February 2006 bandsters unite!!

[Dancer 0]

Ok, all this talk about purple and it made me want to change my signature!

I put up a new avatar!

At least I did something productive today...is this really productive?:eek: :faint:

[Jerseytammy 0]

Wow again I am amazed at how much love, understanding, and support you all always seem to give me. Really there are not words to describe the gratitude I have for all of you.

I cry a lot on my way home, just me alone in my car. Sometimes thinking can be a very dangerous thing. I have tried to tell myself that crying is a form of praying when the words just won’t come, a cleansing if you will.

But I have to face the fact I have some major issues in my life and being MB is just one more side effect. I have really been thinking about why I let myself get this big.

Please allow me to share a story with you all….

My dad and mom divorced when I was very young, age 6 or 7. My dad remarried a couple of times, 2nd marriage was a joke (lasted less than a year) and he was married to his 3rd wife when he died. Now I have always been heavy but I remember this so clearly. We were going school shopping, I was going into the 7th grade. I wore a size 16 even then. Now I am 5’2” now so I am not sure how tall I was then but I was always one of the shortest in my class. Any way I took the size 16 jeans into the dressing room with me and stood there in horror that they wouldn’t button. My dad asked me to step out so he and my step-mother could take a look. I had to tell him I couldn’t get them to button, I was so embarrassed. So dad brought me a size 18. Now they were so long and if we had cut them off they would have been bell-bottom and bell-bottoms were in style then. So to make a long story short my dad bought me a bag of m&ms instead of clothes that day. Now he didn’t buy me a regular size bag, I got a king size bag. I was 11 years old when this happened and 40 now and I can still remember what that store looked like, what the jeans looked like and I still feel that same embarrassment to this day.

Julie- Congrats on your first fill! Yeah mine too is no pain but just a funny feeling. I totally understood what you were trying to tell me, thank you!

Mikey- thank you for the laugh, I needed that. Your words and wisdom speak volume. I can’t tell you how many times I have been eating (usually some kind of junk food) when all of a sudden I realize I have eaten ¾ of a candy before I actually realized I was even eating. Or start on a bag of potatoe-chips and eat the entire bag without ever giving it a second thought. Thank you so much for all your kind words, the laughter and support, it is good to see you here again!

Janet- How come I feel as if you have known me for years? It took me several tries before I could actually get through your entire post. It’s nice to know that maybe I am not that weird or strange, not that I would ever wish this one any one, but knowing that I am not along in my fears and feelings was a great help. I know I have a lot of issues to work through in my life and this isn’t going to be easy. I did read your post from the link that you provided, what a wonderful and moving story. I don’t know why I was deal the life I got but I do have to remember that God is in control and he has a plan for me. Your post really made me think, cry, pray, and smile but most of all your post made me realize that I am never alone and am worthy of getting help, thank you!

Donna- My first panic attack happened when I was 17 years old and a senior in high school. I have been to the ER so many times that the nurses and doctors knew me by name. There were weeks at a time that I refused to leave my house. I couldn’t take a bath unless someone was in the house with me; cause “what if” I had a heart attack while in the Water, if the attack didn’t kill me I would drown. I have been at every end of the panic scale and it is living hell. I was hoping that all my fears would acts as strengths during my banding and for a while it was. I have been banded since Feb 8 and have pbed only once. Now I don’t know if I told y’all this when I described my pb, but was scared to death the entire time that I was having a heart attack. I mean the two are very close in symptoms. Maybe this is why all these feeling and fears have seem to creep up on me again. Thank you for letting me know that I am not alone in the battle again fear and panic.

Have a great weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

[DonnaB 3]

Sorry for the evil flame war you got into. I managed to keep myself away from it, but I think it's safe to say that all members involved on both sides got angry & hurt. I was hurting for everyone while I was ducking! :eek:

I'm so sorry to hear about your egg incident! It sounds soooo painful! Are you doing better now? And when did you reschedule for? Remember to be gentle & go slowly as you get back to food! Scary stuff! And it sounds like you've got a great doc who believes in follow-up!

It was my own fault and true to my word I am staying far, far away from the really REALLY UGLY one that just burst into flames.

Eggs are from the DEVIL. eggs are from the DEVIL! I say. OK, except the pretty pastel colored ones that come in a basket full of fake plastic grass and HUGE chocolate BUNNIES!!!!! Oh, oh. Must calm down. filibuster, filibuster, filibuster. You're right, the egg thing was sssssooooooo bad. Scrambled eggs are banned from my food list forever. FOREVER.

