference. Be ready to amaze yourself.

        BTW, the liquid diet sucks, one more day and you are over the worst. You can do it.

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