Worried And Discouraged

[anniek 1]

I was excited as I got down to having my stress echo, chest x-ray and pre-op bloodwork. Really feeling real, things were finally lining up.

Until the stress test.

I now have a consult with a cardiologist on Wednesday because the doctor who did the echo "saw something on the front of my heart that indicates CHD - and that's never good." Mind you, he's telling me this as they are just starting to bring my heart rate down, so I really wasn't able to ask any questions. The nurse who was still with me grounded me in the reality of how good it was that if there were concerns, they were looked at now and the fact that I hadn't had chest pain, shortness of breath or other symptoms was a good sign. I get that, I do, and I am grateful that I may not have to find out the "hard way", but I can't help but be worried, and discouraged now about my ability to have my surgery.

I've been painfully aware of what my weight has done to my joints, stamina, blood pressure and of course there's the diabetes. But I suppose I've been in denial that it was affecting me in other ways. Things in life happen for a reason, and this is one of those things. I just needed to say it all outloud to some folks who would understand from a different viewpoint. Thanks for listening.

[Susie in Lima 320]

Sorry that you are discouraged. Will be praying that everything is ok and that you will be on your way quickly. It is good to know what you are dealing with though. Keep us updated!!!!