Love Dr. Rumbaut. If anyone ever asks me if I was nervous to go to Mexico for surgery I'll say heck ya! If they ever ask if I regret it, the answer is an unqualified NOPE!

I rescheduled my fill for next Wednesday but Dr. Rumbaut wants to discuss it further tonight. I think I might be waiting for awhile from how the conversation was sounding last night. Maybe he's just being cautious. Maybe he's trying to tell me that I'm one of the lucky lotto winners that don't need a fill for months and months and months, aahhhh ha ha ha ha. OK. I'm back from my little trip to la la land. If I didn't need a fill would I have lost and gained the same pound like 5 times now? Uh huh.

Anyone seen a yellow fuzzy hubcap lying around here anywhere? I seem to be missing one.

[Mikey 0]

Sorry Donna...

I stole your fuzzy yellow hubcap to wear around my neck for my next rap single. I am recording a new hip hop LBT protest song...

I'm having a hard time finding enough words that rhyme with filibuster.

[DonnaB 3]

Sorry Donna...

I stole your fuzzy yellow hubcap to wear around my neck for my next rap single. I am recording a new hip hop LBT protest song...

I'm having a hard time finding enough words that rhyme with filibuster.

LOLOLOLOL OUCH STOP, MAKE IT STOP - My sternum hurts! Oh, oh. Oh my.

Muster - something about an army

Custer - something about indians

Wait, it's rap right? Can you work with "Snuffed her"? As in - she was in a lot of pain so we snuffed her! ? What do you think, is a future in the music biz in front of me?

OK y'all. I'm off to buy a new garbage can for my kitchen. Ooooohhh Aaahhhhhhhhh. Do I live an exciting life or what?

Don't answer that.

[Scott F 0]

Scott F, Dr. Hansen, Sandy, UT -22 total, -0 pre-op, Feb 20, fills 4/5 1.5cc, 5/5 1.6cc

[Dancer 0]

Welcome Scott!

Glad you found us!!!! This is a great group, and a little silly at times!

Best support you will find!!!!

Good morning everyone! Hope your day is going well!

[Dancer 0]

Good morning everyone!!!

Where is everybody? I miss you guys!

[Tamyrn 0]

I'm up and down 1 stinkin' pound over and over...Aaaarrgh!!!

[skbishop78 0]

Hey guys

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO I put on a size 12 today!!!!!!!!! OK it was so tight I couldn't hardly breath....BUT I got it zipped!!!!!!!! I didn't wear it cause I wouldn't have been able to breath but hey i got it on!!!!!!

I am officially down 40 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooo excited! Sorry doing a little dance for myself....i can't help it!

[Julie* 0]

Stacey: That is awesome news!

Tamryn: Hang in there. I spent a month there and then I dropped 5 pounds in a week. Our bodies do strange things don't they?

Well, my fill seems to be working for me. I only had .5cc put in and I feel alot of restriction 4 days later. I am only eating mushies right now and it's amazing to me how different I feel. I don't have another appt for 3 months and hope to show my surgeon some good steady weight loss during that time.

[Dancer 0]

Stacey - Way to go girl! I got a 14W on and zipped and a ladies 16 on and zipped yesterday...couldn't wear them, but like you, I got them on! Keep up the GREAT work!

Julie - Way to go on the restriction! Your surgeon is going to be so proud when you show him that great weight loss! Keep up the good work!

[skbishop78 0]

Thanks for the congrats ya'll...I truely felt good today for the first time in a long time! Wow...what a feeling!

[SRaeM 0]

So happy update! Broke my slump and lost 11 lbs. I am still working on restriction. I have limitations in my bite size, but not in the quanitity of food. I've been struggling with allergies and new meds. like crazy. Am I the only one that is constantly dealing with nausea?

[Jerseytammy 0]

You all are a hoot, u make me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry!

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO Stacey!!!!!!! CONGRATS GIRLY:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

Ok ya'll I am scared to death to eat, I just got my 3rd fill. I am 9 cc in a band that holds 10cc, OMG 9 not 8 not even 8.5 but 9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:faint: :faint: :faint: :faint: :faint: :faint: :faint:

I have pbed once since being banded and now I am scared to put anything in my mouth, Look onderland cause I got a feeling I am on my way. Oh remember a few threads back I was complaining about having no restrictions, ughhhhh!!!!

When and saw my PCP yesterday and he seems to think it is my horomones causing all the Hair loss and ups and downs. He took some blood work and said to give me a week and we would talk again, cross your fingers!!!

Oh you're all doing so wonderfully I wish you all a great Memorial day weekend!!!!!!!!!!

And Pray that I can EAT!!!