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One year through the trials of hell



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Congratulations!

It's great that you have such a wonderful foundation that will carry you on when you get into maintenance.

For me, I have to watch every bite I put in my mouth. It's so easy to eat a bite of this and a taste of that. I seem to gain easier now at 2 1/2 years. It's easy to put a few lbs on in one day if I indulge at some social gathering. It's me and the gym too, sweating to take it back off.

I hope you stick around the board cause I am going to need your motivating spirit!

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You are such an inspiration. I have lost 100 lbs since I started this journey. 60 since surgery. I still see the same disgusting person when I look in the mirror...I still hate myself and degrade myself and care what others think.

I hope to reach your level someday.

Keep up the good work.

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I lost 39lbs in 6 weeks during my weight loss challenge. The second place only lost 7. When I asked if I won, Lynn started laughing since I successfully drove out several people from the challenge. I passed on the money, and did not show up to the 'awards' meeting since I already got what I wanted. Since then I signed up for their third one, and will annihilate all competition in November/December too.

I'm currently making a list of my top 5 fears. Things that absolutely scare the hell out of me. And then going out into these situations in the worst possible way until every fear is abolished, and I'm in complete control over them. I will not live in fear, in failure, in the chaos that I see most others face. November is devoted to conquering what controls me. I do not fail, nor relegate my power to a simple emotion.

I still see the same disgusting person when I look in the mirror...I still hate myself and degrade myself and care what others think

Your thoughts create your beliefs, which in turn create your reality. Control your thoughts, or live in misery as you helplessly watch them control you.

Have you dated post op?

Women are comfortable around me now, and do things they didn't before. And either really like me (a few weird stories, I mean REALLY like me) or actively avoid me dependent upon my state and their own internal perceptions of reality. I have not pursued dating again seriously, seems I have some issues to work out. I'll get to those after I finish abolishing all my fears (project November).

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Wow you are doing awesome!

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I abolished my top 5 fears by going out and burying myself in situations I was scared of. During this time, I joined another 6 weeks weight loss challenge, and have dropped 34+ lbs and 18 inches. I won the challenge for a third time. Now wearing a 38 jean (from 54).

I was also introduced to a lovely lady during this process, and we started dating. We have everything in common like thoughts, beliefs, ideas about religion and other stuff. After the first date, it was intense enough that she dropped the other 4 guys she was dating, and wanted to be my girlfriend. It's been 2 weeks now, and we spend pretty much all our spare time together. I'm fairly convinced this is my soul mate. Life is good.

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Great post. Keep up the good work.

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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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    • Alisa_S

      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      1. summerseeker

        Life as a big person had limited my life to what I knew I could manage to do each day. That was eat. I hadn't anything else to look forward to. So my eating choices were the best I could dream up. I planned the cooking in managable lots in my head and filled my day with and around it.

        Now I have a whole new big, bigger, biggest, best days ever. I am out there with those skinny people doing stuff i could never have dreamt of. Food is now an after thought. It doesn't consume my day. I still enjoy the good home cooked food but I eat smaller portions. I leave food on my plate when I am full. I can no longer hear my mother's voice saying eat it all up, ther are starving children in Africa who would want that!

        I still cook for family feasts, I love cooking. I still do holidays but I have changed from the All inclusive drinking and eating everything everyday kind to Self catering accommodation. This gives me the choice of cooking or eating out as I choose. I rarely drink anymore as I usually travel alone now and I feel I need to keep aware of my surroundings.

        I don't know at what point my life expanded, was it when I lost 100 pounds? Was it when I left my walking stick at home ? Was it when I said yes to an outing instead of finding an excuse to stay home ? i look back at my last five years and wonder how loosing weight has made such a difference. Be ready to amaze yourself.

        BTW, the liquid diet sucks, one more day and you are over the worst. You can do it.

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