Not feeling good about myself

[jadama22 110]

Hi everyone,

So far so good on my pre-op appointments. I thought I had sleep Apnea, but I was told after my sleep study last week that I don't have this condition. Crazy, but I was almost sure I had it and I was banking on this so that I can go down a few pounds below my 40 BMI being that this is the ate since I am at the tip of the ice burg and if I lose any, I can be disqualified. Nevertheless I'm am grateful for good health.

To top it off, I have been on this emotional eating binge and I gained 10 pounds in two weeks and I am feeling horrible. I tell myself everyday I will slow on my eating and my day may start off well, but then I go on an eating spree after lunch. Also, I have been eating very late lately, something I never did before. I have been feeling this heartburn feeling everyday after eating too and after speaking to gastro doctor, he explained that he will be looking for any possible damage to the esophagus and stomach due to acid that sometimes occur. Now I am really nervous because I have just recently had this acid reflux thing going and I am scared he might find something wrong.

I have my Eco cardiogram tomorrow and my endoscopy next week with one more appt with the nutritionist and I should be done first week of June, but this whole waiting period has me anxious and this eating binge is worse than ever and driving me to feel very blue.

[Stephanie Stroup McIntosh 157]

It is common to have an Upper Endoscopy to check for issues with reflux. You will just get a script for a PPI, which you will probably get after surgery anyway.

My guess would be that you are eating more since you know you will soon have to give it up. You may want to find someone to talk to about your food issues.

You can do this, and its all normal.

[BLERDgirl 6,417]

I agree. You might want to find someone to talk about your feelings. Right now you sound a little nervous and may be emotional eating. Seeking someone to talk to now might help because once you are sleeved you won't be able to use food as a coping mechanism. Please try no to be nervous. All the testing the doctor is requesting is routine and part of the pre-op process. It likely won;t prevent you from having surgery, but it does give the doctor information to better treat you.

[MrsSugarbabe 727]

I concur with everything the others have said above.

Below are a few things to think about which I hope with help with your nervousness, etc.

Daily Diet Solutions from Beck Diet Solutions (link below)

April 29, 2015 - Wednesday Sabotage

Sabotaging Thought: When I’m dieting, if the scale doesn’t go down every day/week it means it’s not working.

Response: It doesn’t work that way. When dieting, I’ll always have weeks when the scale goes down, weeks when the scale stays the same, and weeks when the scale goes up. Just because the scale doesn’t go down one day/week doesn’t mean I’m not on track and it doesn’t mean it’s not working. Keep doing what I’m doing and the scale will go down again.

April 28, 2015 - Tuesday Reality Check

If you think, “It’s okay to eat this because I’ve been good all day and turned down so much other food,” remind yourself that your body has no idea how many things you DIDN’T eat, it only knows what you do eat. Saying ‘no’ before doesn’t necessarily mean you can say ‘yes’ now.

April 27, 2015 - Monday Motivation

All dieters and maintainers go through periods when dieting feels more difficult. The good news: this is completely normal and happens to EVERYONE. Keep doing what you’re doing and dieting WILL get easier again. Just stick with it!

April 24, 2015 - Friday Weekend Warm-Up

If you’re home more on the weekends, make a point to stay out of the kitchen except during meal times. The more you’re around food, the more you’ll have to resist eating and the less food is in plain sight, the easier it will be to stay on track. Hang out in other rooms instead!

http://www.beckdietsolution.com/daily-diet-solutions/

[MrsSugarbabe 727]

You will be fine through it all.....take a few deep breaths when you start feeling anxious.

[jadama22 110]

Thanks for the feedback guys - I really appreciate the support.

I think talking to someone on this would be a good idea. I will speak to my nutritionist too, maybe we can come up with something that will work in the meantime.

A special thanks to Mrs.Sugarbabe on the references!