November 18th

[DylanRae 71]

Have been working toward this moment for a very long time. I have been fighting and educating everyone around me. The morning i got my date, this was like Christmas morning! I barely slept the night before because of pure excitement.

All of this and more, and yet i am so depressed. Yes i have chronic depression anyway, but this is different. This is a serious level of depression that i cant seem to get my self out of!

Why be depressed in the first place? I should be happy that i got my date! I even have a count down on my phone. I should be jumping for joy! Instead i am hiding away under my sheets. I don't even want to wear my fitbit! If i had access to ice cream this would deffinetly be one of those times that i would be eating it!

Ugghh!!!!

Whatever

[sunnkistme 76]

I struggle with depression too and food has always been there for me. Now as an adult I can look back and see that I have been self medicating with food since I was a little girl. I recently went to a class about identifying and making a plan for when emotional triggers come that can send us into a downward spiral.. It was very informative - especially when I think about all of the food triggers. Bad day - chocolate, Stressed- try some KFC. Have to go to mom's, maybe a burrito on the way on and on and on. How scary to think of losing our bad time buddy. I think that identifying and making a plan for when you know you will need some kind of comfort, might be a good start in taking charge of your anxiety and worry about foods. And be sure to talk to a counselor or go to a support group. Mental Health America is doing some great peer run programs.

You can do this.

[smb0187 32]

Getting the sleeve is so scary and exciting all at the same time. I understand how it could make you feel depressed. I hope that since it's been a few days that things have had a chance to sink in and you are feeling better about it.

I am in WA as well!

[roundisashape 712]

Once you get the date comes, it's "real" - I understand what you were feeling. I've been dealing with that plus a brand spankin' shiny new panic problem courtesy of the end of a 3 year foreclosure process.

We'll get through it, though!

[happymama2014 206]

I suffer from anxiety and depression also and its hard to explain sometimes. I was feeling almost surreal like I was in a dream. I wasnt super excited or super down it was just like this is finally gonna happen and my life will finally be forever changed....WOW.

[DylanRae 71]

Whoo! Made it through! Crazy Murcia leading up to it though! But I'm doing good. Worst part is the hiccups I get... Which I never really happened before surgury. I'm excited to actually put some food in my belly! Haven't done that in 48 hours or more.