My cousin (not really cousins but long story she has NO family) whom I was practically raised with lost her 41 yr old healthy husband Sunday to a massive heart attack. She has been one of the few who stuck by me when I lost my fiancée several years ago. We both have a lot in common and this was the one thing I never thought we'd have in common. I'm so heartbroken for her. I'm leaving Saturday to go spend 4 weeks with her. Furthermore, one thing of many that keeps going through my mind is that all these years my husband and I have been so unhealthy and look how soon even the healthy can go. Although, these past few days, I have eaten nothing but garbage whether it makes me puk or not and most of it does. If much rather be resorting to the gym during this time but my dang feet are taped up and I'm supposed to be staying off them until I see the dr Friday. What I'm saying is, why am I resorting back to food? Yes I'm going through a lot, but why this is torture! I'm so disappointed in myself that I don't want to eat and then I found Reese's prices in my purse from the movie I took my daughter to and of course I had to have some! Errrrr

Those are your old ways of comforting yourself when feeling sad, bored, angry, devastated. It is the only way you took control of your life was with food that was comforting. Here's the news, you can choose to do something different. Instead of put that piece of candy in your mouth, call a friend, clean the house, knit, etc. Clean your house to where all those comfort foods are gone. And then give yourself a big hug and start detoxing your body from all that crazy sugar. You can do this. Perhaps now is the time to seek counseling. You have a significant loss coming up too which also contributes to resorting back to those comfort foods. This is part of our journey in changing our life styles.