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I am in fear that I have PTSD from being fat. (I'm still fat, just not as fat as I was). I started this process on July 6. Had surgery 10/31. from July 6 to now, I have lost 77 pounds. I cannot see much of a difference when I look in the mirror. I can tell in clothes and sometimes pictures, and my double chin has reduced significantly from what I can tell, but when I look at myself from the side I feel like I am still over 400 lbs!! Also, even though I never go over 3 ounces and measure out my food and meal prep I feel like I am eating way too much. The feeling I have after I eat is that same guilty feeling I used to get when I would binge.I also catch myself still in the mindset of where I used to be. Say, driving home from work and having that urge to go to fast food. It's like second nature. I realize I have a food addiction. Has anyone else ever felt this way? I cannot get past the feeling that I am making no progrees, or too slow progress, even though I have had a few NSVs and the evidence shows I am progressing. :blush:

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Many people feel this way. Myself included. I've lost around 170 lbs since surgery and still have a hard time seeing the difference in myself most of the time. I have heard several others talk about how therapy has helped them with this issue. I am on the waiting list for a therapist with eating disorder training.

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What you are feeling is pretty normal from everything I've read. PTSD is very serious and I'm not sure it is a fair comparison at all.

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Sorry if I didn't know a better way to explain. Thanks for your input though.

What you are feeling is pretty normal from everything I've read. PTSD is very serious and I'm not sure it is a fair comparison at all.

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I'm not ashamed to admit I went to a counselor to deal with my weight loss issues. It takes time for your mind to wrap it self around you physical changes. Working on Body image, the urge to go back to old behaviors and guilt/ shame about food. Will help you to be successful long term.

I wish you the best,

Jenn

The urge to go back to old behaviors is something

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An eating disorder, yes. Emotional scarring, yes. Struggles to put your true size to reality probably. PTSD, no. Not unless you suffered a close call with death due to your size such as a heart attack.

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Emotional scarring is more along the lines of what I meant.

An eating disorder, yes. Emotional scarring, yes. Struggles to put your true size to reality probably. PTSD, no. Not unless you suffered a close call with death due to your size such as a heart attack.

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I had surgery two weeks ago and I feel like I didn't have surgery. I know its still extremely early but I feel like my eating isn't as restricted as it should be. I'm worried that this way not work. I'm definitely worried. Post op appointment is tomorrow so I will see what they have to say. 77 lbs is amazing by the way!

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I also feel like I've never even had it. I measure three ounces and I'm like this is way too much. It's not supposed to be this big of a portion

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