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I have a surgery date of Oct 12 at TLBC in Toronto. I start my three week pre-op today. I am actually excited about starting it (if you can imagine lol) just because it's one step closer to me becoming the person I KNOW I CAN BE.

I have struggled with my weight for many years and have lost hundreds of pounds only to gain them back. Losing weight is generally not a problem it's keeping it off that I just can't seem to do. I started dieting after my first child, I think I was 160 after I had him, then lost it only to gain it back plus more... and so the story goes same old same old....now here I sit at 335 with a BMI of 56 because of all the dieting I've done.

This has been a very emotion journey just coming to this decision to get the band. When I first heard about it I wouldn't even consider it because I thought it would be a cop out, the easy way... I felt like a failure just thinking about it. But with the many stories I have read and the few people I have connected with I started realizing that this is no cop out or magic wand that it is a tool, one of many I will need to be successful. Not to mention all the support I have read about on this forum. I started feeling there was hope for me and that I could do this. I have a new attitude and am saying "I think I can I think I can, I know I can I know I can...."

I know this is the first day of the rest of my life and for the first time in a long time I am looking forward to it. I am not naive ... I know there are many struggles ahead of me, I hope I can count on some support like I have seen here, thats the one thing I can say through all my dieting is that I've never had someone in my corner cheering me on. And boy do I need that. There is not much self esteem left here in this body...and I am my own worst enemy. So please when I need a kick in the pants please feel free to do it (lovingly).

Well I must go and enjoy my 6oz of yogurt, the first of many. Thanks to all who post regularly and share their struggles and successes. I hope this to be the first of many... Signed NOT SO HOPELESS ANY MORE!

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Welcome to the October TENacious TENS group.... We are happy to have you with us.... That is one thing about this place, there is lots of support... We all know the frustration of dieting and then gaining it all back only to add more lbs back on....

When you get a chance hop on over to the "Roll Call" thread and add your name and date for Holly and then hop on over to the TENacious TENS thread...

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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      1. summerseeker

        Life as a big person had limited my life to what I knew I could manage to do each day. That was eat. I hadn't anything else to look forward to. So my eating choices were the best I could dream up. I planned the cooking in managable lots in my head and filled my day with and around it.

        Now I have a whole new big, bigger, biggest, best days ever. I am out there with those skinny people doing stuff i could never have dreamt of. Food is now an after thought. It doesn't consume my day. I still enjoy the good home cooked food but I eat smaller portions. I leave food on my plate when I am full. I can no longer hear my mother's voice saying eat it all up, ther are starving children in Africa who would want that!

        I still cook for family feasts, I love cooking. I still do holidays but I have changed from the All inclusive drinking and eating everything everyday kind to Self catering accommodation. This gives me the choice of cooking or eating out as I choose. I rarely drink anymore as I usually travel alone now and I feel I need to keep aware of my surroundings.

        I don't know at what point my life expanded, was it when I lost 100 pounds? Was it when I left my walking stick at home ? Was it when I said yes to an outing instead of finding an excuse to stay home ? i look back at my last five years and wonder how loosing weight has made such a difference. Be ready to amaze yourself.

        BTW, the liquid diet sucks, one more day and you are over the worst. You can do it.

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