Having the worst day

Scarlett O'hara · April 26, 2008

Hi, I just need to vent. I am getting my band Wednesday, April 30th and am on day 5 of my pre-op diet.

My day started out great with watching my daughter in her first parade for tee-ball.

When we got home, it was so beautiful with a nice strong breeze, I threw her in the car and drove to the park to go kite flying.

We were trying to get it going and I took some steps back, lost my balance and fell. My worst nightmare.

I have rhumetoid arthritis and have not been able to take my enbrel injections for it since April 1, it needs to be out of my system for the surgery.

It (the fall) was awful and so painful!! I fell right on my knees, my most affected joints. I could not stop myself. My daughter was crying (she is 5 and was sooo worried about mommy), I was crying. It was just plain scary.

So, of course feeling sorry for myself, I just added some more to it. I just ate 3 slices of thin crust pizza with veggies and 1 cheese stick. I suck. I was doing so well, actually felt like my jeans were a tad loose today for the 1st time in a long time.

Now I feel full, bloated and disgusting (and still in pain from the fall). Angry at me for blowing it so badly, and afraid the doctor will know what I have done when he opens me up. What is wrong with me?? Why do I need food to soothe me?

Thanks for listening.

mstrina27 · April 26, 2008

Hi, I just need to vent. I am getting my band Wednesday, April 30th and am on day 5 of my pre-op diet.
My day started out great with watching my daughter in her first parade for tee-ball.

When we got home, it was so beautiful with a nice strong breeze, I threw her in the car and drove to the park to go kite flying.

We were trying to get it going and I took some steps back, lost my balance and fell. My worst nightmare.

I have rhumetoid arthritis and have not been able to take my enbrel injections for it since April 1, it needs to be out of my system for the surgery.

It (the fall) was awful and so painful!! I fell right on my knees, my most affected joints. I could not stop myself. My daughter was crying (she is 5 and was sooo worried about mommy), I was crying. It was just plain scary.

So, of course feeling sorry for myself, I just added some more to it. I just ate 3 slices of thin crust pizza with veggies and 1 cheese stick. I suck. I was doing so well, actually felt like my jeans were a tad loose today for the 1st time in a long time.

Now I feel full, bloated and disgusting (and still in pain from the fall). Angry at me for blowing it so badly, and afraid the doctor will know what I have done when he opens me up. What is wrong with me?? Why do I need food to soothe me?

Thanks for listening.

You know u just realized something....When things happen that are beyond your control u look to food as a confort... I did the same thing a week ago i was angry at work and the first thing i did was walk to the vending machine.. didn't buy anything because i realized why i was eating but once u notice it u can stop it.... I am so sorry about the fall..I hope u feel better reallyyyyy soon... Also I dont think it will hurt u and actually because you have been doing so well that will actually boost your metabolism as crazy as it sounds.. thats why on the biggest looser the trainers let the cast have 1 cheat day because it tricks your body into burning more calories... so watch u will prob. loose about 5more lbs... thats ok.. just don't go too far off course.....

brandyII · April 26, 2008

Don't let one bad day ruin you for the rest of your life. We all have them, tomorrow is a new day!!!! You can do it!!!!!

Coco6399 · April 26, 2008

Please don't beat yourself up for one mistake. It happens to all of us. I am on a liquid and Protein Shake diet and I have "cheated" but I get right back on track and the weight is still coming off of me. Keep your head up high, you have nothing to be angry about. You are headed in the right direction. Lots of hugs to you. :smile2:

DANDY75 · April 27, 2008

Hey, we've all been there, that's why we chose to be banded. It's a tool you will have for the rest of your life. Always remember, pick yourself up and brush yourself off, Don't beat yourself up. Plus, you got to see your daughter first parade and with this tool you will be around to see her daughters first parade.

We are all here to help each other thru this, no one said it was going to be easy, that's why this is a great place to vent.

Good luck on your surgery. My prayers are with you.

[quote=rowshan;819190]Hi, I just need to vent. I am getting my band Wednesday, April 30th and am on day 5 of my pre-op diet.

My day started out great with watching my daughter in her first parade for tee-ball.

When we got home, it was so beautiful with a nice strong breeze, I threw her in the car and drove to the park to go kite flying.

We were trying to get it going and I took some steps back, lost my balance and fell. My worst nightmare.

I have rhumetoid arthritis and have not been able to take my enbrel injections for it since April 1, it needs to be out of my system for the surgery.

It (the fall) was awful and so painful!! I fell right on my knees, my most affected joints. I could not stop myself. My daughter was crying (she is 5 and was sooo worried about mommy), I was crying. It was just plain scary.

So, of course feeling sorry for myself, I just added some more to it. I just ate 3 slices of thin crust pizza with veggies and 1 cheese stick. I suck. I was doing so well, actually felt like my jeans were a tad loose today for the 1st time in a long time.

Now I feel full, bloated and disgusting (and still in pain from the fall). Angry at me for blowing it so badly, and afraid the doctor will know what I have done when he opens me up. What is wrong with me?? Why do I need food to soothe me?

Thanks for listening.

Scarlett O'hara · April 27, 2008

Thanks for all your kind words and (well taken) advice. I was thinking that I blew it, so I should just keep going and eating... but you know, I never want these jeans to feel tight again! I am offically back on track.

(and lots of tylenol for the joint pain). Kite flying will have to wait until next spring!!!! :smile2:

Scarlett O'hara · April 27, 2008

Dandy,

love the comment about going to my daughters - daughters first tee ball parade!! Thanks!!

DANDY75 · April 27, 2008

Rowshan,

The Jeans don't matter, in a few months they will be way to big. Think of it that way. Also, make sure you have gas-x at home for post op it helps alot.

Always look at the bright side.

Carol