Depressed and Just Want Eat

[mollymai 0]

Hello everyone. This is my first time posting, but I have been lurking around and I want to say to everyone that has the sleeve congratulations, because you are an inspiration. I have been wanting the wls ever since 2008 and have been procrastinatiing and thinking I can do it on my own, well I CAN"T LOL. I went to my first orientation at Richmond Kaiser in 08 wanting to get the band, but after reading that it is a slow weightloss and that some has issues I changed my mind. My husband does not want me to get it because he claim he love me the way I am, but also tells me what I can do to fix myself up so that I will not have surgery (yeah right). I know what I want and I know that I have treid every diet there is and I failed at it.

I am at work right now on my break, I drive a school bus so I have a split shift which leaves me nothing but time on my hands. I am getting depressed because all I can think about is eating and what I want to eat. I pack a lunch everyday and I hve tried the 1200 cal meal plan, but when it close to the middle of the month I run out of food and money for what I need. I want this so bad but I can't get fattening off my mind.

I do not want to fail with having the sleeve, I want to finally succeed and get healthy for MYSELF. I just reinstated into the program and the nutritionist told me that I have to have two weight checks then call her to have a review orientaion. I have already seen the psychologist, my last weight in 2009 was 289 and November 2010 was 267. I feel as if I have gained since my last weigh in and am scared to have second weight check in December.

I am sorry for ranting and raving, but I just had vent.

[Furry 0]

I would think that this is the place to rant.... go ahead and rant away. stay positive.... I have not gotten the sleeve yet, but I am 85% sure of it...

Been doing lots of reading on here and there are lots of motivation stuff when we feel like eating. We have done it all our lives and it isn't going to change overnight. It takes a change in everything for us...so keep staying positive and checking in and reading

[Josey 0]

Hello everyone. This is my first time posting, but I have been lurking around and I want to say to everyone that has the sleeve congratulations, because you are an inspiration. I have been wanting the wls ever since 2008 and have been procrastinatiing and thinking I can do it on my own, well I CAN"T LOL. I went to my first orientation at Richmond Kaiser in 08 wanting to get the band, but after reading that it is a slow weightloss and that some has issues I changed my mind. My husband does not want me to get it because he claim he love me the way I am, but also tells me what I can do to fix myself up so that I will not have surgery (yeah right). I know what I want and I know that I have treid every diet there is and I failed at it.

I am at work right now on my break, I drive a school bus so I have a split shift which leaves me nothing but time on my hands. I am getting depressed because all I can think about is eating and what I want to eat. I pack a lunch everyday and I hve tried the 1200 cal meal plan, but when it close to the middle of the month I run out of food and money for what I need. I want this so bad but I can't get fattening off my mind.

I do not want to fail with having the sleeve, I want to finally succeed and get healthy for MYSELF. I just reinstated into the program and the nutritionist told me that I have to have two weight checks then call her to have a review orientaion. I have already seen the psychologist, my last weight in 2009 was 289 and November 2010 was 267. I feel as if I have gained since my last weigh in and am scared to have second weight check in December.

I am sorry for ranting and raving, but I just had vent.

[Josey 0]

Newbie

I am also a newbie I had my sleeve put in on Oct. 12 th. and I have to say I wish I had never had it done besides the pain which I expectded it's the depression , low enegery , and constant throwing up that driving me crazy. No matter what I try to eat or drink it come's back up. I went back to work last week hoping it would take my mind off every thing but it's not working. Im off today and have a call in to my doctor ( not the one that did the surgery ) for pills to stop felling nauseous 24-7. Just like every one else I have also had trouble with my weight from the time I was 4yrs. old and so many time's I lost my weight only to put is back on. Yes I wish I could take it all back and fell normal again but I can't so somehow Im am going to have to learn to live with what I have done.

Josey

[vicki s 146]

Newbie

I am also a newbie I had my sleeve put in on Oct. 12 th. and I have to say I wish I had never had it done besides the pain which I expectded it's the depression , low enegery , and constant throwing up that driving me crazy. No matter what I try to eat or drink it come's back up. I went back to work last week hoping it would take my mind off every thing but it's not working. Im off today and have a call in to my doctor ( not the one that did the surgery ) for pills to stop felling nauseous 24-7. Just like every one else I have also had trouble with my weight from the time I was 4yrs. old and so many time's I lost my weight only to put is back on. Yes I wish I could take it all back and fell normal again but I can't so somehow Im am going to have to learn to live with what I have done.

