Obsession?

j_war06 · September 22, 2006

Does anyone become completely and utterly obsessed with weightloss. Somedays I feel like a failure and beat myself up inside, then others I pat myself on the back but tell myself to do better tomorrow. I just wanted to know if anyone else was as obsessed as I am, I just guess I want to wake up skinny and the world will be fine, but I know that is terribly impossible. I dunno just wanted to pose this question

aus_colleen · September 22, 2006

I had this conversation with a guy who i really like the other day. I didnt realise how much it was true till I was telling him yes I have lost 40kg but every day for the last year and a bit I have been beating myself up, then i felt the tears in my eyes. It is true, I have done very well, but I must have exausted myself I cant remember days where i made the right food choices, i cant reacal a day since banding where I have gone to bed happy with my effort that day for weight loss. EVERY-single-day I beat myself up because I am not working hard enough. I dont know what the answer is, but just know you are not alone.

ladydi · September 22, 2006

Jodie, you have done very well! You were banded a week after I was. I have loss only 8 lbs since sx but am feeling good. It's only natural that we are obsessed! We have been dealing with the weight issue for a long time. We finally now have a tool that will actuallly work and we are excited! This is normal. In the days following my sx, I had to weigh each day. I just knew that the weight will be falling off. When I started to gain what I had lost, I would get down. I had to force myself to not weigh and when I did, I would feel better about everything. I had to tell myself that this is the time for healing not losing and it will be coming off soon.

What was your weight before sx and your weight now? I started at 310, went up to 317 after and now at 302. I too will be in a different land. I will be in twoterville and you in onederland. How great is that!

Colleen, you might not of gotten the weight off fast but girl, you have lost almost 100 lbs! That is unreal! Be proud of yourself. Know that this eating will be your way the rest of your life and you will be making great choices and some not so good. This is life! Losing the weight slower, will help your skin and you should be looking pretty good! By reading the sights you can see that everyone has had days where they could of done better. Just think of the way you were eating before. You didn't care as much. I'm proud of you girl! I will be in your shoes in about a yr.

Diane

carlacollins · September 22, 2006

Every single day...I worry about every bite I put in my mouth...I worry if I weigh and I am a 1/2 lb up...I worry and stress about not walking today or exercising as I should have...YEAP...its stressful at times...sometimes I think mine stems from the fact that I did self pay and I feel guilty for paying 300.00 a month for something I wanted so bad but yet I am not taking care of it as I should....YOU are NOT alone.....I think we have stressed for so long about our weight that this is something we wanted SO DANG bad and its always on our minds.....

NaturalBeauty · September 22, 2006

Jodie, I feel where you are and I have surpassed my goal. Everyday I wake up and after giving thanks to God for another day, I go right to the scale. In the evenings if I see anything more than a 2/3lbs gain throughout the day, I start dieting again the very next day. Will I ever be able to "live a normal life", I don't no. I'm asking God to teach me to be happy with the person He's made me.

I love the way I look, how I feel and all the new clothes and shoes I get to buy but I am obsessed and stressing over not gaining a pound. I don't want to live like this but I still have issues with food so now I am still trying to deal with that. This is a battle that I will win but it's not easy. Just kno you are not in this battle alone.

Alexandra · September 22, 2006

Obsession, about anything, is not healthy. I think it's really important to gain perspective about things and take a step back for our own mental health. If thoughts about anything are overtaking our lives, honestly, I think it's time for some help. Counseling? Anxiety medication? I don't know, and of course every case is different. When I first discovered banding I was a little obsessed and came online every day to research; when I was first banded I thought about almost nothing else. It's perfectly normal when we're embarked on such a journey. But never did I think it was overtaking my life, and I'm afraid that's what I hear some people saying.

Just a cautionary thought, not a criticism. You're all doing GREAT with the project at hand, but you don't want to lose sight of the rest of your lives!

vinesqueen · September 22, 2006

oh yes, I did become completely obsessed about weight loss, and why I wasn't losing weight. Before I was diagnosed with Cushing's I think I drove everybody crazy with my obsessing over food and calories both in and out. (an you will be releaved to know that tooth paste does not contain stignificant numbers of calories to affect your count, even when you are less than 700 a day, just so you know)

Obsessing about anything is not good. I know, I obsess.

j_war06 · September 26, 2006

I dunno why I do it. I lie in bed at night and think of what Ive eaten and am like, I coulda done less...lol...The problem is I drive people nuts around me! Im like, I cant eat it, it has too many cals, my friend as sweet as he is, brought me a cookie today and I promised to eat it, I never did, he came back a few hours later, found it, made me eat it for the calories! I ALMOST choked on it. I just didnt want it, too many calories for me! But now Im glad I ate it, just at the time I was like UGH! Eating is such a chore! Cant I just drink coffee alllllllllllll day!? I dunno, I dont see differences in my body, people here, although they barely know me, notice differences from my old pics on Myspace and such, and I just dont see it at all, and am afraid I never will. Although I did get a great confidence boost this weekend at my sorority party, I totally made out with a guy and he was the instigator and more than once! It was awesome, Ive never EVER had a guy do that and be so sweet. No I dont want to date him, and frankly dont care if I ever see him again, just it was a great confidence boost

Randi L · September 26, 2006

Yes, obsessed.

That was wrong. This was good.

Shoulda, Woulda Coulda.

Not hungry, still throw up, hovering around the same weight.

Being obsessed about eating is what got us here.

Why should we expect that to go away - just because we have a band?

Fauxnaif · September 29, 2006

I have in the past!

You need to find a hobby, get a job, or volunteer-something to take your mind off weightloss for a while.

j_war06 · October 13, 2006

I do other things, but then I gain weight. For God's Sake Im in a sorority! LOL! I just always worry about what I eat, especially since Alcohol has so many calories! So Im just trying to lose weight as best I can, but I do get upset (extremely) whenever I dont lose or if I gain