what is wrong with me, hesitant to get a fill...

[losingjusme 12]

so i've been completely unfilled for about a month now (and feel very unfilled!! hungry, making not so good choices, etc...) i KNOW i need the fill, but why am i so hesitant to get one?

its like im looking for excuses to cancel my appointment today.... im still sore/swollen from plastics, she wont be able to find my port... oh, i drank 3 hours 45 mins before my fill, i have to cancel ... you name it...

i cant figure out what im afraid of ...

grrrrrrrr....

[mamato3 1]

You have been through ALOT here recently, both physically and emotionally. You are one very strong and inspirational lady. Maybe the hesitation is just due to the fact that you need a break from yet another procedure? (even though a fill is no big deal) Who knows! BUT, if anyone will get through those feelings, it's you. :huh2:

BTW, congrats on your recent surgery. You look fantastic! I truly admire you!!

[shortgal 5]

I agree, you've had so much done. Your brain is probably just saying "What, more?"

You know a fill isn't a big deal, so you'll have to decide if you are thinking logically. Weigh out the consequences of waiting two more weeks and decide if that's what you want. Six weeks is generally the recuperation period, so maybe it's just too soon and your body is telling you that.

[travel_anna 1]

Sometimes our brain plays tricks on us. Don't listen to it! Don't sabotage all the success you have had by not getting refilled. Go and get that fill so you can continue being as successful as you have been and making progress toward your ultimate goal.

And, by the way, I have loved watching your journey - truely inspirational! What a difference you have made for your life - Way to Go!!!

[losingjusme 12]

thanks guys... i got the stupid fill...

being completely unfilled she needed 2 syringes full of saline to give me proper restriction ... needless to say that felt awful... it also meant 2 barium swallows .. yippee ...

ice cream's a liquid right ... ???

heh... i wish. nope, gunna be good now.

[juliegeraci 7]

Glad you got your fill! You'll be on the losing side again!