Josey

Wow Josey, thats awful, i had my sleeve done on Nov. 1st, i have never had an issue with nausea, but im not on a reg. diet yet. have you seen your doc who did the surg.? what does he say. I'm really sorry your going thru this. Maybe it will get better, i hope so, ....feel better and god bless, vicki

[Oregondaisy 2,020]

Hopefully your nauseous will subside and eventually you will love your sleeve.

I hope you're drinking very slowly and taking itty bitty bites. You need to go slow and wait between bites.

Keep up posted on how you progress.

[mollymai 0]

All I can say is WOW to Josey. I hope everything get better for you in time. I know that everyone is different and have their ups and downs and some just have ups and never feel bad about their life change because they would not have been able to do it without the tool that they have now to help them achieve their goal, but WOW I never expected that. Please keep me posted.

[LilMissDiva Irene 3,282]

Newbie

I am also a newbie I had my sleeve put in on Oct. 12 th. and I have to say I wish I had never had it done besides the pain which I expectded it's the depression , low enegery , and constant throwing up that driving me crazy. No matter what I try to eat or drink it come's back up. I went back to work last week hoping it would take my mind off every thing but it's not working. Im off today and have a call in to my doctor ( not the one that did the surgery ) for pills to stop felling nauseous 24-7. Just like every one else I have also had trouble with my weight from the time I was 4yrs. old and so many time's I lost my weight only to put is back on. Yes I wish I could take it all back and fell normal again but I can't so somehow Im am going to have to learn to live with what I have done.

Josey

Josey, I am terribly sorry to hear you are having such awful response to your new tummy. I hope that your Dr.s appointment goes well, and they can help you feel better. I also hope that you can one day come to love your sleeve. I can't imagine this is easy for you, especially your feelings and knowing this decision is a permanent one.

Hugs!!

[BZButterfly79 19]

Read my TJ Maxx post, all I can say right now being pre-op there is not a cake, a bread, a chocolate which tastes better than the thought of sitting here in this computer in a nice outfit feeling good, not like an elephant and knowing that my life has been extended, I am sorry for your experience and I hope that you can find support so that you don't return to the place where I am at right now. You know today I got home from my TJ Maxx trip and I had a conversation with the jelly bellies sitting in my pantry, the godiva white chocolate also sitting there, the vanilla double stuffed oreos, you know what I said to them...sort of like of what you say to someone you are in an unhealthy relationship with: "I am sorry but I can't do this anymore, I love you but I love me more, thanks for the good times but you no longer belong here." As Beyonce would say: "TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT!!" That was me today it is ok to talk to the person or thing which has been killing you-that's what I did today. Good luck and though I am pre-op I am always here to share my opinion(they say everybody has one). Headed straight to Sleeve St.!!!!

[mollymai 0]

Read my TJ Maxx post, all I can say right now being pre-op there is not a cake, a bread, a chocolate which tastes better than the thought of sitting here in this computer in a nice outfit feeling good, not like an elephant and knowing that my life has been extended, I am sorry for your experience and I hope that you can find support so that you don't return to the place where I am at right now. You know today I got home from my TJ Maxx trip and I had a conversation with the jelly bellies sitting in my pantry, the godiva white chocolate also sitting there, the vanilla double stuffed oreos, you know what I said to them...sort of like of what you say to someone you are in an unhealthy relationship with: "I am sorry but I can't do this anymore, I love you but I love me more, thanks for the good times but you no longer belong here." As Beyonce would say: "TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT!!" That was me today it is ok to talk to the person or thing which has been killing you-that's what I did today. Good luck and though I am pre-op I am always here to share my opinion(they say everybody has one). Headed straight to Sleeve St.!!!!

Thank you BZButterfly79. I'm going to go and read your post now. My post has turned out to be a response for Josey lmao. But thank you for the individuals that has responded.