My Life Still Sucks

Erin92 · May 5, 2011

Thank you for all of your replies and prayers, keep them coming.

I will start by saying that I have not taken any comments in any way but in an effort to help, comfort and encourage me, so no worries there.

Next, I will tell you what has been going on with me. After feeling very weak, terrible and what not my parents said they wanted me to go to the ER. I kind of ignored it. Then on Sunday, I was feeling my usual nausea in the morning and wanted to avoid it, so I jumped into the shower, when I got out, I got really dizzy as if I were about to faint, so I sat down and from there began to heave. After I was done, I went into the bedroom where my husband said that it was now time for me to go to the hospital to make the doctors do something for me before I crash. Finally, I agreed.

I went to the ER here that has a bariatric dept. (I had my surgery out of country remember) in hopes that someone would see me there. After a long time waiting and having an IV for hydration I was admited to the hospital. That is where I stayed until today when I was released. While I was there, I had another barium swallow, an ultrasound and a scope and LOTS of blood work. While there, I was on IV for hydration and given anti-nausea meds and acid reducer. The result of my tests, my liver enzymes are elevated, my bile ducts are enlarged, and my stomach has a narrowing at the bottom where the doctor stapled too small. The bariatric doctor told me there was nothing he could do about the stricture (doc did not use this wording) but that I would have to wait to see the GI doctor in 3 weeks, then follow up with the head bariatric surgeon at my hospital.

So this is where I stand, I am scared and praying that they can "fix" me. I am also hoping that I can make it through these next few weeks. Stay hydrated and try to do as the dietician asks.

Thank you again for all of your support and thoughts. It means a lot to me. I hope that someday I can say that I feel good and look forward to the rest of my days as a person at a healthy weight, who is truly healthy.

Bye for now.

erin

tntransplant06 · May 5, 2011

You need to visit a counselor/psych....when depression is there, you need to go see a doc. Most don't realize the strong emotional attachment to food that we all have and you need to be counseled through it. I am beginning my counseling next week (my surgery was 3.5 mos ago) bc I am realizing I have a food addiction. I am still losing weight, but I know something is not right in my head when it comes to food, so I want to try and get on top of it. Go see somebody and help yourself.

Rainydayz · May 5, 2011

Erin I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. I'm glad you went to the hospital. At least now they know something is wrong and will I hope be able to fix it. Maybe they can stretch the small out a little for you. I'm sorry if this sounds insensitive right now, but do you know what size bougie your dr. used? I'm pushing for the 40 because I'm scared to death of having a stricture and for some reason I have the impression that the larger bougies don't have it as much.

KellyL · May 5, 2011

Erin,

I'm sorry there's a problem, but glad you got to the hospital to have it diagnosed. Now maybe you can move forward with getting it fixed and healing both physically and emotionally. You deserve to be able to feel better, and enjoy your journey. We are here for you!

Kelly